38The next morning, I awoke with the thought that my theory about Sean as the product of some genetic mutation seemed profoundly absurd. I had wanted children and I must live with the consequences and not shirk my responsibilities when it came to them. I struggled with my feelings for him admittedly and found it difficult to show him affection, particularly when his sneering insolence raised hackles whenever I spoke to him. His contemptuous tone and manner led me to think that our separation wasn't necessarily a bad thing. Not to mention his impulsive behaviour. We'd been given a chilling out period. It was just the rest of the chilling out that didn't appeal to me. I ached now for Sharon and living in our house. I missed the normality of my life, yes, the routine. I didn't like change, I
