The tattoo
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The first sign that something was wrong was silence.
Not complete silence.
Arka still answered messages sometimes. Still showed up randomly at the farm or outside Fabrizio’s house late at night. Still kissed him beneath stars and laughed at stupid jokes and talked about leaving the village someday.
But something underneath him had changed.
It was subtle at first.
His smile didn’t reach his eyes as often anymore.
He seemed distracted constantly, like his thoughts were somewhere darker than the countryside around them. Sometimes Fabrizio would catch him staring off into nothing for several seconds before snapping back suddenly when spoken to.
And worst of all — he had started disappearing.
Entire days sometimes.
No explanation.
No warning.
At first Fabrizio tried not to overreact. Arka had always been restless by nature. Always wandering somewhere, chasing excitement or avoiding boredom. But eventually the disappearances became impossible to ignore.
Three days.
That was the longest.
Three entire days without a single message.
Fabrizio barely slept during them.
The first day he convinced himself Arka was fine.
The second day panic began eating holes through his chest.
By the third day he was riding through nearby towns searching for him like a man chasing a ghost.
He checked the river.
The abandoned shelters they used to meet at.
The roadside café where Arka liked smoking cigarettes and sketching strangers in his notebook.
Nothing.
By evening rain clouds gathered heavily above the village while Fabrizio sat outside the stable chain-smoking beneath the darkening sky.
His father eventually walked outside quietly.
“You okay?”
Fabrizio nodded too quickly.
“Yeah.”
His father studied him for a moment before speaking again.
“That boy you’re always with.”
Fabrizio immediately stiffened.
“What about him?”
“Haven’t seen him around.”
The concern in his father’s voice surprised him.
Then again, everybody knew Arka. It was impossible not to. He carried too much life inside him to go unnoticed.
“He’s probably fine,” Fabrizio muttered.
But he didn’t believe it.
Not even slightly.
That night the storm finally broke open above the village.
Rain slammed against rooftops violently while thunder rattled windows hard enough to wake sleeping dogs across town.
Fabrizio sat awake near his bedroom window staring into darkness when headlights suddenly appeared outside the house.
His heart nearly stopped.
A motorbike.
Arka.
Fabrizio flew downstairs before his parents could wake and rushed outside into the rain.
“Where the hell have you been?” he shouted immediately.
Arka climbed slowly off the bike.
And Fabrizio froze.
Something about him looked wrong instantly.
Not physically injured.
Worse.
Empty.
His eyes looked hollow somehow. Exhausted. Like he hadn’t slept properly in days.
Rain poured down both of them while neither moved.
Then Fabrizio noticed the tattoo.
At first only pieces of black ink showed above Arka’s soaked collar.
But as Arka stepped closer beneath the porch light, more became visible.
Dark lines.
Violent symbols.
Black ink spreading upward across his chest and neck like something alive crawling beneath his skin.
Fabrizio stared in horror.
Because he recognized it immediately.
Everybody did.
The tattoo belonged to a violent underground gang operating around Surabaya. Men tied to drugs, extortion, disappearances, illegal fighting rings — stories about them traveled even into small villages like theirs.
People feared them.
People vanished because of them.
And now their mark sat permanently burned into Arka’s skin.
Rainwater dripped from Fabrizio’s hair into his eyes while his pulse hammered violently in his throat.
“What did you do?”
Arka looked away immediately.
That alone terrified Fabrizio more than the tattoo itself.
“Arka.”
Silence.
Then finally:
“I needed money.”
“For what?”
Arka rubbed both hands across his face tiredly.
“My brother owed people.”
“What people?”
More silence.
Thunder cracked violently overhead.
Then Arka whispered:
“The wrong people.”
Fabrizio felt cold all over.
Not from rain.
From fear.
Because suddenly everything made sense. The disappearances. The distance. The strange sadness in Arka lately.
“You joined them?” Fabrizio asked quietly.
Arka laughed bitterly.
“You think I wanted this?”
Fabrizio stared again at the tattoo wrapping upward across his throat.
It looked horrifying there.
Not because tattoos themselves frightened him.
Because it looked like ownership.
Like branding.
Like someone had carved violence directly into the boy he loved.
“What did they make you do?” Fabrizio asked.
Arka’s jaw tightened immediately.
“Nothing.”
“That’s bullshit.”
“I said nothing.”
“You disappeared for three days and came back with gang tattoos all over your body and you expect me to believe NOTHING happened?”
Arka suddenly snapped.
“What do you want me to say?!”
His voice echoed through the storm.
For a second both of them stood frozen.
Then Arka looked away immediately afterward, ashamed.
“I didn’t have a choice,” he whispered.
That sentence broke something inside Fabrizio instantly.
Because he believed him.
Completely.
Arka wasn’t reckless in evil ways. Reckless in emotional ways maybe. Impulsive. Wild. But not cruel.
Whatever happened during those missing days had terrified him too.
Fabrizio stepped closer slowly.
Rain soaked through both their clothes while thunder rolled endlessly overhead.
“Look at me.”
Arka hesitated before finally lifting his eyes.
And God.
Fabrizio almost fell apart seeing the fear inside them.
Not fear of him.
Fear itself.
Deep. Animal fear.
“They hurt you?” Fabrizio asked quietly.
Arka didn’t answer.
Which was answer enough.
Rage exploded violently through Fabrizio’s chest.
He wanted to kill whoever touched him. Wanted to drag Arka far away from the village immediately and never let another person near him again.
Instead he grabbed the front of Arka’s soaked jacket desperately.
“We need to leave.”
Arka blinked.
“What?”
“Tonight. Tomorrow. I don’t care. We leave.”
Arka shook his head instantly.
“You don’t understand.”
“No, YOU don’t understand,” Fabrizio snapped. “Those people kill people.”
“I know.”
“Then why are you acting like this is survivable?”
“Because I already tried saying no.”
The sentence landed heavily between them.
Fabrizio slowly released his grip on the jacket.
Something terrible had happened during those three days.
Something Arka still couldn’t speak aloud.
Rain continued crashing around them while silence swallowed the porch whole.
Then Arka quietly said:
“They own me now.”
The words physically hurt to hear.
Because deep down Fabrizio knew he meant it literally.
Not emotionally.
Not metaphorically.
Literally.
The tattoo was proof.
A mark saying you belong to us now.
“You’re not staying with them,” Fabrizio said immediately.
Arka gave him a tired smile that looked heartbreakingly hopeless.
“You always think you can save everything.”
“I can save YOU.”
“No,” Arka whispered softly. “You can’t.”
For the first time since Fabrizio met him, Arka looked defeated.
Not sad.
Not dramatic.
Defeated.
Like some essential piece of him had already been broken apart permanently.
And suddenly Fabrizio realized something horrifying:
The future they dreamed about — leaving together, building a life somewhere free, horses and open skies and mornings without fear — had just begun collapsing in front of him.
The storm eventually softened into steady rain.
Neither of them noticed.
They sat together on the porch steps afterward without speaking much.
Arka smoked cigarettes one after another with shaking hands while Fabrizio stared blankly at muddy roads glowing beneath dim streetlights.
Finally Fabrizio asked quietly:
“What happens now?”
Arka laughed weakly.
“I don’t know.”
“Do they know about me?”
That question made Arka go completely still.
Which terrified Fabrizio instantly.
“Arka.”
“They ask questions,” he admitted.
“What kind of questions?”
“About who I spend time with.”
Fear crawled ice-cold down Fabrizio’s spine.
“And what did you tell them?”
“That you’re my best friend.”
The word best friend hurt now.
Not because it was false.
Because it was too small for what they were.
Arka suddenly stood up.
“I should go.”
“No.”
“I can’t stay here.”
“Yes you can.”
“If somebody sees my bike here too long, people start talking.”
Fabrizio grabbed his wrist immediately.
“Then let them talk.”
Arka looked down at his hand gripping his wrist.
For one dangerous moment, hope flickered weakly across his face.
Then disappeared again.
“You don’t mean that.”
“Yes I do.”
“No,” Arka whispered. “You mean it emotionally. But you don’t understand what reality looks like yet.”
Fabrizio hated hearing that.
Because maybe Arka was right.
Love had protected them from reality for months. Hidden them from consequences. Allowed them to pretend secrecy alone could keep them safe.
But this was different.
This was violence now.
Real violence.
Real danger.
Arka gently pulled his wrist free.
Then before leaving, he leaned down and kissed Fabrizio softly beneath the rain.
Not passionately.
Not desperately.
Sadly.
Like someone saying goodbye before either of them realized that’s what it was.
When Arka finally rode away into darkness, Fabrizio stood frozen on the porch long after the sound of the motorbike disappeared.
Rain soaked through his clothes completely.
But he barely noticed.
All he could think about was the tattoo.
Black ink wrapping around Arka’s skin like chains.
And for the first time since falling in love, Fabrizio felt something stronger than fear.
Helplessness.
Because love suddenly no longer felt powerful enough to protect either of them from what was coming next.
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