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Alex fears the s*x in the morning will be slow and thoughtful. He doesn’t want this to feel like goodbye or just enough; he wants it to feel as good as it always has. But Paul seems happy to take cues and thankfully their last morning together in bed is fun and full of laughter.
They lie on the pillows catching their breath, heads together. Paul smiles when Alex laces their fingers together. Alex takes a moment to watch his face; the last chance he might ever have. At least from so close and intimate a perspective as this.
“Are you excited?” Paul asks.
Alex isn’t sure. It feels churlish to say no. But he’s not excited, not really. Especially not at the prospect of leaving Paul. “I will be, when I get there, I guess. But change is scary, I don’t like planes, and there’s a lot that co
