OMOLARA

The feelings

"I'm sorry Omolara ive had feelings for you for a while now , but I don't know what to do , I'm still straight, I just want to be with you , just you Lara, I don't know how being with a woman will change my life, this is Nigeria Lara , people will talk , what would my friends say ?, hell what would my mom say??"

"I'm not asking you to tell the whole world, you could have said something Lisa" I said crying.

" I'm scared lara , I want you , but I'm scared"

"And you don't think I am?, Oh my God Lisa, oh my God you're high , you don't mean this, dont play with me, don't f*****g play with me " I said crying, "I'm going home"

"Omolara , I'm not, I .... Just stay with me tonight , its late stay the night please"

"Stop , I'm going home" I said cleaning my tears

"Let me drive you"

"You are high asf , go to bed, I'll uber" I said as I slammed the door, I could hear her sobbing.

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why would she dump it all on me now ?, does she really have feelings me? The thoughts swam in my head as I got home.

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As I got home I met Nelson and Abbey .. two of the three people I live with trying out outfits together, Nelson is trans man the most organised of us four, he's a trans activist ,an artist and a writer .

And there's Abbey the pun-star , always making sick puns, she has beautiful dark skin, she's stunning!!, who knows... we might have been dating if she wasn't so... Umm .. straight, she's 6'1, the tallest in the house, she's such a darling

"Hey cel what's up you look down, you good?" Nelson said, " yeah you look like s**t" Abbey confirmed

"I'm alright I just had a bad day" I said walking to my room

"Well" they said as they both stopped what they were doing

"What?" I said as I looked at their expectant faces

"You know the drill, spill sis, tell us what happened" nelson said

"Urgh, I'll tell you guys later, I don't want to talk about it now" I said

" Yhh ok I just hope your ass Is alright " Abbey said

"I'm back bitches!!!!" Rita yelled as she kicked the door open

"When would you ever stop with your dramatic entrances" I said laughing

"Do you have to do this every time " Nelson asked

"Hell yeah I'm living my best life bro, would like stay a while a chat a little but I'm going to crash" she said walking to her room

°Rita is a party animal living each day like it is the last, she is a classic bisexual chick,(not to stereotype) avoids relationships ,one night stands are her thing , she is basically the wildest one.

"Good night" I said

"Yeah night ma b***h" she said without looking back

"Okeyyy, I need to go lie down, I've got work tomorrow" I said

"Sleep well" Nelson and Abbey yelled as they got back to whatever they were doing.

As I got to my room I went straight to my bed, I was too tired to shower, I couldn't stop thinking about Lisa , about words I heard her say, "I can't take it anymore I want you lara , I want you" "I have feelings for you"

Where did all that come from?, did she mean it , God I really hope she did .

*After minutes of thinking she slept off holding her pillow tightly*