I Want The Bad Boy !!

What's Wrong With Me ??

I stay in  bed that next day as Stark makes sure I eat and drink  plenty the nightmares eventually  turn into different kinds of dreams. Like My daddy  coming in out of nowhere to take me home. I love my daddy for that and so much more. My mom to she always takes care of me. Or Stark ..... actually will save that dream for later. Anyway, I even had a dream that Amelia and I where shopping for her some new furniture because she was growing out of the old stuff in more ways than one. She was so beautiful and  there was a little boy about two or three years old and right there in the  middle of the store my water brakes letting me know I'm pregnant. It is way late in the evening or very early in the morning I'm not quite sure how you do put it actually when I finally wake up able to stay up. My eyes are puffy and a little swollen making hard to see. Stark being the loving guy that I know brings me a cold eye mask and places it on my eyes. The cold from the mask feels so good against me sore swollen eyes that I just lay there and relax fighting the cold take away all the tears I shed. After letting the cool eye mask set on my eyes for 30 minutes I get up and hop in the shower washing my hair and my body before getting out and drying off with a big huge fluffy towel. I just slip on a sports bra a regular baggy t-shirt and some sweatpants since it's not actually time to be getting up and doing things before heading down to the stairs to check on Amelia. I carefully open her bedroom door and walk in leaving it open just a c***k behind me Softly stepping over to her bed I grabbed the covers and pull them up to just below her shoulders running my fingers through her hair kissing her on her forehead she looks like such an angel the sweet girl. I sit there and watch her sleep for a little bit before turning around and being startled by Stark who was standing in the doorway with a smile on his face watching me watch her sleep. He starts to chuckle when he sees me jump but then the involuntary treacherous tears that start to build up in my eyes change his whole demeanor which isn't what I wanted. He pulls me out of her room shutting the door quietly before hugging me and trying to apologize I just shaved my head trying to tell him that it's okay it wasn't that was kind of watery eyes. We going to the kitchen and grab a tray of fruit and some snacks before heading back up to the bedroom and turning on Hulu to watch a movie. We watch a movie you just sit there and talk for a little while let me play around before falling asleep each other's arms. This time I actually got to sleep with no Dreams Just peace and sleep.

Waking up the next day I roll over and kiss Stark good morning.  The kiss begins to get heated with our hands all over each other. As Starks hands find there way under my clothes I began to panic.  I start to hyperventilate as tears begin to  stream down my face. "What is wrong with me  ??" I whisper as cry. "Nothing  absolutely nothing is wrong with you baby do you hear me  ??" Stark says as raps his arm's securely around me. "Then why the hell am I having a panic attack when I initiated and wanted this in the first place ??" I asked absolutely confused. As I sit there and think my damn treacherous mind betrays me again. Mind why can't you ever be on the same page as body and body why can't you ever be on the same page our Mind why do you guys have to keep betraying each other, I think to myself. "Because  you have gone through a very traumatic thing baby and it is going to be one of the hardest things to get past. I will be here every step of the way tho." He says to me.  God I want him even  more right now. "I love you." I say softly into his ear. The smile spreading across my lips at the shiver he gets. I whisper,  "promise ??", this time brushing my lips against his earlobe.  This causes him to do it again,  plus his hands tighten around me as his body tenses for a second or two. I love the effects I have on him. "Promise " he say with a shaking voice as I feel an involuntary twitch under my leg. Without thinking I find myself straddling him as I  lean over and kiss him passionately. Grinding my body against his causes us to both let out breathless moans. Before either of us know it our clothes are gone and we are both climbing that pleasurable latter ou ecstasy. All else forgotten as we reach our limits together as we overflow with our exploding orgasms. Those are body shaking as him and I ride the ride of pleasure. I dropped him in the bed beside him as both of our chests are heating up and down as we catch our breaths trying to regain her composure. "Wow .... that was amazing." He says in-between breaths. All I seem to be able to do is nod my head in agreement as I don't trust my own voice at the moment.