Abandoned dream

Chapter 2 Sienna’s POV

Sienna was losing hope. With each passing day and not receiving any information from the scholarship sites she has applied to, she was worrying about not making up to her dreams.

I think this is where my dream ends, she thought to herself while lying on the bed with her face turned towards the side table where she had placed a picture of her family, the only picture where she with her parents can be seen which was taken almost 15 years ago.

Mom, I did my best and gave my everything in an attempt to get into Harvard. If I don’t get into Harvard because of finances, it’s not that I failed but my luck left me right? I hope you would not be disappointed at me.

Mom I am scared too. Harvard was my dream, my everything, even when I was tired, I kept going on pulling all nighters studying every night. I sacrificed my social life, didn’t do any leisure activities except doing extracurriculars that would help build my chances to get into Harvard. I have been preparing for this ever since my first year of middle school, I am sure this would not end this way right?

I was scared to sleep early believing I am wasting time so I kept staying up late. Everyone thought I was a strong girl who was blessed with talents in everything but the truth was I was faking it. I was being fake all the time I seemed strong. I was playing tennis, cheerleading, playing hockey, participating in chess competitions even when I didn’t enjoy because my core motive was to have a strong all rounded extracurricular background.

I studied even when I was sick. I watched endless tutorials on topics before my teacher taught me because I was determined to do better than everyone. I went to school after getting only three hours of sleep and I haven’t attended any party till now. When others were celebrating birthdays, going for movies and enjoying parties, I stayed home studying. I found joy in succeeding even when it was exhausting and all these was for Harvard. I am really scared mom. After all these hard work if I don’t get into harvard, it will really mean an end to my dreams mom. I have no idea what to do.

After telling mom what is going on and crying my eyes out I decide to see the amount of scholarship I will get from Harvard. I calculate it and based on my father’s income and being the only child I do not even get full scholarship but I get around 70%.

This cannot be an end to my dream. I did not come this far to stop here or end here. If I could make it this far, I can go till the end as well. I will earn myself. I will work myself and get the remaining amount. I know I will go to Harvard. I don’t believe that my life will end this way after all these years of preparation. I’ll work. Yes I’ll. I will not let my dreams end here.