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Chapter 17 - I'd Rather not Know

POV - Lauren

Darius and I had both adored Teresa and I could feel that we both would feel the same for Felix. She was the blood of our close friend. I thought it was funny that Felix felt that Darius loved her mother in a way as more than friends. With the curse neither of us ever tried in relationships it was not something we really desired. We found comfort in living our lives as a f****d up couple but it worked for us since we were generally unsure how others truely felt about us.

She had told Sen she had a good life but I knew better and I wanted to kill her step family even more now. I suspected that they killed Teresa for years now but with no proof I would start another war if I made any action on it. The way Katherine treated Felix made me even more sure of what I felt. An alpha born wolf having child birth complications was unheard of but the council agreed with the cause of death and that was the end of it .

I pulled Felix into my chest rubbing her back trying to rub away the fear. But I had seen her future and she was in danger from Katherine and her shitty offspring. Many thought demons were evil but we just saw the evil in others and their desires and many demons had historically run with this as used it to make people act on their evil wants. My powers were greater than that but i could still feel those feelings and wants and Felix had none.

She needed to be protected. She had other threats relating to the remaining members of the Moonlit Pack and them recognizing her wolf forms aura. If they still have witches working for them it would alert them to her location. But the future I've seen the danger within her own pack is approaching much faster.

She didn't know how strong she was though and I think if she can survive this current threat she will be able to lead us further away from the ongoing c*****e of war. This center was just a bandaid not a solution. We needed a solution.

"Felix my love. I cared for your mum deeply I don't want to hurt her memory and I would never hurt you but there are things you must know. I can tell you everything but I will start with what you need to know and if you want more answers like why your wolf is unwilling to shift I can tell you about that too. In three years when you return to your pack your life will be in danger and you will need your wolf to fight it. In your human form alone you are at risk... you need to be able to heal and I believe that Ferra would not be willing to do that even if it was worst case..." i could tell she trusted me but she didn't know why and it made her worried. She had no reason to be worried. "your mate will not save you. But you should know he does love you he is just blind and from what I can tell he will become more blind at Alpha school. That school is all about power."

"Why are you telling me this" she said holding back tears. She was glad he loved her but she is worried about what I am saying

"Because I need to train you. in your wolf form. for what will happen" i closed my eyes placing my hand on her head and searching for her wolf "Ferra" I called knowing she was having her little hissy fit about their mate "you know this to be true you need to rejoin Felix. Stop this nonsense. she needs you and we need to train. We will do it I'm secret I have a facility we can go to in the mornings like you did at the pack. It will be safe I won't hurt you I just can't lose you like we did your mother" i took a big breath in waiting for a response

"We trust you. Thank you for bringing her back. we will do as you say and prepare. I don't think I want to know more about my future right now though.." she trailed off taking a big breath and composing herself

"Okay love. Let's go wait in the Cafeteria dinner will be served in 5 and Amelia and James are already in there with Sen. She liked them" i kissed her forehead letting her pull away from the hug I had her in for the last 15 minutes and took her had to guide her. "Just one more thing. Sen doesn't have anything against the Alphas only Ramone. He didn't want Teresa and Andrew to be together as he knew her power. He didn't want to lose his seat even though it was never in the balance and he feels the same about you now." she looked at me and nodded as if she had already pieced it together like a big puzzle. Since her wolf came back I had been blocked from their thoughts similar to how Teresa was able to do so. I could still sense her intention, desire and feelings so I knew she wanted to become strong and wanted what I was offering.

I only hope she is ready and that I am not setting her up to start a war within her pack... or within the country.

POV - Felix

"I'm sorry I left" Ferra said as we walked down the hall. I was glad to have her back especially after she said she could block Laurens thoughts.

"I'm sorry I was so angry. it's not your fault. Lauren made it clear our mate is not making clear decisions"

"Yes I agree with her. I am not sure who but someone is guiding him. From what I heard it could be Ramone" she huffed in anger. we are both angry now. But not at each other. now with her back and on the same side we can work through this.

"When we are ready we will ask Lauren for more information and fight for him. for ourselves" She huffed in agreement as I came back to the real world

"Good chat?" Lauren asked smiling at me as she held open the door to the cafe

"Yes perfect chat" i smiled at her and nodded as I entered. I want to walk toward Amelia, Sen, James and Darius when she grabbed my wrist pulling me back.

"Felix. Only trust those in your house and those who loved your mum. Do not share this with anyone else but Amelia, James, Philip, Lilly, Sen, Darius and I. It is a long enough list to keep you from feeling alone but short enough to keep things quiet." she whispered in my ear

"What about Jake" i wispered knowing that if he wasn't on the list he likely wasn't included.

"No" she said with disgust as if she hated him already without meeting him. He is my brother though. I feel conflicted about the whole thing I love him but I trust Lauren for some reason.

"I trust her too." Ferra seemed more confident than I about this so I agreed nodding to Lauren to show i understood.

When she let go i looked at my friends at the table and smiled, Amelia and James looked a little confused but I knew I would explain to them tonight. Sen and Darius looked like they understood.

Lauren sat next to Darius. Neither of them ate "food" as such. Lauren ate souls and Darius drunk blood so they didn't need to be here but obviously liked the company. They were whispering to each other then looking over at me every once and a while. I guess discussing my next steps. They made a good looking couple.

"So what do you do James" he said in a voice which was even more sultry than usual. James started squirming in his seat as Lauren leaned over whispering something into Darius's ear.

"Ahhh I study... uhm Politics with..." James started to get lost in his eyes losing his train of thought before Amelia gave him a punch in the shoulder and hard stink eye. James coughed and looked away down at his shoes "with my mate..." he finished off trying to recompose himself.

Amelia and he are both bi so I can understand why Darius had such a strong effect on him.

"Oh such a shame... I typically don't get involved in couples but if it meant taking you to bed I'd consider it" Lauren and Amelia both laughed as James and I both choaked on our food. Darius just winked at Amelia blowing an air kiss her way.

"That's enough. No R rated topics at the dining table" Sen called out as Lauren continued to laugh.

It was pretty funny watching James struggle under his alluring aura. Amelia seemed weirdly chill I guess she was not generally the jealous type.

I thought about how I would feel if that happened to Axel in front of me but with having some experience around it I think now I would probably feel similar to Amelia.

Thinking about Axel made me want to tap into the bond. But I felt nothing... No emotion at all...