Luke Logan

Chapter 10

I was rudely awakened by my alarm, it was annoyingly loud. 

it's Monday. I don't think I can go to work. What if he's there? 

I still don't know what happened.  

Why can't I stop crying? 

I need to figure this out. 

Maybe a shower will bring me back to earth. 

It did not help, except to remind me to call a cab to work. 

How did I get here? 

I can't even decide what to wear. As upset as I am, a big part of me hopes to see him today because I want his jaw to drop because I look so stunning. What's wrong with me?

 This was not me 3 days ago. 

You know what, screw him. I keep telling myself, trying to get out of my head… trying to get my head back into the game.  I've had the best kiss of my life and I loved it. Whether he feels the same or not doesn't really matter. That's what I'm taking from this. 

I just need to avoid him and I'll be fine. 

My gate buzzer rigs, I guess the cab's here. 

I make my way to the gate. 

As I step out the elevator, I look up and see his car parked at the gate. 

This was definitely not covered in my little pep talk with myself earlier. 

What do I say? How do I even play this? Like it meant nothing? Ignore him? Grrrr why does he keep doing this to me? I can’t even pretend that I haven't seen him.  

How can something that gorgeous be so infuriating? 

Of 1 thing I can certain, I can't be alone with him. No one has ever made me feel so humiliated, unwanted and ugly.

I slowly make my way to the gate hoping and at this point practically praying for my cab to arrive. By the goodness of the universe his phone rings and he breaks eye contact. He gives me a dumb look and answers the phone. 

As if mother universe were smiling on me, my cab arrives and I scurry my way to it without having to say a word to him. I jump in and ask the driver to get me out of there.

What was he doing there anyway?

Hasn't he humiliated me enough? 

I spend the day in my lair, hiding from the world. Still trying to figure out happened. 

Thankfully the dealership called and would be delivering my car this afternoon. For a while I thought he was going to hold my car hostage or something. 

Is he the type of person that would do that? 

Another question I can't answer, because I’m stuck on a man  I know nothing about. 

How did I even get into his car. Who does that? get into the car of a complete stranger that they saw at work. 

I don't even know his surname for goodness sake!

What was he even doing there this morning ?? A girl can only handle so much rejection in one weekend. 

I can't stop thinking about him. I can't stop thinking about our kiss.  Between that and avoiding Mikah, the hours flew by. 

I made it through what seemed to be the longest Monday of my life. 

I can't say that I’m sad to see the work day end.  All I’ve wanted to do since I saw him this morning was huddle up on my couch, drink copious amounts of wine, watch old movies and wallow in stupidity and rejection.

I get home, and he's still on my mind. What did he think would happen this morning? In fact why was he waiting sat at my folk’s place on Saturday? Why does he keep showing up? 

I can't deal with this sober, need some wine. As with everything in my life, I only have half a bottle left. 

I can't even go to damn store and get myself some more, because he may just "be in the neighbourhood" again. 

Tuesday morning 5:55, I must have passed out again. 

Another day, a new opportunity at having a beautiful day. 

Same routine. Shower, get dressed and off to work. 

Did a few pc upgrades, all was well with the world again. Jas just called because Mika broke something else.  

Made my way to his office, and lucky for me, it was empty. 

"Sorry babe, they are in the big boardroom." Jas shouted from her office. 

I slowly made my way to the main boardroom. 

As I walked in all  I could see Cousin It.  Yes, we are back to calling him that. It’s the only way for me to even begin working him out of my system.

"Lex, please help." Mika says as I walk in.

At that, Cousin IT asked for coffee and Mika offered to go get it. 

"Alone finally”, IT said"

“So what's wrong? What do you need fixed”, I asked, completely ignoring what he just said. 

"It's not projecting to the second screen" He replied. 

“Ok” I replied, still not making eye contact and ignoring him.

Don't look at him, don' look at him, he'll suck you back in and we know how that ends. This was fast becoming new mantra. 

"Pleas look at me" He said 

Completely ignoring him, I started rattling off all my troubleshooting steps out loud. 

 He touches my hand...and the sparks are still there, that blasted surge of electricity was going through my body again. I felt my knees get weak, my hand felt like it was on fire so I yanked it away and I finally started breathing again. I did not even realise that I was holding my breath.

"Please talk to me" He says 

I finally took a deep breath and went through more troubleshooting steps. 

"About what happened on Sunday night"  he started saying

“There all fixed.” I interrupted him.

“If that is all,  I've got other work to do”, I said as I rushed out of the room nearly running over Mika in my haste. I had to get out of there.

I made my way back to my lair, I'm not in the mood to be around people. A few minutes later, there was a knock at the door. 

Without thinking, I opened the door, and it was him. 

"We need to talk" he said while pushing his way into my lair

“I don't think there's anything to talk about.” I replied, while pretending to be busy. “I think you should leave, we both know that you are very good at that” I said in the coldest tone I could master.

"Please look at me" He said as he touched my shoulder. 

I froze, this is how I ended up in this situation. 

I moved away from his searing touch, I moved around the room, still pretending to be busy. 

"About the other night..." he started saying 

“Listen, that day is forgotten”  I said interrupting him. 

“Do me a favour and pretend like it never happened. I am  embarrassed enough as it is. I don't need you standing here feeling sorry for me. I'm a big girl.  I can promise you that that won't happen again.  So please just go.” I said while I opened the door and gestured for him to leave.  Still not making eye contact, as I kept my eyes on my shoes and the ground beneath me. Hoping that it would miraculously open up and swallow me. Taking me away from this uncomfortable situation.

"Lexi" he said raising his voice. 

I wouldn't even look at him, I just pointed out the door, again motioning that he should leave. 

He walked up to me, getting very close to me, our bodies just inches apart. He raised my chin so that he could look into my eyes. He gently caressed my cheek with his thumb and started to kiss me. The kiss was soft and slow, so gentle.  I couldn’t resist. My mind wanted to, but my body had other plans.

It was as our lips had finally found home. I felt my knees buckle under me, he snaked his left arm around my waist as he leaned against the door post and pulled me in even closer. I was pressed firmly against his chest. And in position we continued to study each other's mouths. He eventually slowed his kiss to gentle butterfly kisses that he peppered on my lips and eventually my check ad forehead.  

He brushed my cheek,  and finally said  “I'm sorry about the other night. My intention was not to hurt you or make you feel rejected. I didn't want you to do anything you might later regret. I’ve wanted you from the second I saw you standing in Mika’s office. Our kiss that night is all I can think about and I don’t want to forget about it." 

"can we please talk about this over dinner tonight?" he continued to say with our eyes still locked on each other. I could barely make out what he was saying as he was still caressing my cheek.

All I could do was nod, trying to maintain my balance.

He took my hand in his and kissed it before making his way back upstairs. 

I spent the last few hours of my work day watching the clock, anxiously waiting for 4pm so I could get home and get ready for our dinner date. I swear I could still feel my lips tingling from our kiss.