Chasing waves

Training

Thursday 

I finish reading the letter with tears running down my face, I generally do miss them a lot. After reading the letter I sit there for few more minutes thinking about my parents before I head back inside, facing the consequences from hitting Darren girlfriend who deserved it if I'm honest, crazy like her cousin. I slowly stand to my feet not wanting to leave but as I watch the moon light reflect of the ocean, a beautiful view, I know I have head inside. I start to head inside but before I open the back door I take a deep breath not sure what everyone going to say about the accident but as I walk though the back door, my uncle Jason is stood in the kitchen getting a drink but I stand still at the back foot but he walks up to me, wiping away the tears that are left on my cheeks. 

I hand him the letter that grandad gave me and I watch as his eyes scan from left to right reading the letter

"Told you they was proud. I'll happily be your number 3 fan along with the rest of the family. I agree with your father, no boys" uncle Jason says holding his arms out for me to hug him and I step into him giving him a hug 

"I know, your proud. I don't have boys drooling over me anyway so no problem" I say the last part laughing as I know he would scare any boyfriend anyway. We stand there for a good couple of minutes in silent and just hugging 

"Does that mean you help me back on the board" I say out of no where, I'm not sure if I'll ever be completely ready but I want to do this for my parents, i want them to be proud of me 

"Of course. I'll be happy to, I though you never ask" uncle says with a wide smile on his face, he hugs me and leaves the kitchen getting a early night for tomorrow. 

I stand alone in the kitchen, looking though the fridge, I'm always hungry, I'm addict to food shocking 

"I was hoping to run into you" I hear Darren say from begins me, he lending against the door watching me pick a hand full of food 

"You found me, I don't regret hitting you girlfriend, she had it coming" I say to him crossing my arms trying to look intimidating, he walks to the counter looking at me 

"I know, I just wanted to apologise for what she said, we heard every word from the argument. I broke up with her. Can you take my apology" Darren says with a upset look on his face. I know it's not of his fault, he doesn't need to apologise as his girlfriend was the one who was being a b***h and doesn't deserved Darren 

"I'll accept your apology, if you do this thing for me" I say with a grin on my face as he has helped me earlier and I want him to carry on 

"you name it" he says with a smile on his face stepping closer to me, for some reason I think he knows what I'm about to say 

"Help me get back on the board? My uncle helping as well" I say, I know he can surf so he can teach me a little and I can teach him

"You got a deal, tomorrow morning" he says with a wink before leaving the kitchen. I grab a few chocolate bar and head to bed, long day tomorrow with both of them. Don't know how this is going to go with both of them but hopefully good. 

Waking up at the c***k on dawn wasn't what I had in mind when I asked for help as uncle Jason is stood at the door trying to wake me up but I just want to go back to sleep that I throw a pillow over my face, if I don't see him it doesn't count but clearly that doesn't work as he grabs the pillow from me and hits me in the face with it, I can't help but roll my eyes at him 

"How mature of you" I say rolling out of bed and walking over to him annoyed at how early he woke me up and how he did it 

"Come on, we are burning sun light" I hear Jason say behind walking off leaving me to get ready but I'm definitely regret asking him for help as he's going to work me a little too hard for my liking. Finishing up I quietly make my way downstairs as I don't want to wake everyone up as it's still too early for him, I make my way outside where uncle Jason is stood with Darren. 

"Come on little one, we paddle a little further out this time and we work on the waves" I hear Jason say but I look at him as I only managed little ones so far and not sure how Ill handle bigger ones 

Following my uncle lead I paddle a little behind him but when he dips under the wave I go over as I'm afraid of seeing my parents die in front of me when I close my eyes, as soon as we are the furthest out my uncle barely touches the water to feel when a wave is coming which I have yet to master, as soon as my uncle tells me to start paddling I do and as soon as I'm about to drop I back out as I can't do it. I'm terrified I wish this could be a little easier to do 

"Would it be a little easier if I was right beside you. We can do it together and as we drop you tell me what's going though your head" I hear Darren say and I just nod as I'm not sure even if I'm ready to talk about what I'm seeing but it's worth the try right. 

Waiting patiently for a wave I set off and start paddling with Darren beside me and he starts talking to me calming me down and trying to stop me from overthink 

"Every time I drop on a wave I see my parents in the car crash and then I see myself drowning" I say as we drop down on the wave and I fall under and when I do I see my parents life less body in the car. I start panicking and screaming as I'm struggling to breath, I'm pulling waving my arms trying to reach the top but I can't without Jason helping me. It's going to be a long next couple of days.