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Chapter 20 - Training Day One

POV - Felix

I felt a snap in my wrists at first as tears started to spring to my eyes at the sting. it wasn't bad yet but I know the first shift is excruciating. We were all in Laurens training center and after she showed us around and I got changed into a robe we entered into the large indoor arena and I got ready to shift.

"just breathe Felix" Ferra whispered "give me control and don't resist no matter what" I am so glad to have her back.

i took a deep breath in and then the pain set in. My nails elongated and my teeth sprouted out making me let out a growl in determination. My bones cracked and broke reforming and elongating. The sounds likely filled the arena but I focused only on my breathing.

Big breath in and I fell to the floor.

Big breath out, my arms gave out elongating as my nails dug into the dirt terrain.

Big breath in, the bones in my back cracked and made my body rise up in pain.

It continued for 10 minutes, bones breaking and reforming, my hair sprouting over my body and changing. I couldn't see anything I had closed my eyes and when it was done I went to stand on my paws only to fall back down.

I wasn't use to this form but as I finally got to stand on all fours I looked around looking at my friends shocked faces. I must have been around 6 foot tall at standing height in my wolf form and I felt more powerful than I had ever felt before.

Lauren pointed over at the mirror directing me to take a look at myself. I am beautiful. I look in my form. My fur coat entirely white and my eyes the same icy blue as they always were. When Ferra had come forward in the past my eyes always turned black which was an odd contrast to what I saw here, It was also generally usual for a wolf and their human to share eye colour but I was greatful as it is one of my favourite things about myself. My mum's eyes.

I shock out my fur doing a little spin and letting out a soft howl as I turned back to my friends giving a little prance as I trotted back over.

"You're beautiful Felix... Ive never seen a pure white wolf. I thought her eyes would have been black though?" Amelia let out in a big breath as if she had been holding it in. I tried to kinda shrug tilting my head to convey I felt the same about the eyes thing. I rubbed against her to show my appreciation as I wasn't sure how else to communicate it. I just shook my head and let out a huf.

"Most white wolves just went extinct the genes were mostly wiped out during the war. But you look just like your mum. It was a part of her blood line traits so it makes sense." Lauren said as she paced toward me running her hand through my coat. "She would have been so proud of you"

This was also the first time my Aura had been set free so although Amelia, Lauren, Philip and Darius were unaffected Lilly and James were under a bit of pressure. It wasn't my full Aura as I was calm but I didn't know how to pull it back yet. James and lilly both kept their eyes down and heads bowed which was strange. I didn't want them to feel like that and a whined to try emphasis that I needed help.

"Okay okay, that's a good point Felix. That brings our first two lessons. First off controlling your Aura. Probably Amelia would be best to guide you on this" Darius said smiling over at me. He had some much care in his eyes. it made my heart swell.

"Sweet. Cool cool cooool. I am sure I can try but I've never tried to explain it well." Amelia said making me lock eyes with her "I guess think of it like a part of you. Like your stomach after you've eaten too much. How it balloons out. Your Aura is ballooning out of you..." she frowned at me as i let out a huff to show her explanation entertained me. "I am doing my best here. Anyway. Imagine sucking it in and holding it there. Pull your Aura in tight to you..." she smiled and shrugged hoping it made sense. I gave a nod then closed my eyes.

Okay... i thought about every inch of my body and then went to my mind every inch of my being. The power I felt rushing through me I felt it clearly. It just orbited my body softly. I thought about slowing it down and it being a part of my skin. Sucking it in so to say. I controlled my breath and stayed calm pulling at the edges of my power untill I felt it still withing my fur not going any further.

"Thank f**k" Lilly let out with a laugh as I opened my eyes "Goddess Felix I have never felt anyone that strong before to just have that sort of power while calm and collected. Holy s**t I felt like I couldn't breathe."

everyone burst out laughing as I nuged against Lilly's arm and she took my huge neck into a hug.

"Also just because I couldn't talk doesn't mean I didn't see you rubbing off your scent on Amelia." James huffed as Amelia gave his arm a solid punch. He looked down again muttering to himself "Just because you are both girls doesn't mean shit..." he went off.

He wasn't wrong but I loved Axel and that wasn't going to change even if the bond was weak. We had kissed before and I was sure he knew about that. Most recently just before they met when we were still 17. A bit experimental just so we knew what we were doing. Since neither of them seemed worried over flirting with Darius and Lauren I can only assume that is the issue. Or he thinks with Axel gone I will go to the next best thing. His sister. I'm not even straight but not really anything else either. I just only love Axel.

"Okay okay. What was the other thing we have to do??" Lilly said eyeing up Darius as he nodded.

"Yes well. Mind linking. Since everyone thought she didn't have a wolf no body tried to mind link her and so she needs to learn how to put her walls up and down to allow communication" he looked over to me and smiled "you can be in your human form for this one love."

Everyone other turned away and I shifted back. It wasn't as painful as shifting into wolf but it still hurt. I got my robe on quickly and everyone turned around.

"Well, James why don't you try reach Felix through the mind link and see if she can let you in. It's kind of like when you are talking to your wolf from what we understand. You can choose whether of not they get access or you can push them out when you want." Lauren said with a smile. It was odd they knew so much I wonder if it's from lone wolves from the center...

I felt a slight pressure at the front of my mind like a push on a door I was holding the other side of and I let it go...

"Felix I love you but if you keeping rubbing up on Amelia I might kill you in your sleep" I heard James voice in my head but he was just smiling with a c****d eyebrow looking at me Dearing me to respond.

"You are just jealous because you know she'd pick me" I smiled back winking at him. He let out a growl and everyone else just looked confused.

"Okay well whatever that was obviously it worked did it go both ways?" Darius asked

"Yes." James huffed out

"Perfect well lilly why don't you try get in and see if Felix can hold up the barrier keeping you out?"

with that the same pressure built but instead of letting go I just stood there. It was fairly easy and I was quite surprised at how well this was going. Lilly shrugged and looked at Darius.

"Groovy, okay keep trying out the mind linking stuff at home. For now let's go have breakfast that is more than enough for a first day and we will get into combat tomorrow" Lauren said

As we all went to exit Lauren pulled me aside briefly "Look when we are all training together this will work well but when it is just us, You me and Darius, you need to let me in your mind to communicate." she smiled at me. Instead of responding I just imagined opening the metaphorical door and thought.

Easy. Then I shut the door and we both laughed walking arm in arm to the kitchen.

I am going to master this s**t.