Empathy

bullying stories part 1

i was bullied throughout my life, only to see it become noteworthy in grade 8. that was when I through came down on me like a hammer to a nail. when I was in grade 8, there was more psychological violence to put it that way.... people were horrid to me and I did not have really any friends but I whatever friends there were the turned on me quickly when they discovered I was lesbian. that being said, it did not help that I had a genius iq.

yet I was still bad at math. the other kids would see that Asa threat to rid themselves of right away of. that being said, I found that the kids are evil at times. that was what I learned.

i also had to deal with bullying in high school, but it wasn't as horrific as they made me look like I was anorexic and wanted to end everything. that aas basically it my mom got word if this anearly did 5150 on me. basically, that is where they hold you for psychiatric help for 48 hours. that was when I decided that I had to get the culprits who made me look like an i***t. that being said, that will lead that being said. I was starting to feel the effects of it when I was in eleventh grade.

that was when I knew I had to do something for my mental health. I was raised in a family where they expected too much of you that it was toxic and I could not seek help.

that was when I discovered the sirenhead mythos.

this was popularized by Canadian artist Trevor Henderson. that was when I wanted to prove that this thing was real and not a figment of some artist's imagination. soon in this realm we call earth, I was able to find real friends that had the same interests as me and belief system = that sirenhead was real. i went to make more and more friends. that was when I finally healed on my own with the help of people they were outcasts like me. that being said.... finding outcasts, be it goth, punk, or emo people, was also my purpose in life, not just finding sirenhead. that was when I realized that I was in good enough hands.

when this was going to influence my future. that was when I started these camping trips to see and hunt sirenhead. with our phones instead of weapons as we want to prove his existence. To be honest, we heard some eerie sirenheads off in the distance but did not find the actual monster..... bit the sirens were a sign that this might be really if it was just a police car in the distance or if it was the real thing. when still did not understand where these siren sounds were coming from

but it seemed to us that it was deeper in the forest than anything else. I remember the last time it was near the witching hour. that being 3:00 am in the morning. there is something about that 3 o'clock in the morning that would cause the veil from this world to the next to thin......kinda lime a mini Halloween. or Samhain. that is a very dangerous time to be awake. tha twas when I did nit want to be in the first that early in the morning. as it was disconcerting for me to hear it at the strike of 3.

hiw would I tell anyonenib school about that will beyond me. but what is beyond me is this sound at 3 am. Sharpe. so I used my voice memo app on my phone to get the evidence. that is obethibg these bullies will say is "prove it!"

as I went playbthe recording in high school you can imagine that I was the girl with the eerie freaky phone that might sounds beyond this world. when I realized that I could do something that m theory can not understand.... and that this is about the weirdest thing in the universe. From what I understand, this ended my bullying in school for good. that being I did not except that......... but that would still make everything in the Catholic high school to think my phone was possessed. did I really care about religion either...... no!

I thought that this school was too religious for me. so I was going to drop out until I realized that graduation was coming up the corner, and i was able to stand it for a few more weeks.

the idea if graduation was still new to my family as my parents and them before that was still high school drop outs for various reasons. I wanted to break this cycle and get into a good art school.

but then there was Clair, who was a complete witch at this point in school (college). that was annoying for me to deal. with was this preppy rich girl to take over my life by acting like a tattle tale and everything that would soon annoy me - at the worst of times.

so what I did was annoy her by ignoring her completely as well as the consequences of her taddle taling. I did not and still don't liem Clair for who and what she stood for. and what she stood for was phony everything: fake friends, fake love, and the cyber bullying lf other people who were not rich enough. it kind of made me sick to my stomach that she would be that mean to care only about money and the less value of a dollar. that and she jsed the filler word "like" on every second word. as you can see, this was annoying to any self-respecting human who was not like an iPad or smartphone.

there was one time I almost got into a cat fit with her about absolutely nothing at all except for the fact that I was skipping English lit again with my girl friend.

that was the last straw...

as she taunted me to thing I was not smart because if the English lit thing well she would hate me in math as I skipped that too. It's unlikely the idea of having to go to compulsory classes where you ended up. Having to do things that were mandatory and doing things that really were not important. Or were gonna be useful in life.

That being said, I was in college for a career.Maybe maybe more than that, but I was not interested in going into classes.That really didn't mean anything to me.I wanted to be an artist.I wanted to be an artist so bad it was gonna kill me.

that being said I was still dealing with alot if stuff between the sirenhead youtube channel and everything from English lit and how-to avoid it. itwasa daunting task.

there were other classes I remember skipping in high school as well as college...... for one i was not into team or competitive sports so i avoid the games. that was how I was operating.. got tue things that matter to me and anything else was not needed well except for astronomy courses that I was going to. As you can imagine, I had a Picasso and so I ended up picking astronomy as my science and college to study that being said, that was the only thing I could stand that was compulsory..

everything else was garbage to em as far as compulsory courses were concerned. that being said I had more then Andonia, when it came to the idea of the compulsory classes that being said, you can imagine that I did not like dealing with these because I had to deal with Claire. At least she was not in my astronomy class.