Chasing waves

Moving on

Charlotte pov

Waking up to an alarm clock I just want to smash the thing up in little pieces and remove it from my room but its the only thing that is waking me up on a Monday morning, when I thought that i'll be ok after some time without my parents, I lied. A teenager lies all the time and I am currently lying to myself. It has been two years without them and I am still the same girl, nothing has changed since waking up that day in the hospital and every day I wish my parents was beside me or even next to me on my journey back to full heath but they wasn't, I know I should be moving on with my life but there isn't much of a life right now. Falling back against the bed I think about all the ways I could shut my alarm up next time like throwing it against a wall or smashing it with a hammer, a small grin appears on my face as I think about all these ideas running thought my mind. Just having a couple more minutes to myself I finally get up and throw some clothes on before making my way downstairs where my grandparents are probably having there cup of tea waiting for me. With the oversize jumper on and the high waisted jean shorts I look myself up and down before looking at the picture flame on the wall.

"Your parents was incredibly proud of you that day" I hear my grandad say looking at the picture also walking closer to it to get a better look but I cant keep looking at it as all the memories off that day come back to my mind and I remember the good times, the old times where we was actually a happy family but now as I take a step back I look around the room to see everything but happy.

"Why don't you try surfing again hunny, you loved it. We could never get you off the board at one point, we had to drag you away from the ocean" I hear my grandma say recalling a memory which I have blocked in my mind not wanting to remember all the memories I have with my parents and the ocean. The ocean I once adore and couldn't bare to be away from it for a single second and now I can barely glance at it without wanting to swing at something, someone. I blame my self for the accident as we wouldn't have been on that road if it wasn't for me and we would all still be here if I didn't go to that completion. Looking at my grandma I see a smile on her face and hope in her eyes to see me on a board again but just the thought of it makes me want to be sick.

"I cant, it's not the same anymore without them" I say making sure both of them heard me loud and clear as I don't want to have this conversation again and again, I just want my surfing career to be behind me like nothing happened. Once I finish the sentence I storm out the door but not without grabbing a apple to go, my grandparents still look at me like nothing has changed but I cant help but think that me surfing will feel like everything is normal but I cant.

Arriving at the school I head straight inside, It took me a while to get used to the stares I was receiving when I first returned as everyone wanted to tell me how sorry they was to hear about my parents but it went straight though me, those was some of the darkest days as I was physically there but mentally I wasn't. Walking over to my locker I already see my best friend Katie stand there waiting for me, she has her skateboard in her hands, she's a semi pro skater and I couldn't be more proud of her, we both had a dream once to become pro together but my dream broke when I lost apart of myself and ever since I have been pushing Katie to get her dream. Why should both of us stop what we are dreaming for.

"You have to come to my heat today Lottie" Katie says with a smile on her face, calling me by my nick name I only let close family and friends call me. Katie looks really excited as she knows if she's win today she is one step closer to becoming a champion and I'll be there every step for her cheering her on but I don't know if I want to go, everyone asks questions like if I am returning and I hate being put on the spot just as much I hate when people say how sorry they are about my parents.

"I'll think about it Katie" I tell her and her smile suddenly disappears as she knows I don't like being spotted where there are any cameras and I hate seeing her miserable because I'm not there but if it was behind closed doors she know I'll be there. Katie nods her head as we walk down the halls to our first period, I know Katie is upset but I know she get over it. Entering my first class I take my seat at the back of the class room where the teacher cant see us as we cant stand her with her being to cheery for us, everything that comes out her mouth is like she's overly happy all the time.

"Settle down everyone please. I have a bunch of old newspapers for everyone to go though, we are going to look for an article and write about it, pick the article apart looking for simple, complex sentences" I hear the teacher say but I just roll my eyes as the boys would just look for hot females and not take it seriously which is a laugh sometimes, they will always be the class clowns. As Katie stands up and gets us some newspapers I can already see a frown appear on her face and suddenly I feel my day has shifted.

As Katie hands me a newspaper with my name on it, all I can see is the bold writing of my name and a photo of it underneath it, I don't know what to think about it as I know the teacher would have gone though them first making sure they are ok to use. Rolling my eyes at the news paper I read the news paper 'Charlotte Lockhart a semi pro surfer, where is she now after the loss of her parents' I read the article trying not to let it affect me like it should. I take the newspaper of Katie and cut it up before sticking it down on my paper and writing 'died with her parents' next to it as I am stick of seeing it but honestly it's the truth.

Putting the finishes touches on my work I look up to find the teacher approaching me making me turn my work away so she doesn't see it as if she did I would get the disapproving look which happens quite a lot when I see articles about my parents, I just wish that everyone will stop posting about me and my family. As the teacher collects everyone work I stick mine under Katies so the teacher doesn't see it straight away but as the teacher goes though them in front of the class one by one, I know she get closer to mine eventually and I move down my chair. Half an hour later and the teacher pulls mine out and everyone eyes darts towards me showing me looks of pity as they all know what happened to my parents as it was all over the news. I hear snickering coming from a bunch of girls at the front of the class and I roll my eyes at them having no idea what they find funny.

"Look at the photo, I didn't know beach whales could surf" I overhear knowing she only said it out loud to get a response from me, I look at the girls noticing the queen bee is in the middle laughing, nothing happens without her say so. She's only salty because I beat her that year and she wasn't happy about it, throwing a b***h fit and claimed I cheated.

"jealously doesn't suit you, maybe if you had talent you could have had a shot at coming third" I say and everyone break out laughing at the counter between us, I look around the room and everyone is laughing but the teacher who just shakes her head but she knows its right.

"I won last year which is obvious I have talent. You cant win without mummy or daddy holding your hand" I hear her reply and the whole class goes silent as she speaks about my parents, no one is laughing but her and her friends. The class doesn't know what to do as everyone looks between us wondering if I will snap.

"Your dad bought the judges, you think you won because you had talent? You couldn't be more wrong princess. Your sloppy not only at surfing but also at comebacks maybe you could ask your daddy to buy you a personality" I speak loud and clear before rolling my eyes at her. I pack up my bag as I am not sitting in the same room and listening her talk s**t about my parens but a message comes though the intercom catching everyones attention.

"Charlotte Lockhart to the principal office please"