ZENDAYA:EVEN Roses have thorns

chapter 7

I woke up to a very annoying sound of an alarm darm it who told me to drink on a school day.

I dragged myself to the bathroom,i hate hangovers my head hurts like hell I feel so tired. I look at the mirror I look like a zombie the the memories of last night comes lashing to me all at once.

my eyes widen with the realization what did I --- oh my God what did I do . I start to panic now even my headache seems to be long forgotten.

what if he recognized me oh my gosh "why do you drink when you know you can not control your mouth ,what's wrong with you "I sure don't know please my dear conscious don't start with me right now ,this is bad Zendaya this is really bad.

after my pity party I took a bath got dressed took my phone and headphones and I made my way to school with my head still pounding "why do you behave like an i***t sometimes " I don't know I was hoping you can tell me.

when I got to school i was ten minutes late and because the universe hates me English happens to be my first period this is not good if I get detention today I will not be able to babysit again and that can't happen since I only have few weeks till I move out I guess I'm skipping today.

I walk out of the hallway to go to the rooftop when I get there I put my bag down and lay down and close my eyes with my headphones on.

I remember when I started going to clubs that day my stepfather called me to the mansion and tried to r**e me when I told my mother she beat and called me a home Leaker.

flashback 2years ago

Mr Jackson want to meet you in his office right now a maid come to inform me when I come back home from school . when I got there I knocked on the door ."come in "he said and without wasting any time I pursued the door open and I found him smiling at me. ,okay this is creepy why is he smiling at me.

"come sit down on the couch "okay I think the world is ending this is not normal is he sick or something but because I don't want to anger him I take a sit on the white leather couch. "Zendaya do you know why I called you here? "he asked me ."no sir"

"I have a proposition for you ,all you have to do is Scratch my back and i scratch yours". he said while making his way near me .

"I'm sorry sir but I don't understand what you mean "I told him while I moved away from him. "as you can see you have grown up to be quite a beauty so how about we do this you for fill my needs as a man and I will give you the family that I know you have always yearned for ". he said and started to touch my thigh and a shiver run down my spine and not the good kind the creepy kind.

"sorry sir but I still don't understand what you mean and if that's all I have to go finish my homework ". I said and I stand up ready to leave he harshly grabs my waist making me face him.

"listen to me you b***h you think you have a choice just because I was being nice to you .you think you can talk back to me"he throws me on the couch and towers over me.

"you think I don't know what you have been doing, s**t and you're here pretending to be a good girl how about you spread to pretty legs of yours for me". he says and starts to unbutton his shirt I start crying and begging him to stop but he was like a beast and before I knew it he was standing in front of me butt n***d. I screamed in horror as to what he was going to do to me.

" please dad don't do this to me help somebody help me please stop " he started ripping my clothes off me while still hitting me telling me shut the f**k up.

"shut up b***h and just take it like the little s**t we both now you are "he started to position himself in the middle of my legs and that when I knew it's now or never I used all the strength I have left and pushed him off me the kicked him on his ball ."f*****g b***h come back here you s**t you will regret this " he cursed at me .

I run to the door opened it with shaky hands and run to the hall leaving him there cursing at me.

"I was running without looking were I was going that when I bumped into my mother she looked at me with so much hatred and anger in her eyes that she was shaking. I thought that no matter how much she hated me she would at least protect me from her husband but boy was I wrong when I tried to explain to her what happened she said and I quote.

"you must have provoked him get away from me you home leaking w***e .

end of flashback

that night I cried so much and the rain like always joined me.

later that night I snack back into the mansion and stole two bottles of alcohol I drunk it all while sitting outside in the rain while moaning my pathetic excuse of a life.

the bell to the next period rings and because I don't feel like going to class and I can't go home I decide to go to the only place that gives me peace.