Chapter 4
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"I knew it.. That gago! wala talagang magandang dulot yang weirdo na yan! look at you crying.. What is wrong with him! we knew naman na he also has fe.."
"Enough Chandria!" Verena said
"What?! Why?"
"She's right enough, we are not in a position to.." Xianee stop midway
"Conclude.."
"Okay... if you say so.. Just please don't cry na!" She gets a tissue to wipe my tears.
After of minutes of crying chandria takes us in his fave spot in the village and threat us some ice cream.
"How did you discover this place?" Verena asked all of a sudden
"A-Ah.. Why did you ask ba? just enjoy this place and stop asking! okay?"
"Did you guys experience heart breaks?" They choked on my question.. I was just curious! kung ako pa lang ba nakakaramdam ng heart break na ganto.. I didn't even feel it in ny previous relationship! tapos sakanya.. umamin lang naman ako ah.
"What kind of heart breaks?" I look at Xianee when she asked me that question "Madami kasing type yan. Heart break kagaya ng nafefeel mo, Heart break sa Friend ship, or sa... family. Kasi ako.. My relationship with Rad is good we're okay.. but.."
"but sometimes things becomes rough?" Chandria said while looking at her intently
"Yes.. and because of that my heart aches.." she said habang nakatitig sa malayo "Madaming situation sa buhay namin sa relationship namin ang mahirap, and seeing him tired and really fights for us kahit alam kong ang dami niyang pag dadaanan it breaks my heart" she then looks at Chandria.
Maybe I'm in pain right now but knowing na may mas nasasaktan pa sakin makes my heart aches even more. Their relationship is very hard but they manage to deal with it.
"Paano mo nakaya?" Verena then asked matapos ang matagal na pananahimik nito
"To be honest... Hindi ko alam... Hindi ko alam kung pa'no ko nakaya, Siguro dahil mahal ko siya kaya kahit hindi ko naman na talaga kaya. Pilit ko nalang kakayanin It's not love if you don't know how to injure things"
"That means.. if it is really love you'll just injure everything? just to proved that it is love? right?"
"Right" she just give me a small smile
"Ikaw, Chandria I was so curious about you do you experience heart breaks?" Chandria choked while eating ice cream na curious tuloy ako kung naka experience na ba siya..
"Why me?" she continue licking her ice cream "I mean.. I don't even have crush or heart break sa friends or family either so.. Wala" We all just nod but Xianee just smirk at her not buying his answer.
"At saka bakit ako.. Si Verena nga itong nag ask kay Xianee if pano niya na kaya! Baka siya she experienced heart break"
"I don't, Just curious..."
Our drivers just pick us up, when I get home mom and dad is still not around probably they're both still in the office. Good things coz the other day na nila makikita mga bruises ko sa katawan.
It was Saturday on the next morning, I was preparing myself to go back to ice skating.. this time alone.. I'm also done packing my things na dadalhin ko at mga ointment for my wounds. Bumaba na ako sa stairs just to get some water.. I was on my way papuntang kitchen ng makita kong nakaupo sa sofa si Raz... He was wearing a simple white plain tshirt and a black sweatshirt. He is also wearing a white gap cap.
I was so shocked when I see him at ganon din siya ng makita ako na parang hindi niya ineexpect na nandito ako e bahay ko naman to..
"Where are you going?" Zach from behind ask me. He was wearing a simple black plain tshirt and a white sweat short.
"Ice Rink?"
"Kakagaling nyo lang don kahapon diba?" He arched his brow "ng hindi namin alam.."
"How did you know?" I asked probablyn confused.. Maybe sinabi na nila Chandria sa kuya niya tapos sinabi niya kay zach.. Oh no! sana naman hindi na niya kwinento ang pag iyak ko kasi nakakahiya..m
"Look at your face.." hinawakan niya ang pisngi ko at pinaling kaliwa't kanan just to check kung madami pa ba akong bruises
"Awww!"
"Ang dami mong pasa.. Nagdudugo pa nga yung sugat mo sa labi oh.. Ano bang naisipan mo at nagpagulong gulong ka sa ice rink?"
Inalis ko ang kamay niya sa pagkakahawak sa muka ko at tinalikuran siya. Pag harap ko kay Raz ay nakatitig lang siya ng malalim. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero hindi din naman siya nag sasalita.
"Kukuha ako ng tubig bahala na kayo jan.. I'm also in a hurry paalis ako! Kaya you guys can leave na din" I said while filling my water jag.
"Ano? ang kulit mo talaga! Sasama kami ni Raz" I didn't see if umagree si Raz or what hindi ko naman makita ang reaction niya dahil nasa kitchen ako. And hindi din naman siya nag sasalit! Ughh! that guy!
"What now?" I look at both of them habang agad agad na nag tungo sa labas. Mukang sasama nga si Raz dahil nakasunod pa din siya saamin nang makalabas na kami ay biglang nag ring ang cellphone ni Zach.
I look at him and he was pointing his phone to signaled na may kakausapin lang siya. Raz and I are left alone sobrang tahimik ng paligid.. Ganito naman palagi pagkasama ko siya.. Madalas hindi siya nagsasalita. Mabuti nga hindi siya gumagamit ng phone ngayon.
"What happened?" He suddenly ask tiningnan ko lang siya gulat dahil tinanong niya ako my heart is pounding really fast! Seriously Zari tinanong lang niya kung anong nangyari kinikilig ka na
"Oh! I just slipped I lost my balance.. nothing serious" I managed to answer
"Be careful next time" sasagutin ko pa sana siya ng biglang dumating si Zach
"Uh Zari.. something came up I can't come with you right now... I have important thing to do"
I was a bit dissappointed ng madinig ko yon. Probbly Raz would leave na din dahil hindi na kasama si Zach.
"Raz can come with you, right Raz?"
"Uh no need na I can go alone" probably i don't want to make force Raz to come with me kung ayaw niya
"Let's go! We'll use my car"
I follow Raz Immediately kasi baka magbago pa ang isip niya.. Kahapon lang umiiyak ako gawa niya nagkasugat pa nga ako because I was spacing out tapos ngayon kasama ko naman siya mag ice skating. Wow Zari just wow!
When we arrived at the rink we just put some safety gears gaya nga ng kahapon ay hindi naman na ako nag lagay ng iba pang mga gears dahil sanay naman na ako. I was wearing a leggings and long sleeve na hapit na hapit sa balat ko. nagbaon nmn ako ng pamalit sa bag ko just incase may gusto pa akong puntahan. I was busy minding my own business when Raz came towards me and put some safety head gears in my head. I can smell his perfume sobrang bango! Nanliliit ako everytime na lumalapit siya dahil hanggang dibdib niya lang ako.
"Uh.. Raz.. I don't need this" I said pointing at my head gears
"Not because you're a pro, prone ka na din sa accidents... better be safe"
Naglagay na din siya ng skating shoes at head gear even the, elbow and knee pads gusto niya pa sana ilagay kaso i insisted na hindi ko yon kailangan.
We started do Ice skate sa ice rink unlike kahapon I'm taking my time and enjoy ice skating. I'm also doing some turns and jump I look at Raz and he wasn't doing anything.. sinusundan lang niya ako kung san ako pupunta. Parang spotter ko siya sa lagay nang yan.
"Why did you fall?" He asks ng mag kasabay kami sa gitna
"I just lost my balance"
"Why?" Why? do you want me to answer that? It is because of you I was so heart broken kaya binilisan ko ang pag iice skate hanggang sa mawalan ako balance!
"too much speed" maikli kong sagot "aren't you busy today?" I ask kasi nag tataka din ako kung bakit ba siya sumama sakin e hindi naman kailangan. I'm not complaining na kasama ko siya actually masaya naman ako I'm just curious.
"I don't have something to do.. And Zach invited me that's why. Ayoko naman mag cancel last minute" i just nod to his answer malamang it's not because of me it's all because of Zach kaya siya sumama.
"Opss!" I accidently slip once again dahil sa katitig kay Raz good thing at bago pa ako bumagsak ay nakalapit na agad siya sakin at nasalo ako. He held my waist habang napakapit naman ako sa broad niyang balikat.
"I told you to be careful" he said while looking fiercely in my eyes.
"I like you!" hindi ko alam kung bakit lumabas yon sa bibig ko. He seemed so shock inlapit ko ang muka ko unti unti ang muka niya para mahalikan siya he i close my eyes but the he pushes me lighlty
"How could you easily said that?" binitawan niya ang pagkakahawak sa bewang ko at nag skate palabas ng rink, palalayo saakin I was left dumbfounded.
I then start to cry once again.. Inside the ice rink and because of him.
- Writer
