A writer's daily constant mood everyday

Chapter III - If only ( Fragment of her imagination )

" When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful "The music starts to play as I remember all the pastMy past were all black and gray

Till that day you showed up and filled my life with colors." Every hour we spent together, lives within my heart "Those hours that I can clearly remember

Those moments were we are so close to each otherAt first I thought I just love you as my friend." And when she was sad, I was there to dry her tears "Those days where I was the only one who is there for you

Those days that I were there to dry your tears off of your eyes." And when she was happy, so was I, when she loved me "I just how admire and love the way you smile

What makes you happy makes me happy tooThat day I knew I've fallen inlove with you and so you were... In the past. " Through the summer and the fall, we had each other, that was all " Memories kept replaying to my mind

Those time we had each other and it was all we need. " Just she and I together, like it was meant to be " I started to think we both are meant for each other

How we both spend countless hours talking to random thingsHow we waste our time looking through stars and sing " And when she was lonely, I was there to comfort her

And I knew that she loved me "You were lonely, I was there, I remember how your father abandoned your family" It hurts me so much seeing you in pain.

I comfort you with all my might and hope that things will turn out ok.That time I knew you felt the same way as me but God take you away from me too early. " If I was brave enough to tell her " I said to myself facing her coffin.

Then reality hits hard for me knowing that I'm only and always be your imaginary friend. 

She has schizophrenia causing her to hallucinate every moment and scene that I was there and her parents tried to convience her that I wasn't real.

She didn't believe them firstly but she slowly understands her condition after taking proper medication, causing her to be depressed that I was just one of her little fragment of imagination.

That time, she points a knife straight to her heart, I was there, But I wasn't able to stop her since I was made out of her imaginations, I watch her fall to the ground lifelessly.

" If only I was real ".