Believed You

I Can't Control

As exams were done, I started to feel sad ? I knew we had to leave for vacation which was for Two months which meant I would miss him I would not be able to see him, but at least we were leaving together, I should get control over myself I should not let my guard down, is he feeling the same will he miss me, these thoughts are running in my mind and finally it's time to leave, we took our bags and went to the bus stop, my worm dress is giving me the warmth from this cold weather but this is not what I need, I'm craving for something else which only he could give me

He is silent by sitting beside me why he is not talking about anything I wanna spend my time in these last moments.

I kept staring at him he just looked at me and turned his head again, wait is he avoiding me, Ok then fine. I will just sit quietly for 8 hours even if he speaks I won't talk to him, and I'm angry right now as I was talking to myself bus has arrived.

As I was about to sit beside Tylor, Liam grabbed my hand and made me sit behind him I was completely shocked to even protest him from doing that. We just stared at each other for a minute but we came back to our senses when the bus started, I turned my head towards the window and never looked back at him, I guess he sensed that I was mad.

He kept talking to me but I was trying to control myself from confessing my feelings for him, as time went by I was losing control over myself, here I was struggling to control but the way he speaks makes me weak, as I was thinking suddenly I felt a hand over my palm.

My mind stopped working I don't know what I was doing suddenly, I grabbed his hand and placed my head over his shoulder.

I don't know why I did that maybe I lost control over my feelings thinking I was gonna miss him in the holidays. I just kept quiet even though he did not say anything we stayed like that for some time, Until he moved his hand towards my face maybe to check If I was sleeping.

Liam: Laura (He called me with smoothness in his voice)

I just hummed

Liam: Are you sleeping?

Laure: I moved my head negatively.

He placed a kiss on my head and intertwined our hands together tightly. This moment felt so magical and perfect to me, I just wanted to make everything freeze but my bad I can't do that.

We were in our world not knowing someone was watching us, we heard a clicking sound from the front as we looked forward we found Tylor and Jain were watching us and were taking pictures, I hid my face behind Liam's shoulder not knowing what to do.

Tylor: I know something is going to happen today, But I didn't expect this one (smirks looking at us)

They started teasing me for some time until my face turned red, and we were still in the same position, after they got satisfied from all the teasing they sat back in their places giving us privacy.

We just kept quiet but then Liam got a message from Jain.

Liam took his phone out and opened the message, after seeing it I blushed hard and Liam kept his phone inside in a hurry.

Jain: KISS HER ( in text)

Liam: It's OK we don't have to kiss he is just teasing you.

He smiled at me, I was so lost in the smile that I moved my head towards his face and gave a peck on his lips.

I moved back and looked at his face which looked completely shocked.

Laura: I thought of making it true instead of lying to them about the kiss.

I said shyly looking at him.

Liam: Laura, that was my first kiss

He said still in complete shock. I just chuckled and hugged him from the side, by my movement he came back to his senses and took me in his embrace. YES, this is the warmth I've been craving for a long time, three hours are left till we reach my home and we keep talking sharing everything in this time that is left for us.

As time passed I became more connected and didn't wanna leave him and stay by his side.

I have reached the destination we I should get off and I know It's time to say BYE. I looked back at him one last time and left from there, this is it now I won't be able to see him for two months how I will survive, with a sad face I went home it was already two in the morning when I reached home.

Seconds became minutes, minutes became hours, and hours became days as we talked.

Finally, the day arrived Exam RESULTS are OUT as I said I f****d up every single exam, and the situation got worse at home, I needed someone to talk but I was not able to I have restrictions from doing that.

I felt lonely which caused me to get bad thoughts it led me to a suicide attempt, I got myself a knife as I was trying to cut my wrist I felt no pain just because it was a butter knife ? I know it's funny to hear this but luck was not on my side.

After a day finally, I was able to get a phone I called Liam without wasting a second.

Liam: Laura, what happened to you I was trying to contact you.

He was talking and I suddenly burst out crying and started talking, I think he didn't understand what I was saying.

Liam: OK Laura, take a deep breathe and tell me clearly what happened

But I am a stubborn girl and started crying more but he had his patience and calmly listened to my words. I got calmed down after some time and laughed at my actions.

Laura: Sorry, I made you worried.

Liam: Just talk to me if you are not feeling good I will always listen to you, just don't make any stupid decisions.

Laura: I was not in my right mind, that's it now I'm all ok.

we talked for some time.

As days passed it was finally time to go back to college, I was excited but kinda nervous, well we were meeting after a long time plus this was the first time we were facing each other after the bus incident.

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