We are sitting by Sansa's bed. I am rubbing Sansa's scalp and massaging her head. She loves it when I do that. She says it makes her relax and helps her sleep. I do that often when she is in my arms for nap time but she refuses to take her nap because she wants to play longer with Oly in the garden or watch another episode of power puff girls. She groans and opens her eyes. "it's okay baby. Daddy's here. You are safe, my little girl." I rub her head and kiss her forehead. "I no talk to daddy." she looks at me and pouts. My face falls. She turns to look at Penny. I am heartbroken. Crestfallen. Obviously, she doesn't want to talk to me. I was.. I.. I could not take enough care of my baby girl. She had a bullet inside her because of me. "why beautiful? " Penny asks kissing her forehead

