THE LOVE EQUATION [Love x hate]

The Opening up

Time: 3 pm today

Sebastin stood still as Noah hugged him tightly letting all his held emotions flow through his eyes in a way of Tears he let Noah cry

He hugged Noah back and caressed his back and let Noah express himself the way he wanted to . .

After crying for about 20 minutes and hugging Sebastin like a baby he stopped hugging sebastin and stepped a few steps back

I am sorry Professor Sebastin I should have not hugged you that way it is not right I am sorry *he bowed a little while crying*

Do not apologise Noah stop crying a little please * Sebastin handed him a tissue*

Noah finally stopped crying after another 10 minutes and nodded looking down at his feet

Have a seat Noah

Can we not?

Can we not what?

Can we not talk here?

You don't want to talk about it?

I want to talk but not here please please

Okay let us go wherever you want to Noah

They left the university campus and went towards sebastins car

Noah sat at passenger seat while Sebastin sat on the drivers seat

So where do we go sir? * Sebastin asked in a light tone not his usual cold tone trying to make things between him a Noah a little better *

Can you please just keep driving please? somewhere

Okay Noah as you say * Sebastin starts to drive not knowing where it is going to take them *

You know Noah You should not punch walls or mirror when you are angry there are many ways to express your anger instead of punching walls and mirrors * Sebastin said in a straight yet soothing tone *

I do not know any other ways I have been punching walls and mirrors and kicking the walls and stuff to express my anger

You have been?

Yeah since I was 5 or 6

But why you did not have many ways to be angry though

What do you mean?

You were always loved and you've I mean yeah

You do not know a thing Professor

What does it mean?

You know you might have heard from people at university and the dean that I am a spoiled child and how everyone in my family loves me and it's all a lie I know they do love me but they never had time

Time? Can you elaborate things?

You know My Dad always went to work along with my grandfather and My uncles have their own business and they went to handle it to their offices my mom always went out with her friends either to parties or some vacations and my grandmother was just going out with her friends too so it was just me alone with me and my babysitters or caretakers and house helps they and me alone all day long

I was never given the time I wanted with my parents or family I always craved their attention and lacked love yes I was given gifts money and toys and everything I wanted but not love and their precious time never I always lacked that

I never was so rude and unfriendly I started being jealous of other people for having a good term healthy relationship with their parents so i started treating people badly and treated everyone as if they were just inferior to me

I started craving for attention from people and when I did not get the attention I wanted from people I started adapting to negative ways such as bullying and fighting and saying negative and bad words to grab the attention from people

I did not want to disrespect you and yes and I was disrespecting you but I did not intend to do it and I just wanted your attention and that was only it nothing else and that is why I started adapting many negative ways to get your attention and that's why I did such things to you like throwing stones at your house and the firecrackers trust me I wanted to apologize after after the firecrackers incident and I did bring the rose for the same purpose and I was going to ask to go for breakfast to somewhere but we did not get things right that way I understand your reaction I would be angry to if someone but firecrackers at my door at 6 am on a Sunday morning but trust me I did want to apologize to you after all what I did the pins the paints the stones everything and I should be ashamed to have treated you that way the way I did because you took things in a very calm way everyone else was angry and shouted at me for everytime whatever I did and everything I did .

I am sorry Noah I was extremely angry that day and I did not mean my words either

It's okay I forgave you already

Sebastin nodded

So this was my childhood I guess you had a good childhood since you are very mature and smart I think you were raised well and good * Noah smiled with his red eyes *

Well very wrong guess of yours and very wrong of you to think so I had a very well childhood

Umm what do you mean?

Well my childhood was fine till 10 Years of age but then * Sebastin took a deep breath before saying anything *

You can be comfortable with me I would never judge you I swear

I did not have a great childhood as such when I was about 10 my dad cheated on my mom and left me and my mom alone and I was devastated after that incident I never saw him again after that incident again he left us alone and broke then my mom did have a job and at her work she met a guy my step dad and she married him but my step dad touched me inappropriately and when I told my mom she shouted at me and when she had a choice to choose me or the guy she was married to she chose him and not me and I had enough so I left my house at that time and ran away Luckily enough I met a guy who owned an orphanage and I grew up at an orphanage till 16 things did not go well there and I ran away from there after I was accussed of stealing and even haarrasments which I did not do so I left the orphanage and ran away from there too and ever since I have not seen both of my parents and they did not even try to find me ever again and I still do not know where they are

* Sebastin sighed after telling his story to Noah *

Noah was speechless and trying to control his tears after hearing what Sebastin said and was silent but then he nodded slightly and spoke somehow

That is unbelievable and I am sorry to ask you I am sure that it must be quite traumatic for you to even think about all of this matters I am sorry

No no it is okay I am now use to all this stuff it has been a very long time since these things took place so let us keep that apologies aside now shall we Noah?

Yeah that would be better so where are we actually going ha?

Well I do not know I am just driving but just a few miles away from here is a small asian cafe which serves amazing Ramen so I would love to take you there and spend some time there to make up for the things we had how about that?

Sure that is not a bad idea and I would love to come with you it is amazing instead of just wasting time at home in my room I would love to come with you to the cafe

Sure then let us head there

Yeah sure sure

When they were driving Sebastin got a call from someone he looked at the Caller ID and ignored the call after silencing it

Sebastin continued to receive about few more calls from the same person identified as Justin

Sebastin clenched his fists and punched the steering wheel in anger after looking at the Caller ID

He closed and kept his phone on airplane mode and looked straight

You look angry what happened?

Umm nothing it is someone is hate too much

Justin?

So you saw it

Yeah is he your ex friend who betrayed you cause I am so angry at the friends who betray me

It's an ex not friend but ex boyfriend

Boyfriend as in your homosexual?

Yeah I am homosexual I mean I am gay and I am into men

So Justin is a guy you dated?

Yeah he is my ex boyfriend

Why did you break up?

He cheated on me turns out he was bisexual and not gay it was not a problem but the problem was that he cheated on me and I do not believe in love since then

I feel you but I am Also GAY by the way I like boys too I have been in 2 relationships by the way

Oh and why did it not work for you in your case?

Well my first boyfriend cheated on me and another was not into me just my body so when I denied physical touch he would get angry and Aggressive so I left him for that reason you know I do not like that attitude of people

Oh you had your relationships a bit complicated right? It is okay that you left both of them it is a sign of unhealthy relationship it was good for you that you left both of them so good boy Noah

Yeah I do not like unhealthy signs in a guy I am going to date it is okay if he has anger issues and that is fine but not getting Aggressive and too dominant and over possessive right?

Yeah I agree with you on that one for sure

That is good I know I always know

Noah we are here at the cafe

Noah looked at the stop and saw a city place yet comfortable place with a nice atmosphere

This place looks good so let us go in?

Sure let us go

They went in and sebastin removed his coat and held it in his arms exposing his his well built body hugging his shirt

He looked well built and good and amazing posture and he looked attractive

They sat at the table and ordered their food

I have never been to such places I was never allowed to come to such places

I have not been here since past 2 Years but still I use to come here with my friends in my university days every week

That is amazing I am sure you do know many places I am sure you know many others do you?

I know a lot of eating places as in restaurants and cafe's also many places for shopping and having fun me and have friends have been to many more such places it was amazing

Wow that is amazing i would love to go to those other places also with you that would be lovely and no one would mind me being with you I am sure besides I would not even tell them

Yeah we both can go I can also take you with my friends they would not mind having you with us what say?

Yeah that would be great you can come with me Lucas Liam and William too you know?

Sebastin nodded

Their food arrived and they started eating

This is amazing I love it I just love it it is hard to describe in words how good this thing really is ughh man I was kept away from this for so long damn

Sebastin smiled the very first time infront of Noah making Noah's heart beat faster

So you can smile? Right?

Yeah I can smile it is just that I do not smile very often or frequently I smile rarely

I see why is that so?

I do not smile way more often

Noah nodded

They were done eating

Sebastin noticed how cute Noah looked when he had food around his mouth and how messy of a eater he was Sebatin smiled to himself gently and found the scene infront of him As Noah ate like a baby

Sebastin slowly wiped the food around Noah's mouth with the tissue and smiled gently nodding looking at Adorable Noah

Noah smiled embarrassed at the fact he ate like a toddler who did not know how to eat properly and nodded embarrassed and getting red with shame

No Don't be embarrassed Noah it is okay it can get messy eating the Ramen sometimes and that is the real fun of having Ramen you enjoy it to the fullest this way . . .

Thank you for not making me feed bad about myself Sebastin * Noah smiled gently *

They were done so Sebastin payed and they went towards the car and Sebastin looked at Noah once

Noah I was wondering that I should drop you at your house now since it is getting a little late and your family might worry about you being out for so long they do not know you are with Me so should we go to your house ?

No they will probably think that I am at the club partying so no problem at all I want to spend some time with you Is that okay sebastin?

Yeah if that is what you want we can go sure?

Yeah sure let us go now

They sat inside the car and Sebastin started driving back to where they came from

Noah where do you want to go now ?

I do not know much Sebastin actually I am not much aware since I am always with the driver Can you decide that ?

Sure would you like some coffee or soup ?

Umm Coffee sounds good

There is a stall as in it falls inside the city bit it is a good stall handled by a couple they are sweet and their coffee and soup is amazing too it is lovely we will go there now

Yeah that sounds fun at the moment

Yeah the place is good as the couple handling It is friendly and lovely too

Oh that's good to know

It is still a few miles away from here to be more precise so you can sit back and relax for now . . .

How long will it take ?

Probably 30 minutes to reach there

Oh cool that is good then

Yeah I guess so

So , Why did you decide to teach ?

I worked before at a company then I was offered this job at the Univeristy and I found it better and less hectic than my previous job so I decided to accept the offer and here I am as your professor .

Oh what was your previous job then ?

I was a Finance manager and also the personal assistant of the boss at my previous company it was extremely hectic and stressful to handle both jobs at once at the same damn time so I decided to quit that and accept the job of the professor at the Univeristy

That is amazing you did take a bold decision I must say that Sebastin

Yeah I took the risk and it was definitely worth it I suppose

So do you live alone Sebastin ?

Yeah I do live alone in my house

That is good I guess but don't you feel lonely sometimes?

No I don't usually now I am used to all this stuff and when I do feel lonely I go out with my few close friends and we do something or go somewhere * Sebastin nodded *

That Is so good I am only allowed at clubs and parties not anywhere else if my parents find out me being with you I am screwed for sure

Oh then maybe you should not be here I suppose right Noah ?

Yeah but don't worry it is not a problem at all Sebastin I will handle it all and first of all they would not care for me being not at home and probably they are out somewhere too

Oh I decide to trust you then I hope there is no problem created later on right?

Yeah there is not gonna be any problem with anything so do not worry everything is gonna be alright and we are safe for sure

Good I suppose and we still have 15 minutes left Noah

Okay sure it is although fun with you to be on the drive

What do you mean?

I thought you were very boring when I first saw and met for a fews days too but my opinions about you and personality are different now very much and completely different then they were before

Oh I know and I do understand that people do think that way because I am silent and do not speak much so it was very obvious for you to think that I am a boring person

Yeah but you are not at all a boring person infact you are very interesting one you are kind off mysterious though Like that is what I thought looking at you before and indeed that is true as well you are kind off mysterious Sebastin

Yeah I am because I do not open up so easily so early it takes alot of time for me to be comfortable and be comfortable with anyone no matter who it is and that's how my true Nature is

TO BE CONTINUED