Dear Brother

Dear Embarrased

"It's good girls who keep the diaries; the bad girls never have the time." - Tallulah Bankhead.

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"Dear Diary Harry is really cute, I think I noticed him staring at me. I always look forward to seeing him everyday." Zayn mimicked a girly voice practically reading out a piece of torn paper from my diary in front of everyone in the cafeteria.

"Zayn it's not funny." I muttered when my vision became blurry.

"Yes it is." He smirked.

Laughter filled the room everyone laughed. Welcome to my daily life, people make fun of me and push me around because I'm not like Zayn Malik my twin. He is popular well I'm just alive and existing, He is in the Soccer team and am not into sports, He gets straight A+ and well I get A- that's close. He has four bestfriends Niall, Liam, Louis and Harry well I have no friend what so ever but we share the same hair colour, same hazel brown eyes, the same tanned skin we shared the same womb but he sure doesn't treat me like his family not even close to his sister.

I run to the bathroom after such an experience, slowly convincing myself that Don't cry Don't cry Don't cry. Tears keep flowing down my cheeks escaping each eye, I have been through this before the only difference is Harry Styles finally knows about my crush on him who am I kidding the whole school knows. This is my senior year this time next year "this" "Everything" won't even matter, I told myself. I will move far away and never return to this place, never ever. I will start over in a new place where I will be appreciated and Zayn won't be there taking my place for me in this world, growing up I realised there could only be a place for one of us in this world and right Zayn had taken that place but in college I will take that place from him. I will forget about Harry get over him this stupid crush will be gone before I know it. I will meet new people who will appreciate my existence. People who will not mistaken the name Zaneh for the name Zayn. People will call me by my birth name instead of only being know as 'Zayn's twin sister.'

It will be the beginning of the rest of my life without Zayn and everyone else.

Harry Styles isn't everyone else. My inner voice mocked me.

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