[Jersey] I stared at Ryder and watched as his face immediately dropped. He lowered his face, his jaw clenching hard. I opened my mouth to speak but no words came out as what he said rang over in my head. She was murdered! His hand tightened around mine and I could swear I saw darkness cloud Ryder's eyes for a second. My lips wobbled, my heart clenched. I wanted to ask questions. I wanted to know what exactly he meant by that, but the look in his eyes. God, the look in his eyes. I swallowed so hard as silence settled over the room for what felt like eternity. I stood up from his lap and he didn't even budge. His eyes were still lowered, his hand slipping off my arms. I quickly sat back on his lap but this time straddling him. My heart ached, my throat tightened as I circled my hand

