The hunter

Morning

The light streamed, in the room, stirring me from my sleep There is a weight on my body making me think of the night before I smiled to myself remembering what happened and turn around to see the beautiful face of the man I shared my bed with most of the day and night.

The memories of how he took control of my body and gave me the most amazing night of my life I have never felt pleasure like I did last night.

I watched as he slept looking so peaceful and calm in his dreams I can't help but want to touch him I never thought I would want a man in my life again and now that James has invaded my being I don't want to let him go if what he said yesterday was true then he wanted me too but I can't help but still feel like maybe it is too soon to be moving on with someone I'm getting to know still.

Sure, he's been my friend for the last few months, and I appreciate him for being here for me he's so kind, sweet, and caring, but I have to be honest with myself here. I am scared... that is all there is to it... I am scared that he will hurt me and leave me broken, I don't think I can handle another heartbreak fûck What am I going to do??

I shouldn't have kissed him or let him in my bed... my thoughts are running rampant with what ifs and if it is even okay. I was brought from my racing thoughts by his warm touch on my face, his deep voice thick with sleep, "Morning, beautiful bell, what are you thinking about so hard this early? Hey, don't get in your head about us... please bella let everything go and ride this out with me sweetheart I will not hurt you.. I swear to you I won't. " Taking a deep breath, I spilled my thoughts and fears to him as he held me and let me speak my heart, and then he took a breath in. " I knew you would be afraid love but I swear to you I wont hurt you I want to love you if you will allow me to, baby just calm down and lets take this one day at a time...and I'm sorry I let myself go too far. I was afraid you would regret it today, but my desire for you became too great to fight any longer."

My tears fell without my permission with his confession. I swallowed the emotions down as far as I could. " I am not regretting anything that happened with you, I swear. I'm just overwhelmed with all these feelings inside. I've never felt like this with anyone ever, and you're the only man I've ever had this kind of connection with. I appreciate you being patient withme," I say wanting him to know how I feel I continued to tell him how my heart is feeling he smiled at me and softly spoke "Bella you can always tell me how you are feeling I will never get upset with you for how you feel. I just need and want you in my life. I am a patient man, and I want you sweetheart with my whole heart, baby. " Hmm.... he kisses me so soft and tender I can't help but to let my worries melt away into his sensual kisses he knows how to spark my desire and make me burn for him.

We lay together kissing and touching lost in our own little bubble for a while, but he never tried to take it any further. Being reluctant to get up knowing we needed to get some food, I broke away and asked. "Shall we go shower and then get breakfast made? And....Can you spend the day with me, James? I'm not ready for us to be apart just yet" Looking at him from under my lashes feeling a little embarrassed, his smile spead wider across his face before he pulled me in to kiss me once more. "Yes baby I will stay as long as you want me to as for the shower it may take a while before we get clean" with a cheeky smirk he stood from the bed grabing me, throwing me over his shoulder and headed to the bathroom swatting my asŝ he said, "Before I'm done with you my Bella you are going to beg me to stop" he laughed at look on my face when as he set me to my feet "Your welcome to try mr" smirking at him over my shoulder as I leaned in to turn on the shower making sure its the perfect temperature before turning to stand in front of him going to my tippy toes I kissed his chin,down along his jaw as I held on around his neck turning us around then stepping back into the shower smiling and squinting my eyes at him I whisper "In fact I dare you to make me beg" he chuckled as he backed me into the shower wall and whispered "Your on..but you will regret that dare baby" melding his mouth to mine we get lost in exploring eachother...

When we finished our shower the water was cold and I was indeed begging him to stop. after dressing and a few more stolen kisses we got started on breakfast cooking it together laughing and talking about whatever we thought about then after we ate and fed the chickens we went to town he took me to a few of his favorite stores for some shopping.

We eventually made it to get things for him to cook dinner for me tonight I haven't had time to think to much I think that's his point I can't say I'm mad about it because the feelings that his presence causes in my heart makes me feel so happy and warm inside that I don't want it to end. so I decided I won't get caught up with the thoughts that seem to always make me question everything im just going to enjoy the happiness that I have right now with him and see where this goes so for the next two days I will let things play out and See where it leads us.

The weekend was over to soon and I was a little sad for James to leave lastnight but I'm excited to start my job today. I woke up early to get my chores done for the morning. then I ate my breakfast and dressed for my first day of work locking my house up I left to the other side of town when I arrived at the office I was greeted by the secretary from my interview she showed me around and set me up with my own office and computer explaining what my duties were and what I was to do she gave me the list of my tasks said good luck and left leaving me to get to work.

It was simple work things I had done with my previous job like reviewing the reports on the wildlife in the other regions and comparing them to our own region things like population, disease and winter kill rates of all big and small game then filing them away for future reference. Around 2pm I was surprised to see how fast the time went by when James came in to my office with take out from the diner from town.

My heart fluttered in my chest seeing the big smile on his handsome face and his eyes shining bright at me. "Hi baby I brought you lunch I didn't want to wait untill tonight to see you. Ive missed you terribly" I stood from my seat walking to him smiling he is so sweet "That was very thoughtful of you thank you for lunch. how has your day been so far? I missed you as well I've been thinking about you since you left my house" he kissed me softly leaving sweet kisses on my lips "I'm so happy to hear that Bella let's have lunch and make plans for tonight I want to make you dinner and I want to hold you while we sleep.. no correction...I need to hold you in my arms" I kiss him once more giggling at how adorable he can benI led him to the small couch in the room setting the food on the table he handed me the container of take-out and sat next to me.

We both get comfortable and start eating while we talk about random things I really like having his company and I keep thinking about what we could possibly have in a relationship and the future I want to try and make something happen with this man he is so sweet, kind smart, patient, and he wants me but I want him to and I I tried to fight it I even felt bad for feeling like I do about him so soon into being friends with him then I realized something and asked myself what control do I have over my feelings or my heart at this point I am beginning to realize I don't have control of the way I feel and It just happened but I don't want to fight it anymore with the acknowledgment of what I am feeling for this wonderful man I decided that I have to tell him that I want this to work with him and I want to continue with wherever this leads us to but when should I do it? and maybe I should make it a rule that no matter what happens we will remain friends and be in eachothers lives as friends...