When Peach Blossom Blooms

Chapter 3

"W-what doc? What child?" I stare at him with incredulity.

My heart thumped as the shocking new entered my mind. I cannot register what is happening. Is this real? Am I really pregnant? I am dumbfounded for a moment. My brain can't react as this news shocked me silly.

"Yes, you are pregnant for 3 weeks already." The doctor said in a solemn tone.

The night 3 weeks before started to flood my mind. The last intimacy. The bliss before betrayal. I cannot fathom how one night of mistake bear a fruit. How did this even happen? 

"Hey Ah'rui are you drunk?" I said as Ah'rui walked towards me listlessly.

His eyes seemed to hold an unfathomable emotion that I cannot decipher. He stares at me with emotions and I cannot help but step backwards. 

"Y-you what's wrong with you" 

He still stay silent and suddenly lunged at me. I was shocked and stay frozen as he hugs with his arm. The smell of alcohol wafted from his body as the warmth I miss for all these months surrounded me again.

"Daiyu.. I am sorry." He said with soft voice. The arms around me started to tighten as I can feel the despair radiation from him. 

"What are you sorry for? I-I cannot understand" I said while trying to struggle out of his arms.

He did not reply as he suddenly grip my chin and tilt my face upwards. His thin lips instantly covers mine as his tongue assaulted my mouth. I tighten my lips as I can't  still understand what the hell is going on. I am frozen like a statue who doesn't know what to do. He fiercely bit my lips and I almost scream in pain. This gives him the chance to slip his tongue inside my mouth. I can fell his warm tongue exploring every bit of my cavern as he dominated all of it. 

I tried to struggle again but his strong arms are wrapped around my body. Every second feels like an eternity. I know we are together for many years and countless times like this already occurred but this one was searing hot as if trying to burn me with his love. I don't know if this is just my delusion but I want to cherish every moment so I just lower my defenses and let him invade me completely. After so many years, the I cannot almost remember how this feels, in the past every time he did this feels like he was just venting. However, this one feels passionate.

He lift me up and push me down to bed. His arms obstruct both sides of my head as he dive again and capture my mouth. His hands begin to get all over my body as my worn out shirt was teared without any effort. I am defenseless against him as he continue to attacked me with his passion. 

His kiss travelled down my neck and marks dotted all over my skin. This blissful t*****e continues until dawn and my mind is empty as I succumb to pleasure. 

Rays of light blinded my eyes as the morning comes. My body cramped in pain as the last night's events came back like a tide. I look down on my body and saw various marks that prove that last night's event are not just a dream. It is real.

I endured the pain as I tried to stand up from bed. He is not here. The other side of the blanket feels cold indicating his early departure. Maybe he is in the living room. Right. I keep walking around the house but I did not see him. Even his shadow is absent.  I sat down on the sofa as I cannot understand what is going on. What jus happened? Tears roll down my face as disappointment wash all over me. 

I look at my mother and to the doctor. I did not even notice the tears falling down from my eyes as I feel my outlook in life slowly turnover. 

"I will now also be a mother." I said between sob as the mixed emotions overwhelmed my whole being.  The trepidation from earlier turned into acceptance as the will to live and the desire to give my child a stable life germinate in the depths of my heart. From now on I will not feel lonely nor like an abandoned woman. Even though its true in a sense, I am not an object who can just be set aside. Now, I have someone who will accompany me and my mother. 

Child, remember this, I, your mother will surely give everything to you. Even though its a shame I cannot give you a complete family. I will strive to give you everything within my reach. I will fulfill every bit of space within your heart so you may never feel that you are lacking in anything. Let's start a new life, away from this city. Away from the people who only gives us suffering. We will now enter a new chapter. I will now let go of the past and look up in the future. For you, I will be strong. 

I stare at my still flat stomach and place my hand there. I can feel a new warmth filling up my desolate heart. Now, I am not alone. A new life will sprout from within me. Even though people may view it as a mistake, for me, this is a blessing. A new ray of hope that will keep me living.