The Anniversary
The restaurant doesn't have a sign outside.
You would walk past the building three times before realizing that behind the dark glass and quiet brass door was one of the most expensive dining rooms in New York.
Victor likes places like this. Places where people pretend money is not the reason they are there.
The hostess recognizes him immediately.
"Good evening, Mr. Diaz," she says with a smile that is polished and practiced. "Happy anniversary."
Victor squeezes my hand gently as if the greeting belongs to both of us.
"Thank you, Hannah."
She leads us through the dining room where conversations float softly under the low music of a piano somewhere in the corner. The lighting is warm but dim enough to make every table feel private. Crystal glasses glow faintly. Silverware shines like something ceremonial.
It smells faintly of butter, citrus, and expensive wine.
I take a breath slowly.
Five years.
Five years married to Victor Diaz.
Five years of loving him. Five years of believing the life we built together was solid and safe.
The hostess stops at a table near the back. It is slightly separated from the others by a curtain of dark velvet.
"Your usual table," she says.
Victor nods and pulls out my chair before I can touch it. It is something he always does, even when we are at home and the table is just our kitchen island.
I sit down and smooth my dress across my lap.
The fabric is soft silk. Dark green. Victor chose it when we were in Milan last spring. I remember standing in the dressing room and laughing because the price tag looked like a phone number.
He insisted.
"You should never hesitate when you look beautiful," he told me.
Now he takes his seat across from me and studies my face the way he always does when we first sit down somewhere together.
"You look nervous," he says.
"I do not."
"You're twisting your ring."
I look down and realize he is right.
My fingers are turning the diamond band slowly against my skin.
I stop.
"I'm not nervous," I say again, but my voice sounds quieter than I intended.
Victor leans back slightly in his chair.
"You've been nervous all day."
"That's not true."
"You checked your phone six times in the car."
"I was answering emails."
"You're on vacation tonight, Leticia."
I smile faintly.
"That doesn't stop my clients from working."
The waiter arrives before Victor can answer.
He pours water into our glasses and hands us menus that look like small leather books.
Victor doesn't open his.
He never does.
"I'll have the tasting menu," he tells the waiter easily. "For both of us."
The waiter glances at me politely.
I nod.
"Of course."
When the waiter leaves, Victor looks at me again with that quiet patience that has always made people trust him in boardrooms and negotiations.
"You didn't answer my question."
"You didn't ask one."
"Yes I did."
I lift my glass and take a sip of water before responding.
"You said I look nervous."
"And you do."
I lean back slightly.
"Maybe I'm allowed to be nervous tonight."
Victor's eyes soften.
"Why?"
The truth sits inside my chest like a fragile glass object.
Because tomorrow morning I take the test.
Because if this round worked everything changes.
Because if it didn't I do not know how many more times my body can endure this process.
I look at him across the table and study the familiar lines of his face. The strong jaw. The dark eyes that always seem calm even when the rest of the world is not.
Victor Diaz built a billion dollar company before he turned forty.
He negotiates with investors like he was born doing it.
But when we are alone like this he is just Victor.
My husband.
"I'm thinking about tomorrow," I say finally.
His expression shifts slightly.
Understanding.
"Ah."
Just that one word.
Victor rests his forearms lightly on the table.
"You don't have to think about it tonight."
"That's easy for you to say."
He watches me carefully.
"You think I'm not thinking about it too?"
"I didn't say that."
"Leticia."
His voice is calm but firm.
"I want this just as much as you do."
I nod slowly.
"I know."
And I do.
Victor has sat beside me through every appointment. Every injection. Every blood test.
Three miscarriages.
Four IVF cycles.
Five years of trying.
He never complained once.
The waiter returns with a bottle of champagne.
Victor nods at him.
"Go ahead."
The cork releases with a soft pop.
The sound makes my stomach twist slightly.
The waiter pours the pale gold liquid into Victor's glass first.
Then he begins to pour mine.
Victor stops him gently.
"Actually... wait."
The waiter pauses.
Victor looks at me.
"Are you drinking tonight?"
I stare at the glass.
The bubbles rise slowly to the surface like tiny lights.
I shake my head.
"Not tonight."
Victor gives the waiter a small apologetic smile.
"Just one glass then."
The waiter nods and leaves again.
Victor lifts his glass but does not drink yet.
"Are you hoping that's a good sign?" he asks quietly.
I hesitate.
"Yes."
There is no point pretending.
After five years of disappointment you begin searching for hope in the smallest details.
Victor studies me for a moment.
"You know what the doctors said."
"I know."
"The hormones can make your body act pregnant even when it isn't."
"I know that too."
"But you still want to believe."
"Yes."
Victor nods slowly.
"I understand that."
I watch him take a sip of champagne.
"Do you think I'm foolish?"
"Never."
"You hesitated."
"I didn't."
"You did."
Victor smiles faintly.
"You're a lawyer. You cross examine people for a living."
"And you avoid answering questions for a living."
"That's called business strategy."
I laugh quietly.
The sound surprises both of us.
It feels strange to laugh about anything connected to this process.
Victor relaxes slightly when he hears it.
"There she is," he says.
"Who?"
"My wife."
"I've been here the whole time."
"Not exactly."
"What does that mean?"
Victor sets his glass down.
"It means the last few months have been hard on you."
"They've been hard on both of us."
"Yes."
"But I'm the one who goes through the procedures," I say gently.
"I know."
"And the hormones."
"I know."
"And the waiting."
Victor nods slowly.
"I know."
The waiter returns with the first course before the conversation can deepen further.
Small plates appear on the table. Something delicate and beautifully arranged that looks more like art than food.
Victor waits until the waiter leaves before speaking again.
"You're allowed to hope," he says quietly.
"I know."
"But you're not allowed to torture yourself."
"That's not really a rule I can follow."
"Why not?"
"Because this matters."
"It matters to me too."
I meet his gaze across the candlelight.
"Sometimes I wonder if you're stronger than I am."
Victor shakes his head immediately.
"No."
"You never fall apart."
"That doesn't mean I'm stronger."
"Then what does it mean?"
"It means someone has to stay steady."
I hold his gaze for a long moment.
"You think I'm not steady."
"I think you're human."
I take a bite of the food even though I barely taste it.
The silence between us is not uncomfortable. It never has been.
Victor watches me for a moment before speaking again.
"Do you remember our first anniversary?" he asks.
"Yes."
"You insisted on cooking."
"I'm a good cook."
"You burned the salmon."
"That was one time."
"You also set off the smoke alarm."
"That was the oven's fault."
Victor laughs softly.
"I miss that version of us."
"What version?"
"The one that didn't schedule life around fertility clinics."
My chest tightens slightly.
"We'll get back there."
"I know."
"Once this works."
Victor nods.
"Yes."
The word hangs between us.
Once this works.
Not if.
Once.
I look at him carefully.
"You still believe that?"
Victor holds my gaze steadily.
"I believe in you."
Before I can answer my phone vibrates softly against the table.
The sound is quiet but noticeable in the calm restaurant.
I glance down automatically.
Victor notices.
"Work?"
"Probably."
"You can ignore it."
"I should at least check."
Victor shrugs lightly.
"Go ahead."
I pick up my phone.
The screen lights up in my hand.
The name that appears makes my heart pause for a moment.
Eva.
My younger sister rarely texts during the evening unless something is wrong.
Victor notices my expression.
"What is it?"
"My sister."
"Is she okay?"
"I don't know yet."
I unlock the phone.
Victor takes another sip of champagne while watching me carefully.
"Tell her you're at dinner," he says casually.
"I will."
The message opens.
There is no text at first.
Just an image loading slowly on the screen.
I frown slightly.
"That's strange."
"What?"
"She sent a picture."
"Of what?"
"I'm not sure yet."
The photo appears piece by piece.
First a hospital blanket.
Then a tiny hand.
Then a small face.
A newborn baby.
I stare at the screen without speaking.
Victor notices the silence immediately.
"What happened?"
I don't answer.
My eyes remain fixed on the photograph.
Dark hair.
Small nose.
Closed eyes.
The baby looks peaceful.
Victor leans forward slightly.
"Leticia?"
I swallow.
There is another message under the photo.
Four words.
I read them once.
Then again.
Then a third time because my brain refuses to understand them.
I'm sorry.
He's Victor's.
Victor's voice cuts gently through the silence.
"What did she send?"
I look up slowly.
My husband is sitting across from me with the same calm expression he has worn all evening.
He has no idea that the ground under our marriage just cracked open.
My heart beats once.
Twice.
Three times.
Strangely steady.
I lock my phone and place it face down on the table.
Victor watches the movement.
"Leticia?"
I reach for my water glass.
My hand is steady.
Completely steady.
"It's nothing," I say.
He studies my face carefully.
"That didn't look like nothing."
"It's just Eva being dramatic."
"About what?"
I take another sip of water.
Then I set the glass down gently.
"I'll call her later."
Victor still looks unconvinced.
"You sure everything's alright?"
I meet his eyes.
"Yes."
For a moment he continues studying my face as if trying to read something deeper.
Then he relaxes slightly.
"Alright."
The waiter approaches again with the next course.
Victor turns his attention toward him.
But I'm no longer listening.
Because the photograph is burned into my mind.
The baby's face.
The dark hair.
The eyes that looked eerily familiar even though they were closed.
Victor's eyes.
And the four words my sister sent me.
I sit there quietly while the waiter explains the dish in detail.
Victor nods politely.
I smile when I'm supposed to.
But inside something cold and precise is already forming.
Not anger.
Not yet.
Something sharper.
Something calmer.
Something that understands one simple truth.
By the time this dinner ends, my marriage will already be over.
Victor just doesn't know it yet.