Invisible

Dawn

Isn't it funny how the world works? People are so quick to label a misunderstood person as crazy. Two days ago I had one of the worst encounters of my life. So I met this white girl at a random party , I think her name was Dawn or something? I don't know , but what I do know is that you're probably wondering, why were you at a random party? Well I like going to parties especially when I feel like my meds aren't keeping me calm enough, that way I can drink and do as much drugs as I have to.

Anyways, so I had an episode at the party which everyone thought was a joke and that I was just going wild or something but long story short I ended up crying and cursing everyone out before I heard the sirens! That fu.cking bi.tch Dawn or whatever, admitted to calling the cops because she thought that i needed help??!! Why the actual f***k didn't she walk up to me and ask me if I needed help? Her first instinct was to call the bloody cops to a party with weed and drugs?!! But yeah anyways so I and the bi.tch got arrested with some other guys, I don't think they'll let me into their party ever again thanks to little miss dawn. I can’t wait to go home I’m so done with today! Hours later we were bailed out by Dawn’s mom.

“Mom it’s so good to see you, thank you so much and I’m so sorry I got into trouble but I swear I wasn’t drinking or smoking either, you know me mother.”she says to her mom acting all innocent while forcing a fake tear to roll down her cheek. “It’s ok Dawny I believe you” her mom replied with a soft smile while embracing her daughter.

What a touching scene, now what I actually wanna know is why this lady I don’t know and clearly have never met before, bailed me out as well? Should I ask her that or would It seem too rude? Maybe I should just say thank you and get going. I walked up to them,

“ thank you for bailing me out ma’am even tho I don’t know why, but I’m glad that you did” I said as I forced a smile on my face. They both turned and looked at me, I started to regret my decision but surprisingly Dawn walked up to me and hugged me.

“Are you okay? I saw you having a mini convulsion and I thought someone probably spiked your drink or something I didn’t mean to call the cops, I panicked” she said to me as sincerely as possible. “Convulsion? I don’t remember convulsing or anything of that sort” I replied acting confused. “Oh my apologies I thought.... you know what? I’m just glad that you’re ok, My name is Dawn nice to meet you” she said to me in the nicest way possible, staring into my soul with those goddamn blue eyes. “ I’m Jada...” I replied.

“Jada who?” I was interrupted by her mom. “Jada Neveah Johnson” I replied rudely, already getting agitated. “ were you aware that there was drugs and alcohols and weed at the party? How old are you? Where do you live? Can I speak to your parents or guardians? Why was my daughter with you?” Her mom yelled out.

“Mom stop this !!” Dawn blurted out. I have a billion things I could say to this lady disrespectfully but since she just bailed me out, I might as well just go easy on her. “Ma’am you don’t have to worry about me, me and your daughter only met at this party and we came separately, my parents are dead and I have no guardian, I live alone and I’m turning seventeen in a few days.” I said to her calmly. “And I had no idea illegal substances were at this party” I lied through my teeth. She looked at me with both pity and disgust in her eyes, it felt like I was suffocating. “ well if you don’t mind, I have to get going but thanks once again for bailing me out and it was nice meeting you Dawn, and I sincerely hope we never meet again goodbye” I awkwardly walked out. Phew that was exhausting, I’ve made enough human contact for a week, my introverted self is crawling back to my safe space which is my bed and I’m not leaving it till Monday when I start my new job at a new cafe not too far from here. I think it’s called sip and something I’m not so sure, all I know is that it’s called SNS and I applied a few weeks ago, got called for an interview last week, and I got the job. How did this week turn out to be soo shitty. I ended up spending the rest of my week indoors trying to prepare myself for human socialising and working on Monday. I’ll admit it I was more than worried because I didn’t tell them that I was diagnosed with schizophrenia, depression, bipolar disorder and much more… I know I know, I should’ve been honest but they would’ve called me crazy and I wouldn’t have gotten the job.

*Alarm and the sound of birds chirping*

It was Monday morning 6:30am, my job starts by 9am. I sat on my bed exhausted and annoyed, a thousand percent not ready for the day at all! I looked at my phone and the got up to go do my usual morning routine, I walked into the bathroom with my sleepy eyes straight to the toilet to pee, when I was done, I went to the sink to wash my hands but something was definitely off….