********INTERLUDE***********
"There was blood in my tears
I heard so many complaints to remember
I will never change
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Break!
Yeah (she said, she said)
Yeah
If the seasons change
Will you remain the same?
Oh, how I love the cold
Because of you I'll never know
Gold teeth in a flask (yeah)
Many men without a soul
But the fall is all we know, yeah it's all we know
I look forward to the ghost
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Break, yeah
I will never change, I will never break, yeah
Break, yeah
I will never change, I will never break
Yeah, yeah
I don't wanna be alone
Please, I don't wanna be alone
Please, I don't wanna be alone (be alone)
Please, I don't wanna be alone (wanna be alone, wanna be alone)"
A:"what the hell are you Yammering about"
"You are always alone and have been alone throughout your entire life"
"I'm never alone, you are always with me. My best friend"
A:"I told you never to call me that"
"I'm cursed to be here with you because you are insane"
"Fair enough" I replied
"But you are here nonetheless"
I was still angry at her for hurting me and was riled up. Listening to his irked voice calmed me so much.
Hurting that distasteful old woman, she reminded of my grandmother and hurting her calmed me, I enjoyed every moment of it. I've always hated seniles. They are people who are tired of life and want to drag people's mental health down with their's. But assaulting the old woman only calmed my ever growing rage just for the night.
I need to make the cause of my pain to also feel pain.
I was going hurt her...
"Don't wanna see me by yourself, by yourself
By yourself, by yourself, by yourself
If I give it to you, will you leave?
Tell it to you, will you speak?
I live inside my own world of make-believe
Kids screaming in their cradles, profanities
I see the world through eyes covered in ink and bleach
Cross out the ones who heard my cries and watched me weep
I love everything
Fire's spreading all around my room
My world's so bright
It's hard to breathe but that's alright
Tape my eyes open to force reality
Hold your breath and feel the tension
Devils hide behind redemption
Honesty is a one-way gate to hell
I wanna taste consumption
Breathe faster to waste oxygen
Hear the children sing aloud
It's music 'til the wick burns out
Like I found myself an imaginary friend"
A:"I am not your friend"
I saw the notification; the message I sent has been delivered. I had just stolen the phone from an old man after threatening him with a knife in an alley, he gave it to me reluctantly after I made him unlock the it. I threw the phone away, it has served it's sole purpose and proceeded to my plans.
It was the first time I was stepping out in public in the last 2 weeks. I've been living in hiding awaiting the storm I created to pass.
I adjusted my nose to cover my face properly, I felt my pocket the knife was still. The black rain coat made moving in the shadows easier.
I observed the house from a distance. I had seen her entered the house earlier. I moved towards the house in the shadows, looking around to make sure I wasn't being watched. I crept along the porch to the door. I tried to open it, it was locked.
A: of course it's locked, you f*****g i***t. You expect the door to be left ajar just for you to walk in. Use the pin I told you bring along earlier to pick the lock.
I brought out the pin and proceeded to picking the lock quietly. After a few minutes of picking the lock, sweating profusely and the hassling from the voice, the lock finally snapped.
I walked into the house quietly. It was dimly illuminated enough to navigate around the house. I walked into a room and found it empty, I closed the door back inaudibly. I walked into another room and saw her sleeping soundly on a bed.