Dear Readers, This story covers mentions of suicide, anxiety, depression, miscarriage and harassment that can be triggering. Please be aware. I hope I have treated the issue, the characters and you, the reader, with care. Other than that, the book is mature with explicit s****l content and covers light b*****e and b**m. Hugs, Mahi Hey Ethan, If you are reading this, then I’m sure that I did it. I am gone. Just like that. I have so many things to say to you, but it’s ironic how I have no words. I know you have many unanswered questions as well but don’t worry, E, you’ll find out why I did it. And why I had to. Please do me a favor and read this journal. I hid all of this from you and I deeply apologize for that. I wish I was brave enough to face you and talk to you about all

