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Chapter I - A missing little puzzle piece ( Hatred )

I purposely did the rice a little soft for you to chew faster

I purposely did the chores you weren't ask for but ranting and saying it's a disaster

I purposely did every order you say

But you'll be mad to that point hurting me just I got the slightest delay

Yes, you're my mother but you're not acting like one

Yes, you're my mother but you're treating me like a trash that deserves to be gone

Yes, you're my mother

But isn't a mother unconditionally loves her daughter?

I never hear you saying you were proud me

I will only hear it if money is were to see

I never experienced you comforting me

I only experience that if you badly needed money

You did birthed me and raised me

But setting me up on the obligation to take care of you is just disgusting to see

You did raised me but for what?

For that future which you cannot?

You birthed me to be your wallet

You birthed cause you once dream to be a ballet

You said that I ruined your life in the first place

Then why keep me in your womb trying to plaster that fake smile on your face?

You are not even the one who really raised me but your partner

I once ask you where's my father

And here you are saying it's not that important

Oh Satan knows well that you're just being ignorant

I once question my existence cause of the rumors

I never felt this feeling of such remorse

Relatives says you're not my real mother but my grandmother

Relatives says you take me away from my siblings so you can have your own wallet to spoil you when you grow older

Can you just be honest?

Why you're trying yourself to be so modest?

I've never done anything wrong for you not trusting me

I've done everything that pleases you and ask you to let me be

Yes, I am your daughter

But I am not your wallet for your future

Yes, you birthed me

But that doesn't mean I owe you anything but you owe me everything cause you choose to have a child and that's ME

You birthed me

You raised me

But

You ruined me

You truamatized me

Now I'm just a missing little puzzle piece