I think I was really gone crazy. Am I bad for setting aside my original plan first for Simeon? I had a scheduled flight, but then, I canceled it for this last-minute plan trip. Am I a bad mother for neglecting my need to see my son for his father who doesn't even remember a thing about us aside from having me as a wife, and the fact he knew that we had a son... I felt like Tita Astrid was right about me being an irresponsible mother. I don't want to justify my action. But at some point, I wanted to be with him. My heart was telling me to see him, and my child at the same time. And that we both should just fly and see our son together. Yet something inside told me to just go and spent my time alone with Simeon. Knowing that only I could see him, and being and talking to him might give p

