The Innocence is Gone

months of the year

April's POV

Alex and I shared eye contact after my question. I was a little nervous about what he was going to say. I looked away first.

"I enjoy my peace January. So I cannot share my apartment with you."Alex told me and of course he got my name wrong. He was obviously doing it intentionally.

"It is only for a night. I have nowhere else to go."I tried to convince him.

"How many times do you need to hear that it is not my problem. I don't even know you. Why would I let you near me?"Alex asked shoving his hands in his sweatpants pockets.

I chuckled feeling like he was being ironic. "So you get to know every girl you have slept with around campus before you sleep with them?"I asked him.

"What?"

"I am just asking since you said you cannot let me near you because you don't know me." I told him.

There was silence between us for a while as we just stared at each other. "You need to leave. "Alex broke the silence by asking me to leave.

I could not let him slam the door on me again. I had a feeling if he did that, he would not open it if I knocked again. So I let myself in by pushing past him. I was inside. I had this new sudden daring rush in me. Maybe because I was scared of sleeping outside. I was ready to do anything. I even surprised myself that I did that. It was so unlike me. I was the shy timid girl who would not dare to even knock at a guy's door but here I was pushing through one.

Alex was caught off-guard by my actions because he looked as if he froze for a moment. "Who told you that you could come in? I said leave not get in, June."he yelled at me his height towering me. He was really tall compared to my five foot six self.

"You have already used June. Try September maybe."I told him with a smile. Okay, I was not always this type of person that I was being now. I have never acted like this with anyone. Well, I had no many people to act like this with. So this was another side to me I never knew I had. I wasn't sure how to feel about this new side to me.

Alex stared at me and I could tell he was speechless. "What is wrong with you June?"he asked me very annoyed.

I sighed shaking my head. "I told you to try September."he started it with the names, he might as well keep the game rolling.

"I think June is better for now."he told me.

" Whatever, apparently I have twelve names now so feel free to call me whichever name that you like."I said tiredly. "Look Alex, just let me spend the night here. I promise I will leave tomorrow morning. It is getting late and I have no hopes of finding a place to sleep tonight. Let me crash here please. I am begging."I was literally begging him.

He just stared at me. "I can pay you for the night I will be spending here if that will make you agree to me sleeping here. I can sleep on the floor too, it does not matter."I paused thinking about what I just said. It did not sound right. "Okay, I cannot sleep on the floor because I have never slept on the floor but I am okay with sleeping on the couch?"I was just rumbling at the point.

"I have not agreed to you sleeping here so stop planning on where you want to sleep."Alex told me closing the door. That was a good sign right?. He walked past me to the inside of his apartment. I followed behind him.

The door led to the first door with led to the kitchen. A very modern open kitchen that was sparkling clean. Three steps or more ahead, there was the living room and a dining table of three people. The living room was quite big. It had a black leather couch and a black coffee table and a sixty four inches TV mounted on the grey walls in front of the couch. I found the TV dramatically big but it was his, who was I to judge.

The apartment had just a simple black and grey aesthetic. I found it depressing really if I was to give a comment about his apartment. His furniture and decor was black and the walls were grey. Who has such unhappy colours as their colour theme for their apartment? But....the place looked quite expensive and well kept as depressing as it was. It showed that Alex was a clean and tidy person. At least he had one good trait.

After I had enough survey of the living room I wondered where Alex had gone. He was not in the living room. I shrugged and I walked to the couch and I sat down. I hummed in relief. Finally, I was sitting down. I had stood for quite a long time while negotiating with Alex. I leaned into the couch shutting my eyes to savour the taste of relaxation.

"You can have the extra room but I want you gone by tomorrow early in the morning."Alex's voice suddenly spoke and I jumped a little startled. I opened my eyes and I looked at him annoyed. I had just relaxed for a bit there but I guess that was it.

Well, now he had changed his clothes. He had black jeans on, a back t-shirt and a leather jacket on it. That fit was so badboy coded.

Then I processed what Alex just said. His fits had distracted me for a second there. I smiled at him standing excited. "Wait, really?"I asked for clarification.

"Did I stutter?"Alex asked me back and I restricted the urge to roll my eyes at him. Why was he so cold and rude? He just killed my mood to give him a genuine happy reaction.

"Thank you."I simply said. "Do you need anything in return? You know, like money?"I tilted my head looking at him.

"This is not a hotel September. Just don't be here when I wake up tomorrow."He called me September. Finally. I found myself smiling that he finally called me September. "The keys to the apartment are in the bowl on the shoe rack at the entrance."he told me walking to the door. There was a shoe rack? I must have missed it in my hurry to get into the apartment to avoid the door being slammed on my face.

But wait....."You are leaving?"I asked.

"If you must know, yes."

"I need a lift. I should get my bags before the dorm administrator throws them outside. Can you give me a ride to campus?"I requested and Alex paused tying the laces of his black boots he picked from the shoe rack.

He went back to tying his shoe a second later and after he was done, he stood upright and looked at me with an unreadable expression on his face. Not that his face was readable any other time anyways. "Are you crazy December?"he asked.