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LEO
“You… I want you…”
I feared for this day to come, no, I feared for my heart to feel this way for someone like him
Someone that ruined my entire life
My plan was simple, get him to fall for me, I knew he liked bad guys, I had studied him all my life to make him regret i ever existed, just like I despised him
The plan was f*****g simple, and i didn’t asked my heart to get involved with it, but somewhere between the lines, I knew I was in trouble
I started to enjoy him stalking me, trying to talk to me, his facial expressions, me pissing the s**t out of him, I started to enjoy his company, I have being alone of far too long, so my plan was flawed
I should have knew something like this would happen
I had a hint when I kissed him immediately we entered into the room yesterday, but I didn’t want to accept I had freaking fe… i dont even want to see the words out
But him telling me today instead of letting it die in that f*****g heart of his, did something to mind
My heart that had longed be silenced, forcefully being silenced by me
I led my life with control, order, but now… what now?
Why do I feel like am in hell when I see the pleading hungry look in his eyes as he confessed
His teary eyes… I got what I wanted, to make him be in pain, but why does this victory doesnt taste as f*****g good as I had lived all my life fantasizing about it
My inside tumbled, and he f*****g made it worst by moving closer to me
He tried to touch my arm, he did, and I pushed him away, it was out of reflex, but i didn’t wanted to feel guilt about it, my aim was to kill my heart and not let this happen to me
I just couldn’t.
My dead parents would mock me that he was so perfect that I ended up falling for him
My pride would be destroyed, and I would never be able to forgive myself, so I turned cold, and let my face show no emotions
“Don’t ever show your face to me again”
His eyes widened, and started to shake badly again
As if he was having a panic attack, it felt like he couldn’t do with me, that is why when he tried to ease the air, it didn’t work
“Don…don’t we have a game this night?”
He chuckled, if he were an acting student, he’d get a flying f*****g F right away, but i didn’t want to linger in any expression he gave, so that I don’t make it harder for myself
“I mean hijacking me like this”
I looked away, wore my shoe, and carried my bad to leave, but then I heard his voice again
It was shaky this time
“Did…did I really do something wrong, at least talk to me so that I know..”
Shut up, I begged him mentally to stop, but he didn’t
“At least reply to my answer”
Fucking shut up!
I clenched my bag, and closed my eyes, then he called my name again
“Leo, and I felt his leg moving up to me”
He was crying, it was evident in his voice, but i didn’t wanted to see that sight
“If you stalk me again, I’d tell everyone what we did”
His legs stopped at my words
“What…”
“How you begged me to f**k you…”
“What are you saying”
He grabbed my shoulder, and I see his shaking teary eyes, but I still didn’t stop
Maybe if I kill him with my words, he’d let go, and so would I…
So I looked him in the eyes, and spatted my venom out
“I’d make you suffer so much, that you’d regret knowing me”
But he was a psycho, is that how far I got him to fall for me?
“It’s alright, you don’t have to love me, if it’s s*x you want, I can provide that for you”
He begged me…
He begger me even though it would break him
What exactly did I do to make him like this
He bend down on his knees, and tried pulling my pants down, but he had never always be successful at the first attempt
I could have let him have his way, at least this once, I could just let him
But the fact that it would affect me was valid
If I had truly felt nothing for him like he thought, I would have kept on using him, but what would be the joy to let him blowjob me, and still go back to think about it?
No, to stay any minute meant time watching him crash and me burning myself as well.
I couldn’t let that happen, so I took his hands off my pants he was trying to pull down, and left without looking back no matter how many times he slammed the locker doors
HUNTER
The match started later that night, and surprising to me, we won cause he was a f*****g good player
If he weren’t here, the team would have flopped causs my heart was far too damage and it was affecting my head
But I acted fine, at least in front of others
But after the match, after every success matches we ever played,I would have to go congratulate every one of the team members for a job well done, that was the work of a captain, and I have never hated being it as much as I did right now
“Good job”
I shook his hand as much i didn’t wanted have contact with him, but I had to, cause everyone was watching, they wouod notice if i didn’t
They would act me questions that would only make me bleed
For the first time I hated my life
His eyes were looking at me, peaking into his soul, I already felt the tension without looking at him, i didn’t wanted to see his face, but then he pulled me closer and whispered something into my ear
“Payment complete..”
I shook and tried to release myself, I hate this happening to be in public where everyone could see and go gossip about it later, but he didn’t care
When I tried to let go, he only brought me closer to him, close enough we were obviously breathing the same air
Then he whispered again into my ears
“For the s*x”
He said, and i shivered
“Hey hey, what’s going on”
The others started to gather, and it was only then did he let go of me
“I am just returning a favor”
He said with a little smile on his face
Everything I felt, all my love and giving my first time to him, everything was nothing but a business transaction to him
I felt sick, that I could die
“Let’s take a team picture”
Another volunteered, and I couldn’t say no, cause I was the captain, but he obviously didn’t wanted to be in something he might probably regard as something dumb
“Am out”
“Oh c’m…”
Leo didn’t let him finish talking, he pushed him away when he tried to touch him, and shifted aside, and that was when I finally realized that he didn’t let anyone touch him, even if it was tap, or get close to him apart from me, but I didn’t wanted to let the thought get to me, he already made it clear I was nothing to him
“Are you alright?”
I along with some other teammates rushed up to the guy on the floor and helped him up
“f**k you”
He swore at Leo as soon he was up on his feet, but all that fucker does is scoff out and leaves, but I followed him, I couldn’t let it slide
“What was that all about?”
I asked when I was finally able to catch up with him, but I guess my words made him so pissed that he just had to hit the locker door
“Can you just let me breathe”
He hissed at me, and started to pack some s**t into his bag, he was going to leave me again and we might never talk until further notice cause the next game was in three weeks time, but this time I wasn’t going to use it on begging him to love me back or whatever f**k
“I get you hate me, but don’t hurt my teammates like that?”
“Got it?…”
I tried to act tough, but I knew the inside of me was running mad.
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