Chasing waves

Asking permission

Away from the eye but never from the heart

"No mum, dad" I scream, with a single tear roll down my face, Hayden comes running in first with a baseball bat in his right hand making sure I'm ok with uncle running in after him with a pillow in his hand but I give him a funny look as who would bring a pillow to someone who screamed, what he plan to do with that 

"What you going to do with a pillow?" I ask laughing with a hint of curiosity even Hayden drops the bat and starts laughing with me as he looks at his father shaking his head 

"First thing I grabbed ok" he says rolling his eyes, I carry on laughing with my cousin but uncle rolls his eyes walking over to me 

"You ok? We heard you scream" uncle says, suddenly I stop laughing as I remember the nightmare that never leaves me alone when I close my head but this time it was different as I heard what my grandad say 

"Yes, I'm fine. it was just a nightmare" I say cosying up to my uncle with Hayden on the other side of me trying to climb into my bed, we all cuddle on my bed rocking me side to side calming me down then grandad come running in, with everyone else behind him

"Your ok" grandad says, I remember everything now of what happened, I get out of bed and run to him, I heard every word 

"I'm always going to be ok with you next to me, you was next to me everyday at the hospital, even told me, it was ok to let go. I heard every word" I say to him, he looks downs to me and gives me a big hug but the hug is cut short when Hayden takes my hand and leads me outside alone. 

As Hayden leads me outside we both take a seat on the beach and watch the ocean come and go for a couple of minutes as it's peaceful out here

"You know I'm always here, even if you don't want to talk" he says to me, wrapping his arm over my shoulder, pulling me closers. I know what he means and I'm thankful for it 

"I know, I really do know" I say in respond, I know I have him to talk to or just to sit with as Hayden as always been over protective with me like a big brother. We both of us sitting there Hayden decided to go in after a hour of sitting and watching the ocean but I have other ideas and I grab my surf board before heading into the ocean, for the first time in two years, wanting to watch the sun rise

"Away from the eye but never from the heart. I love you mum and dad" I say looking at the sunrise, I just sit there not wanting to leave however when I'm ready I paddle back to the shore line where I see my family out on the beach, looking at me with smiles on there faces, I paddle quickly back to the beach  

"We are proud of you" everyone says

Monday morning and I have Hayden jumping on my bed excitedly trying to wake me up but he should know better then to try and wake me up but he should be lucky as I can't throw him at the wall or smash it like a clock unfortunately like I did to my last clock 

"Come on kiddo, I'm taking you school today" Hayden says finally walking out my bedroom skipping like he wants to tell me something but doesn't want to tell me yet. I jump out of bed and quickly throw on a jumper and shorts and making my way downstairs for breakfast hoping the boys haven't eaten everything. Once I'm downstairs i throw my bag on the floor and head to the kitchen as my belly is starving

"I'm ready hay" I say walking into the kitchen grabbing Oliver my other cousins toast with a smile as I know Hayden won't let me eat 

"Give me a minute Little one" Hayden says finishing his last bite off before standing up wiping the crumbs off but I grab his car keys and make my way to his car. I want to pick a radio station to listen too as Hayden would pick something I can't sing too or stand as he doesn't have the best taste in music. 

As I finished picking a station Hayden gets in the car and we make the way to school, I never liked school. We arrive in one piece and we both get out the car but Hayden with a smile  

"Thank you" I say to Hayden giving him a side hug before I walk over wanting to make it to my first lesson before the bell but Hayden stops me in my tracks as he shouts to me 

"Wait, I want to talk to you about something" Hayden says looking at me, I knew he wanted to ask me something but before I say anything I make sure I have plenty of time 

"Sure, I got time to kill" I say giving him a smile stepping closer to him so he doesn't have to shout across the court yard 

"So, my mate and his girlfriend are coming down and he's a surfer. he wanted to make sure it was ok with you before he came down?" Hayden whispers to me, I honestly don't mind, I haven't met his mate but he sounds like a gentleman if he's asking me first 

"I don't mind, i look forward to meeting him" I say back with a smile, he gives me a quick hug and I make my way into school, I have History, my favourite subject, note my sarcasm.