New Beginning

TWO | RESTART

 Rae

     My nights are crap, since my mom and my brother died I can't sleep, I really need to get my life on track but every time I think things are getting better I hit the rock bottom again, I'm affraid of choosing and in the end discover that it was the wrong choice.

     "UUH, how am I supposed to know what to do now?" I complained to myself.

     "Come on Rae, stop with the self pitty, you're going to figure things out."

     That right there is Bianca, my best friend, well my only friend really. I know, I know, cliche right? Well I give myself that privilege because I wasn't the most sociable person in school and she just forced herself in to my life and I couldn't do anything, so here we are. 

     "B, what am I gonna do? You're the only one I have now and you're not gonna be with me anymore. YOU KNOW I CAN'T MAKE FRIENDS!" What if I really can't make any friends other than her, it's not like I have experience to do it. 

     "Can you chill out a little? You're freaking out badly Rae, and I'm not gonna be with you physically but I'm always there and you know it."

     "Damn right I'm freaking out, I still need to figure out if I'm going to college, and if I am going I need to decide where I'm going."

     "I know Rae, but look at the opportunity, you can start your life over, somewhere people don't know everthing that happened with you, and I'm always a call away, if you need me I'll go wherever you are so don't worry. And come on, do you really think you're that bad to hang out with? If you were you wouldn't be my best friend."

     "Oh the audacity. Fine I'm gonna try not to freak out, but you need to help me decide what I'm going to do."

     If there was one person that knew me more than my family was Bianca, we were sitting on the couch when she pulled a bottle of tequila from her purse. 

     "Why are you giving me this?" She knew it was my favorite drink but I didn't understand why she brought one today. 

     "Well, knowing you like I do, I figured you would have a melt down and that you'd need help about what to do. So before I left my house I grabed it so it could help you. We'll get all your acceptance letters and for each one you think it's worth rejecting you take a shot." I knew the universe made her my best friend for some reason.

     "B, you're a genious. I'll get the shot glass." I went to the kitchen and grabed two shot glasses, then I went to my room and got all the letters so I would finally decide what I would do to my life. 

     "Can you tell me why you have two glasses in your hand?" I smiled and handed one glass to her. 

     "Do you really think that I'm drinking alone? No way, this may be my future but it was your idea to make a drinking game, and drinking games are never played by only one person. So brace yourself because it's gonna be a long afternoon." She looked at me with a pissed face and all I could do was laugh, I loved her but if I'm going to do this, she's going to do it with me. 

     "At least we'll save money at the bar tonight." She claped her hands, got up from the couch and took the letters from my hands so we could get started. 

     "Ok, so I think that we need to stablish if you wanna live in a big city, or a small one, or do you want to live by the ocean, or the mountains, uuh uuh..." I raised my hand before she could get even more carried away by her enthusiasm. 

     "Wow, slow down B. I think I want to live by the water, it can be the ocean or it can be a river, any of it is fine." We lived in Telluride, Colorado. A really small town, and I always dreamed about seeing more than this.

     "Alright, so that leaves us with UCLA, UC Berkeley, The University of New Orleans and University of Central Florida. So what's it gonna be?" She asked, with and excited look on her face. Just by making that decision we drinked 5 shots for all of the other colleges I rejected.

     "I don't think I can be as cool as people are in California, so that's a no, and Orlando is nice and all but I think that New Orleans has more mysteries, I think that's what I need now." Before I get more drunk than I already was, I emailed the Dean from The University of New Orleans confirming that I was going to attend their University and right after we took 3 more shots of tequila. 

     I left Bianca in the living room so I could take a shower and start getting ready to hit the bar, I'm not that much of a fan of going out, but latetly B refuses to let me stay home so I just go with it. After a quick shower and drying my hair I go to my closet and put some camouflage pants and a black tank top, I put some mascara on and head down stairs so we could leave.