Fallen

Chapter 7: Love, War and Forgiveness

It’s been six months since storm Jebi hit Shinano and the nearby districts such as Kyushu and Fukouko. Belle is still hurt missing Mark and she still hasn’t forgiven Shoji about what happened in the factory. The textile factory was now submerged with waters that the District of Shinano called for a meeting on how to use the rubble as additional metal to build more sewers to be placed deep on the ground for safety precautions, and to prevent happening again in the future, like the horrifying  experience she, Mark, the rest of her friends went through.  Because of the incident, Auntie Maki now is more appreciative of Shoji. Fixing him meals and kissing his cheeks just like when we were kids, which he totally hated. Shoji asked for an apology to Sayaka and I, which Sayaka automatically accepted and gave my silly friend another chance by courting her and promising to never lay eyes on other girls again including me. I soon forgave Shoji  when he sent a screaming 12 dozen of roses and boxes of chocolates which I gave to Shita and Mama since Valentines Day is up and about, anyway.  I sadly keep on thinking and wishing Mark will come home soon and that I wanted to explain to him what happened that night at the factory, that night when I was tempted but not because I love Mark so much. And it was a big mistake. My mistake that I will forever pay for, a debt from my childhood fantasy turned misery or nightmare,  since I know how much Mark loves me. I definitely blew it, but I am not totally to blame for it, Shoji is the culprit. Well, maybe I liked it to happen too, to test me whether my love for Mark is greater than the infatuation I had for Shoji a long time ago.  I am definite that I love my angel more than anyone else, more than myself, even. I know deep in my heart that I love Shoji as a friend, more like a brother and nothing more.   

In the Clouds near the Courts of Heaven

Bedoin seeing Mortha standing looking at the grandeur of the Sun seriously, in deep thought in one of the clouds near the Courts of Heaven:

 Sir, Mortha, as a friend, I would definitely want you to forget about the girl and move on. We are happy here in heaven, no hassle and no heartaches. But as an angel inspiring an angel feeling like a human, ah, it’s different!!!, I would not condone it but I would advise you to forgive and forget, know the reason why and get the girl back.

Mortha: Haaa….why does this feeling, of love, so hard to understand. I am confused and love is not the usual emotion when I help or motivate people to love or fall in love. But if you are the one feeling it, like what I am experiencing now, I don’t know what to do. Haha! It’s so ironic, really. Yes, I love her and I haven’t asked her what happened that night either.

Bedoin: Since we have the power to walk through the past and see the future. Why not try to find out what really happened that night? I think this is important not only for you but for Belle, as well. And you need to know what really happened to her and that boy. Right?

Mortha: I don’t think I can and I want to see what really happened. What if she did want it to happen and what if she was really tired of me or???

Bedoin: Listen to yourself. Remember when I was so afraid to lead the Army Angels and you wanted me to be the General? I turned to you and you inspired me to take the challenge. Since you believed in me I never had a slightest doubt that I would be able to lead the team. And I did well and still doing well because you believed, you believed in me! I think Belle needs to have that faith too. For you to believe in her.  And to believe with your love for her, and her love for you, right?

Mortha lay silent and thought it through, Bedoin is right and my love for Belle is greater than anything or anyone in the world: …………………and went back to the past, the night when Belle and Shoji were in front of the production room at the factory.

I flew like a wind, faster than the speed of light, lighter than a swift gazelle. I wanted to clear my head, so I flew invisibly around the world that it took me a day to scout the seas, lands, cities and people of the Earth. I feel like my strength went back and the sun heating the world is like firing me up inside with desire and light that I wanted to share with Belle. It’s not long when I thought of her I am suddenly in front of the Sun house in the middle of the night. I believe that is it 12 midnight now and it’s colder than the usual since, snow have been melting from December until February, the winter season is almost over.

I am so stupid that I didn’t hear Belle out. She was telling the truth that she didn’t plan it to happen. I also checked her and Shoji’s past when they were little, He was really head over heels toward my baby. She might have had an infatuation but when she found me on Lake Nijori, she found the one true love she wished for in her thoughts ever since her father died. She always cry at night, missing her dad and hid herself from the people she loves because she wanted to portray  a happy, confident woman in spite of the sadness, loneliness of not having someone beside her.  When she found and loved me, she was inspired and wanted to start a new, happy and positive life with her angel, me.

With my power of invisibility, I went to her bedroom and watched her sleep. She looked peaceful but her eyes are swollen, hmm! Maybe she cried all the time, many times missing me. Poor baby. It took me a year to come back to her.  But I am here now Belle. I love you and I am here for you. I’ve come home.

As if maybe Belle felt Mark with her. She woke up and saw his face in front of her. She suddenly stood as if shocked and touched my face, then pinched my cheeks, her eyes were as wide as an owl. It is really you, I thought I was dreaming!, Maa….Belle, hasn’t finished talking when I kissed her lips and hugged her so tight since I missed her so much. I am sorry Mark, I didn’t mean to hurt you! She said but I stopped her because I saw with my own eyes what really happened between Shoji and her that night at the factory.  She was still crying when I held her face and cupped her cute and sweet face, then kissed it again and again until she laughed and got tickled when I slowly went down to kiss her neck too.

Belle was speechless but I know she is very happy and so relieved that I am alive. I continued kissing her and I wanted to make her feel how much I love and miss her, so we made love. Then, another round, and another until the next day.

I have dreamed of Mark and everyday as if he is here with me, loving and protecting me, but why did he leave? He saw Mark moving farther and farther away from her and,  Huh!!!, Belle galloped when she saw Mark beside her. She thought all was just a dream. Mark is with her and their love making was real. Um! Not to mention, they did it several times I’ve lost count, hihi! Belle thought embarrassed but felt so happy and tingly inside because Mark has finally come home to her. I wonder what happened to him and he decided to come back after a year, I was wondering, when Mark moved to face me and his body swerved to face mine, his breathe is what I hear and feel 2 inches away from where I was laying. I think we both fell on the floor after the ….ahhh!! Oh my….I still am so naked but feel amazing  by his touch on my body and still see how he did me vividly. He looks so amazing, hmm, a bit thinner but still muscular.

Why are you still up? Mark whispered when I touched his hair and his face, and he was trying to bite my finger, which I immediately pulled away and got scared when he spoke.  Shi*….you scared me. Since the light in my room is dim and what we can only see is the full moon shining brightly this evening, everything is magical.

Why took so long to come back to me? What happened? I added when he hugged me closely to his chest and then kissed my forehead.

Well…I had to think things through after what happened between you and Shoji, I got jealous and angry. And I wanted to cool down plus I don’t want to hurt you in the process, Mark said with sadness in his tone.

Hmm! that’s a weird way for you to cool down, it took you a year to forgive me. And you should’ve talked to me first, and all, I said while playing with my finger on his muscled chest which he smiled a bit when he got tickled by it.

Yes, I’m sorry, Belle, I love you and nothing can change that. I had help from my friends and God about the situation. So I was definitely enlightened, why I came back. If I can turn back time, I would. Okay, check this out, I didn’t know I can do this but close your eyes and I’ll let you see something beautiful.

Oh, okay!, I said laughing because Mark is so excited to let me see what he can do, like a child with a new toy.