Dear Devil...'s

Episode 07:The Loss and The Last.

The last time i held her in my arms;

"Kaamir, am scared "

"It's okay to be scared" My voice came out as a whisper as i tried my best to speak, while hugging ell even closer to me to give her wormth, i arleady gave her my jacket in which i dont know in which gods grace made me wear only a vest today, well dont blame me it was a really hot day, who would have expected in such a hot day would end up being locked up in a freezer truck, But ell was still cooler than me, so while we were sitting on the floor i leaned on the cold wall and act as if it wasn't killing my spinalcord, as she laid on my thighs, leaning on my chest,

"But ... i cant be .. scared, kaamir, i musn't be scared" she dryly whispered which went to almost unheard if i wasn't paying attetion, "mmh" i simply answered, 'am sorry i dragged you into this, ellsa' i thought

"she was beau...tifull, she was soo... beautifull, her smile, sh .. she, kaamir, she's calling for me" she smiled and cried at the same time as she was shivering while her life was slipping out of her, that was my second fearest time in my life, silently panicking i shifted into my knees as i heald her in place, then i lifted her up to give her a full hug, my actions were fast showing my panicking situation, when i burried her head in the crook of my neck, she was burning up, i could still feel her smile on my neck as she inhales my scent, just the way she knew i liked it, she still had the strength of teasing me even on her death bed, but well enough i knew it was not a tease but like a goodbye sign she gave me, "no, no, please ellsa, tell her you ca...n't go yet, tell her we hav... haven't grown grey hair yet, tell her ..., tell her..., just not now ...." , i never felt so helpless before, i couldnt even think straight, i never stamered in my life no matter how nervous i am, but right now my mind couldn't even form the right words, praying silently to Allah, to 'leave her alone, whats the point of taking her and leaving me behind, while you so know that i will follow her behind, just dont take her, huh, how about me then, isn't it me that you want to punish then it is me who you have to take, or just take someone else who i care isn't your point to hurt me, am willing to exchange anyone's life with her's...' , "Nooo" i had to scream to the loudest so as first to try to give her some shock so as to prevent her from falling asleep but also i really needed someone to come to help if anyone's nearby, thats when the trucks doors were open and the doctors got in but refussed to hand her over to the doctors i carried her in bridal style, getting out of the truck speeding my way to the ambulance "i'll forget you kaamir, if i remember her means am going to forget, the scary scene and the person i am with, you will be wiped out of my memory kaamir, what will i do, i can't afford to loose someone else kaamir" she whispered as she started sobbing out loud now in between her cries "even the gods above can't afford to allow you to let you forget me, Even if it means in have to raise havoc on earth, i just can't let you loose me, just concetrate on keeping your life and leave the rest on me" i whispered in between my breath, the bed came up and i placed her, kissing her forehead, i was suddenly pushed to the ground by my mortal enemy, non other felix hidhir, he never liked me anyways i just don't get this father in law of mine, he seems worse than cinderella stepmother, "I told you to stop being obbsesed with my daughter" he shouted at me causing everyone to look at me like this stalker, wanting to argue with him, i saw the doctors running arround shouting "come here, come here, this one is worse i don't know if he will make it to the hospital allive" a bed was being roled towards the helicopter since it was serious, as same as everyone my attention shifted to the burned patient covered in white sheet, but somehow miraculesly with an oxygen machine on him he was fighting for his life with all his strength, despite everyone knowing he was not going to make it except for him, the man wasn't even recognizable anymore, being burnt to the state that all his cloths were part of his skin, thats when i observed his picked out jacket sleeve realizing he was the man who locked us in the truck, while anger was sipping into my eyes, the mans other hand picked out of the bed holding a christian rosary which despite the fire it managed to stay as new as ever, the one and only limmited edition in the world, kaabil greatest treasure, some parts sunk deeper in his skin, proving how he still valued it on the verge of death, was he praying while he was being burn't, did he even shout for help or was he gratefull that he's death came fast as how he wished for it everyday, did he set himself on fire or did someone else did, was he more tortured before being burnt, when he was locking us in the truck he was arleady injured, it means he was trying to save us, why would anyone want to give such a torturesome death to a person like kaabil, he's litterly the male version of vargin mary, the most innocent beings ever walked on earth, he wished nothing more than the end of his days on earth so as to leave this cruel world, and him fighting for his life means that it was not his will...

While my mind was blowing up with questions and answers, i tried again to get back on my feet to run towards him in which my feet and body was failing to coorperate, so i crawled towards him, as even my eyes were trying to block me out, yes, i was embarassed, yes i looked pathetic, Narnia coming to my rescue as she hugged me tring to hold me back as she kneeled to the ground trying to tell me some words that i couldn't even hear her, using all my strength trying to fight her, but i was week, so i just ended up screaming as tears were flowing out of my eyes, asking myself one major question 'DID HE DIE BECAUSE IT WAS HIS FATED DAY OR WAS IT BECAUSE I EXCHANGED ELL'S LIFE WITH HIS' thats why i never stopped screaming till i passed out. Even after i passed out i still knew one thing, if Heroes dies, then VILLAINS are the only ones who are left behind to bring Havoc and i will surely be the greatest villain in histry of human kind . . .

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