11

The wall crumbling down

chapter 11

The night shade left was very traumatic for me,I felt empty and shattered ,I tried to shake it off after some days but it was not possible,infact through out the whole week,I was like someone who lost his wife,I have been experiencing this during my previous series but why is this one different,why can't I get shade out of my mind, although she was not officially my girlfriend but I feel we have dated for years,I warned you didn't I,the other me returning to taunt me,there is nothing like true love,when will you get this into your skull,the poor ones left because of money what in this world made you think this one will stay in this type of place,foolish enough you rejected compensation,these thoughts reduced me to a small boy ,all could do was to cry,asking God the why questions, God what is wrong with me, what crime have I committed to deserve this punishment,why can't I be like others enjoying their love life.

Going through some of my past heart breaks, first was nzube,she was my first love while in secondary school, we were practically inseparable,while I was seeing her as too young for intimate affair,she was busy flirting around untill she was impregnated and dropped out of school, unfortunately I was blamed for not meeting her emotional needs then came Rose, Marta,constance and others,all inflicting emotional injuries on me,I moved on fast,why is shade's case different, within three weeks she has made so much impact in my life that letting go of her has become difficult.

kasie this one you're keeping to yourself are you well, jide walking up to me, have you been dumped yet again , trying to get my attention,guy please leave me alone, i, m not in the mood for jokes, coming closer to me, what is going on, who provoked you,at least I know you do not official girlfriend , jide please I'm not in the mood for jokes,I m not feeling fine,I lied, sorry my brother,I just wanted to enquire if would hangout tonight, there is new catch of mine I have been preaching gospel to for some time now, I agreed to join him on a night out with ladies, where club are we going, looking at me in surprise, you and who, I thought you said you ill, is bar now a chemist or pharmacy for you,forget that thing,are you the one sick or have you forgotten that beer is as well a drug ,we burst into laughter.

That was how I followed jide to a night club,while he was busy with his new catch, I faced every available bottle, drinking myself to stupor,within two hours of stay at the club,jide shouted into my ear, because of the noisy environment,guy keep ordering beer I will be I will be right back ,he left with the lady, within fifteen minutes they returned with jide beaming with smiles while the lady was avoiding gazes, jide has just collected his. three points,within this short time, I started losing control of myself and it was past eleven pm,I reached out to jide,guy,I m going home,why na, relax I go pay for room where we will crash,I insisted,no,I want go home ,I m done drinking again,he noticed that I am losing control of myself,guy you are drunk,you not fit go,relax I will pay for room, tomorrow we go, without staying to argue I stood up,managed to hold myself and left.

Although the club is far from my house, trekking home wouldn't be problem as it will help me burn the alcohol effects by the time I get home,I felt happy or was I lying just to convince myself that I m okay since shade left my house trying to have fun, for the first time also,I thought maybe jide could be right,doing business with women would save you unnecessary emotional betrayals,it is obvious that true love no longer exist or never even existed,under the influence I was beginning to give a serious consideration towing the path of jide my friend so no woman would mess up with me.

The long walk home wasn't stressful because my adrenaline was seriously pumping powered by the over eight bottles of beer in my system,from my calculations,I should be getting relieved from the long walk but the opposite became the case as the highness keep increasing,the only thing I was benefitting was the absence of fear of attack by area boys at lonely corners but I was just hanging on to get home.

Finally,after giving it my all,I made it close to where I could see my house,my happiness was over taken by confusion as I was seeing shadows at my door,it was as if something is blocking my door, I had to rub my eyes repeatedly to know if it was the alcohol effects but drawing nearer,the figure became clearer but blurry,I finally passed out when the figure seems to be advancing towards me. TBC.