The dates I had set up were scheduled to happen on the same day. One was a lunch date and the other was a dinner date. I'd give my answer to Anton and Luke during these.
Why schedule them on the same day? So I wouldn't lose my nerve during either of them and so it wasn't like, obvious that they were getting rejected until I could sit down and explain my reasoning or at least try to.
I was going to have an emotionally charged day no matter what I did, so might as well do it in one go before I chickened out.
With my decision made, I wanted to at least try to let the other person down gently and maintain at least a friendly relationship, but Rob had shown me well enough that some relationships just couldn't survive being platonic.
I stared at myself in the mirror, managing to smile despit
