Your Power

BITTER SWEET.

Rain drops washed away my tears as they merged into one.Sobs wracked through me as it continued to rain heavily. It felt like the skies felt my pain and cried with me. This wasn't supposed to happen. No...they didn't just do this to me, not me. They loved me!...or at least they made me believe they did!

As i sat at the park all alone in the dead of night, i couldn't help how my mind kept playing the wretched memories in a loop, reminding me of how big of a fool i was. Just having to relive the day in my mind caused my heart with a tardial wave of pain and fresh sobs to wrack through my tired, cold and rain battered body.

Bitter sweet.That was how the day was for me.I had just landed back in Kenya after a succesfull job interview at Roche & Cie which is an accounting firm in France registered with the Order of Chartered Accountants of the Rhône-Alpes region in France. An Expert in asset management and a specialist advisor to France non-residents and foreign investors. Finally all the nights spent studing till the wee hours of the morning ,early mornings in order to get to my morning classes and in the end graduating top of my class at Strathmore Universty paid off.

Although i had landed a job almost immediately after graduation at Centum, i felt like the grass was always greener on the other side. So when i saw an advert online for an opportunity to work at Roche & Cie, i decided to shot my shot. The stars alligned to my favour as two weeks later i was called in for an interview at their Lyon offices with all expenses catered for. I was flabbergasted to say the least.

So i flew in back to Kenya a day earlier with the intention of surprising Nick, Natalie my 12yr old baby sister and Breana or Bree as i call her ,with the good news. I had decided to celebrate in style, this weekend i was to go all out and have fun as i and Natalie would be relocating to France in a week's time.

Me and Nick had already discussed and agreed he would move to France with me if i got the job as he liked the idea of pursuing his dream of being one of the big time fashion photographers at top designer brands.All was going great , but i was about to get the biggest shock of my life.

As i paid and steped out of my uber, i was suddenly overcome by this unsettling feeling that something was about to go wrong. Call it a preminition of doom if you like. I just brushed it aside by cursing the devil for trying to ruin my day. If only i had known the devil had no hand on how my life was about to take a turn for the worst. I had a spring in my step as i went up the building complex to my apartment that i shared with my boyfriend. I felt like a boss b***h as Doja Cat puts it.Softly humming to myself, i twisted the lock to go into the apartment and i was welcome by Earned it by The Weeknd blasting through the speakers thus signalling Nick was home. Bt what i couldn't understand was why clothes, feminine clothes which weren't mine and some of Nick's were stewn in a trail to the bedroom. WTF!

This had my heart hammering as my mind cooked up different scenarios of what was going on.There was a red thong drapped over the arm rest of my blue velvet coach. I was sure as hell that wasn't mine and if it was i surely wouldn't have left it on the coach! What the hell was happening? Would Nick bring a girl home? Would he cheat on me? He surely won't do that would he?

A loud moan that was heard over the music pulled me out of my thoughts and shock me to my core.

"Oooh Niiick, right there baby aaah i feel that s**t in my stomach oooh aaah harder daddy!!" My breath hitched. I know that voice. Hell i would recognize the b***h even in my sleep. No, it couldn't be.She would never do that to me. She is my ride or die b***h!! No, no , no, no...

Legs shaking ,weak at the knees, i covered the distance from where i had stood at the door to my bedroom, bursting through it. How i managed to stand straight and not just fall into cardiac arrest and thus to an early death still buffles me. I'm still amazed by the sheer strengh my body posed.

Legs up in the air spread as watonly wide as they could go ,on her back with her head thrown back in pleasure was how i got Breana, my best friend and cousin, in bed with Nick who was balls deep in her p***y on his knees in the middle of the bed we shared each night grunting away like the disgusting animal he was. The banging of the door against the wall signalled them of another presence in the room. They turned there heads to me and froze as the reality of the situation sank in. The srambled off each other in a haste to cover their sweaty bodies in my sheets that they snatched off the bed as they became aware of their compromising situation .

"Baby, baby , i i can explain. It's not what i looks like i swear." Typical cheating male responce! Oh Lord Jesus Christ, when you came to save the world, did you somehow forget the male species needed redemption?! I burst out laughing because despite the situation that was one stupid funny as f**k s**t he has just spewn. At least he got to be funny, he should look into being a comedian sometime.

"It's not what it looks like?! IT'S NOT WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE!! Reallly tho?! After catching you red handed f*****g my cousin like you are in some p**n film, that's what you say?! So pray tell what is going on, coz heaven forbid you weren't cheating! So kindly explain what your d**k was doing inside my w*****g b***h of a cousin." I was mad, scartch that, i was fuming. I'm pretty sure if i was a cartoon character i would have smoke coming out my ears.

"Kahlani!! how could you say that..." Breana exclaimed lookong shocked with watery eyes.

"Ooh please!! Shut the f**k up! Look at you all ready to play the victim. Oh yes you are one w*****g skank ass motherfucking ass b***h! I was there for you through your first period pain, through your first break up hell i was there for you through your abortion even when i wasn't for it and everyone cast you aside! I was there to support you financially when you lost your job coz your hoe ass tried to seduce your boss. I never judged you , not even once, and this is the thank you i get?! By f*****g my boyfriend?!"

There trully ain't saving these hoes, my cousin was living proof of that.

"Spare me the lecture you stuck up b***h! You always had it easy in life being the little orphaned albino girl that everyone adored. So don't judge about my life decisions! No one puts me first so i had to do that all on my own.I get what i want i don't care who ends up as colleteral damage for my betterment" She said all these with a satisfied smirk on her face and for the first time i saw the hate that she had so well hidden for me, in her eyes. How could i ever miss that?! I was trully blind for a while now.

"I never put myself above you, you were just jealous coz you knew i was better than you. Nick you were the last person i'll expect to betray me after all the s**t i put up with for this relationship. I loved you broke ass, supported you even when your family put you out for following your dreams, still stayed with you even when everyone else, including your hoe Breana, warned me about your motherfucking ass self. I tolerated you and your s**t each day when all you did was sit on my coach, watch tv, eat my food and not help me with s**t bt still expect me to cook and clean after a long tiring day at work.You disgut me nigga!!"

Like how could i have been so stupid?! All the signs were out there in the open staring at me right in the face, mocking me .

"Love please try to understand, you insisted on us waiting, i tried for the longest to supress what came natural but i'm just a man after all.It just happened one day and couldn't stop. It meant nothing, this doesn't mean s**t baby.I love you and only you.Please don't let one silly little mistake come between us." Men truly are dogs.That's his excuse and he expects me to forgive him?! Nah b***h, not in this life or the next for that matter.

"So after f*****g me for the past 8 months and having your fill with me you think you can just throw me to the carb like some trash?! Weren't you the one telling me that i'm the type of woman for you that Kahlani could never be?! Telling me how much you love me and would leave her for me?! You tripping nigga, i'm here to stay. You made your bed so prepare to f*****g lie in it. And Kahlani, shut up with all the BS, nobody cares about you and your little feelings coz if i did i wouldnt have sent sweet little Natalie to the ER last month." She was actually happy about what she did! That little b***h! Came at me, no probkem but came after my baby sister, you dead b***h.

"What the hell do you mean? b***h it better not be what i think it is!" b***h bout to get her ass beat!

"Ooh yes, she was acting like a little b***h so i had to put her in her place. I caused her allergic reaction, i enjoyed watching her turning pale, writhing in pain and falling short of brearh. I enjoyed every last minute of it."

I SAW RED!

PLAYLIST

1.If i were a boy By Beyonce

2.Promis Jure by Tayc

3.Last night by Danileigh

4.I'm not the only one by Sam Smith

Hey loves, how do you like it so far.This is my first time writing a book so go easy on me. I would like some feedback so comment and share. Till next time loves.