Echoes of Us

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The city was louder the next morning. Not in the usual way—the hum of traffic, the bark of vendors, the wail of sirens—but in the way everything felt more awake than I was. Every sound scraped against the quiet I’d found the night before. Maybe peace was just a temporary visitor. Maybe it always had been. I sat in the same café Mira and I used to go to during the early days, before anything had a name, before any feelings were confessed or buried. It was a corner spot with windows that caught the morning sun just right, warming the table like a memory you could sit inside. I stirred my coffee, though I hadn’t added anything to it. My fingers moved out of habit, like they were trying to stay busy so the rest of me wouldn’t fall apart. Across from me, the seat remained empty. And yet, I could see her there—leaning forward, elbows on the table, stealing sips from my cup even though she had her own. She used to do that just to annoy me. Or maybe to feel closer. Or both. Funny, the things you remember when they’re gone. I pulled out my journal, the same one I thought I’d finished. But the blank pages at the back whispered otherwise. They didn’t care about closure. They were waiting for more. So I started to write. Not poetry. Not confessions. Just memories. Fragments. Us, laughing as we got caught in the rain, her trying to use a pizza box as an umbrella. The way she hummed while reading, not even aware of it. The scent of coconut in her shampoo, how it lingered on my pillow long after she left. These weren’t things I could tell anyone. These were things I could barely admit to myself. But they mattered. They were real. Even if we weren’t anymore. ⸻ By noon, I was walking again. Through neighborhoods we’d once explored together. Mira loved walking through unfamiliar streets. She called it “getting lost on purpose.” Said it helped her find parts of herself she didn’t know she’d misplaced. Back then, I never understood it. Now, I did. I wandered past a mural that hadn’t been there before. Bright blues and yellows, swirling into the shape of a girl with her eyes closed, arms wide open like she was catching the sky. Someone had scrawled a phrase beneath it: “To be lost is not to be broken.” I stood there for a long time, the words echoing in my chest. Maybe I hadn’t been broken all this time. Maybe I was just lost. ⸻ Later that evening, I met up with Jamie. We hadn’t seen each other in months. Not since before Mira’s book launched. Not since I started drifting into silence, dodging texts and calls. Jamie had always been patient, but I knew I’d tested that patience far too often. He waved me over from a table in the park, where he was sketching in his notebook. He closed it when he saw me, like he was tucking away a part of himself to make space for mine. “You look… better,” he said. “Do I?” He shrugged. “Less haunted.” I sat beside him on the bench. The sunset was bleeding into the sky, streaks of orange and pink curling into the clouds. “I saw her,” I said. Jamie didn’t pretend not to know who I meant. He just nodded and waited. “She published the book,” I continued. “It’s everything I thought it would be. And not at all.” “You okay?” “I don’t know.” We sat in silence for a while. “She mattered,” I finally said. “More than I let myself believe.” Jamie nodded again. “You mattered too. Even if you never said it out loud.” I didn’t reply. I couldn’t. After a moment, he nudged me. “You gonna tell me what she said?” “She thanked me.” “For showing up.” “That’s something,” he said gently. “It felt like everything.” ⸻ That night, I found myself walking past Mira’s old apartment. I don’t know why. Maybe to say goodbye. Maybe to see if some ghost of her still lingered in the bricks and windows and doorway. But the lights were off. The curtains drawn. Whoever lived there now didn’t know us. Didn’t know the laughter that had echoed through those walls. The arguments. The kisses. The way we’d stood in the hallway once, holding each other like we were both afraid the world would disappear if we let go. I touched the doorframe with my fingers. Just for a second. And then I turned away. I didn’t need to go back in. I had carried enough of that place inside me already. ⸻ The next morning, I opened my inbox and saw a new message from an address I didn’t recognize. Subject: To Be Seen – Advance Reader Feedback I almost deleted it. Thought it was spam or a newsletter I’d forgotten to unsubscribe from. But something made me click. It wasn’t spam. It was a message from Mira’s editor. Apparently, I had been listed as one of the “sensitivity readers” Mira mentioned in her acknowledgments. The editor had forwarded a thank-you note and a copy of early reader reviews. I scrolled through them, heart pounding. One said: “I’ve never read a book that described being invisible in love so clearly. It hurt, but in a good way.” Another: “This book made me realize I’ve been in love with someone for years… and I never told them. Now I want to.” And another: “Thank you, Mira Alvarez, for putting into words what so many of us are too scared to say.” I didn’t cry. But I felt something crack open again. Not from pain. From pride. From gratitude. Because maybe the love I had given—quiet, hidden, unspoken—had finally reached someone. Even if it wasn’t Mira. ⸻ Days passed. Then weeks. Life began to take on shape again. I started writing more seriously. Not just journal entries or fragments. Actual stories. Not about Mira, not directly—but the ghost of her was in every sentence. The way she made me see the world differently. The way she taught me that silence could hold as much power as speech. My first short story was published in an online magazine. Jamie threw a mini party for me, complete with cupcakes and a makeshift “You Did It” banner made from old sketch paper. It was silly. And perfect. For the first time in a long time, I felt like I had something of my own. Not a shadow. Not a memory. But a future. ⸻ One afternoon, a letter arrived in the mail. Handwritten. No return address. Just my name. I recognized the handwriting instantly. Mira’s. I stared at it for hours before opening it. Inside was a single page. It read: I don’t know if I had the right to write our story. But I had to. Because even if I couldn’t say it then… You mattered. You changed me. You helped me see myself. And in some way, I hope the world sees you now too. Love, Mira I sat down on the floor, letter clutched in my hands. And I let the tears come. Not because I was broken. Not because I was lost. But because I was healing. ⸻ I kept the letter on my desk. Beside it, the journal—now full. And next to that, a manuscript I’d started drafting. A novel. Not about her. But about love. And silence. And the things we don’t say. Because maybe the quietest stories are the ones that echo the loudest. And maybe, just maybe… Some loves don’t need to last forever to mean something. They just need to be seen.
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