Chapter 12
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BLAKES POV
Ive been having a battle with my wolf about our mate. Im still weirded out by her being my cousin but i still have different feelings for her that a cousin shouldnt have.
My wolf is still pissed with me and having other unmated females around doesnt help. Esmee is only around cuz she was a good f**k before i knew lexy was my mate, at this point Esmee is trying to get a reaction out of Lexy and its working which might be bad.
"BLAKE MICHEAL KNIGHT" i winced once i heard my dad
Oh boy what now i thought
you f****d up some where Cali chuckled
im dead your dead to buddy boy
your ass before mine He snapped and blocked me out
I was about to open my door when my dad came in like someone took his mate
"Jeez dad what the hell"
He growled at me then slammed my door "What in the damn hell are you doing with your mate"
i gulped "Well i a"
"Thats what i thought, what have i told you about the importance of our mates" he calmed down and sighed at me
"That the moon goddess gives us them as our other half and soul mate" i said
"Then whats going on with you an lexy" he asked
I sighed "i dont know to be honest dad, i know lexy must have told you by now"
"I heard from your uncle Loki"
"s**t"
"Come on blake whats goin on, why are you acting this way or ill get your mother" he said
"Oh god no moms the worst with this, i dont know dad things just arent as easy as what they were when you found mom" i said
"Blake it wasnt always easy, yes me and your mom are happy but we did have our times i wanted to reject her and she did want the same for me, but we worked it out, soon enough youll want lexy around all the time and no males around her"
i growled at the thought of other males around my mate " i see" dad said
"What" i asked
"By the way you growled you dont like the thought of other males around lexy"
"Yes" i said
"It cant just be your wolf wanting lexy you need to as well as with her and her wolf" he said
"I never said i didnt want her"
"By the way youve been acting i say other wise, not to add with Esmee"
i growled "Esmee has nothing to do with this"
"Clearly she does by lexys view she sees you flirting with her all the time and i know you two use to f**k"
"Ew gross dad i dont need to know that you know about my s*x life"
"Im just saying son, Lexy can smell Esmee all over you which shows her wolf you didnt wait and didnt want her, try to understand females are a bit different from how we think or act, they have more brains with things then us, trust me your mom never lets me live down half the s**t i use to do. But i still love her and thank the moon goddess for giving me her. I know its hard to see now but lexy will be the best thing that happens to you n you as hers. But you have to show her. and her wolf. The moon goddess didnt make a mistake matching you two together yes it is different for two cousins to be mated but we are not like the humans we are different try to think about it son" he said
i sighed "Its not that i dont want her as my mate, yes it does weird me out that she is my cousin but what are other people going to think once me and lexy do mate and she has my mark, people already look at us funny at school. i know i shouldnt care but even the rest of our pack doesnt know i found my mate nor lexy, they just think im going through a man w***e stage."
"Try to work through it who cares what other people think are you going to work it out or reject her we both know lexy has been waiting for the day she found her mate. I dont support the rejection i think you need to try but i will support my son. But these are things you need to learn to think about for your self remember Loki wants you as the next Alpha as the alphas kids dont want it, this is way we trained you like a alpha we knew lexy wouldnt want to be the next alpha. Shes always been more of a follower not a leader like her mom. But try to work with lexy as the next Alpha and Luna the pack will look to the two of you and you both need to start acting as the next alpha and luna we need." he said and left
i sat on my bed thinking about everything, my father has points but i cant reject lexy can i.
What would the pack think?
Is this something i can really put her through, i cant watch her go through that pain. Ive never been one for watching lexy go through pain, Ive always been protective over her which makes since now that we are mates. But how will this change us being mates changes everything, the fact alone scares me, ive always loved lexy but i didnt think i could love her as my mate.
Why does this have to change everything, i try to understand the moon goddess paired us for a reason but what for. i know i shouldnt question her but im really wondering why my cousin, can i get past the fact that shes my cousin and the judgement of others or what.
I need to think about this more i know what i decide will effect everyone in a way but i need to do whats best for me and lexy
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