Undefeated Luna

14. Thinking Time

Katy POV:

I was happy to be back home, Harriet wanted to meet my family. I have only shifted once since turning 18, Harriet was a beautiful grey wolf, a bit larger than your standard one since Alpha blood ran through my veins. I was practicing what Felicity taught me when a smell of hazelnuts caught me off my guard. I didn’t want to be knocked out on my ass on the first day back, so I dismissed it. After a while, the smell only got stronger and stronger, I couldn’t help but turn around and there he was, my mate, my soulmate, those beautiful blue eyes.

“No, no this can’t be you!” I shouted at him. Seth was standing next to Kilian and my brother realised what just happened. Seth was about to grab my hand when I stepped back and wanted to cry. Kilian’s eyes blacked with anger as he saw my tears and he lunged at him. I didn’t want to see it, I wanted to hide in a hole.

Mate, you left our mate, please go back! Harriet pleaded with me.

Why are we paired with the Marble Pack MAN-SLUT! I don’t want him; he will only use me and chuck me to the side!

Katy please, we need him, and he loves us.

 I had to cut her off before she said anything else that would hurt me.  Why Seth, I loved him as a child growing up, he would always protect me from my older brothers, but he never paid me any attention, the kind of attention I wanted, I needed. He would sleep around and flaunt some girl in front of me but never look at me. I got to my room and I had to scream. “WHY HIM?! WHY HIM GODDESS?! THIS IS NOT FAIR” I grabbed a pillow and all I could do was cry into it.

Seth Pov:

I was about to garb her hand when Kilian lounged at me and I landed on the floor. “Hold, on Hold on, please let me explain” I pleaded.

“She came back home TODAY and she’s already crying because of YOU! YOU FUCKER I’M GOING TO KILL YOU!” I could see Bane coming out and Oscar was no match for Bane.

“It is not my … intention… to hurt your sister…. to hurt my mate” I was dodging his advances as I was trying to explain it to Kilian. “Please Alpha listen I love her” my back hit one of the trees as Kilian threw me against it.

“Kilian stop what you are doing” I hear Gerard come up behind it. Thank Goodness, Gerard was Kilian’s father and maybe he could control him. “Seth Walker, WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO MY DAUGHTER?!” He roared at me as he picked me up by the neck.

“Nothing I promise! She saw me and ran off” I could hardly breathe. Gerard threw me against another tree breaking it with the impact.  Stacey came up, all guns blazing behind me “SETH YOU HAVE ONE MINUTE TO EXPLAIN YOURSELF BEFORE I RIP ALL YOUR FINGERS OFF” she was mad and I could see where Kilian got it from, worst bit was that we were getting a bit of an audience.

“Please listen to me I know why Katy doesn’t want to be with me, I have slept with a lot of women in this pack and I have treated them horribly but…” I heard Kilian and Gerard growl.

“30 seconds!” Stacey shouted.

“but I love her, I have never disrespected her, I have loved her since she was a child and I know everything about her. She is going to be a Beta’s mate and Gerard I promise you I will worship her, now please let me go and see her, I don’t want her to be up there crying by herself” as I stood up and shook myself off, everyone moved out of my way, except for Stacey.

“I know my daughter like the back of my hand, and I will know if you hurt her and I promise you right now I will get my boys on you, they all have Alpha blood running through them” she stepped aside.  All I could think about was my sweet mate, in her bed crying.

“She is probably going to reject you Seth” Kilian pointed out as I walk off “get ready for it”. As I was walking up the stairs to Katy’s bedroom the smell of lavender only got stronger.

Knock Knock Knock.

I was praying she opens the door for me. Countless scenarios played out in my head, what if she rejects me, what if she punches me in the stomach, what if she kisses me?

“Katy please open up I just want to talk” I saw her shadow underneath the door. She opened the door and with her hand she gestured me to come in. As soon as she shut the door, I turned around to look at her, I didn’t  know what to say, but I knew what I had to do. I pinned her against the door, and lift her onto my hips, wrapping her legs around me.

“Don’t ever run away from me like that again, please don’t ever leave me” I was not angry at her, I just wanted her to see how much she mattered to me. The smell was overpowering, before she got a chance to reply I needed to taste her. I stared into her eyes, a few specs of grey and black.  But the skin around her eyes was red from crying. What have I done? I have hurt my mate.  I couldn’t help but keep her in this position I was scared that if I let her go; I will never get her, that she will never be mine.

“Seth please let me go we need to talk” Katy replied softly.

“Katy, I am not moving, you are going to listen instead”. I had to pause and look at her again, I needed to taste those lips, as our lips collided Oscar was howling, we finally found our mate. She had the best lips, I have kissed countless women in my life but if I was going to die tomorrow, I would die happy, with the best kiss of my life still lingering on my lips. I put both of my palms on either side of her head and looked into her eyes     “You were born on the 17th of November, you couldn’t roll your r’s until you were 7, you had an imaginary friend who was an older woman called Mrs Mackintosh. A bit creepy if you ask me”, she finally started to smile and let out a little laugh. “Growing up you always tried to be better than Adam and Lucas. You are obsessed with different cultures and that is why you went to study Ancient History”.

 I dropped my eyesight to her neck and buried my face in it, I needed to be even closer to her. “I also know your deepest secrets baby…. I know that you hate the smell of fresh cut grass and you hate it when people have double-barrel names or surnames. I know that you are a lightweight and I also know that you can’t wait to be a mother” I whispered the last bit into her ear. She moved her hands from my arms to my neck.

“How do you know all that?” she asked quietly.

“Because baby… I have been in love with you since we were kids, I never wanted to admit it because I know you deserve someone better than me. You deserve to be with an Alpha. If you want to reject me, I understand but please just understand what I’m feeling” I needed to bury my face in her neck again, my throat was getting dry and my eyes were getting wet.

“I did think about rejecting you Seth” Katy whispered into my ear, all I could do was hold her tighter. “But Seth I never knew how you felt… I have loved you since I can remember” she giggled.

“I love you baby”.

“I love you too” I was about to kiss her again when she moved her head away. “But Seth I need to think If I want to be with you” I had to let her go and move away, I needed to be ready for the heart break.

“Why?” I asked.

“Because you just admitted to the fact that you have loved me since we were children and yet you still decided to sleep with countless women in front of me. It disrespects me and now you want me to be yours? Have you ever thought about my feelings? Your mate’s feelings? I can’t deny the fact that I slept with some people at collage…”

I let out a low growl.

“But I did regret it straight away because I thought about MY MATE! You slept with women for the satisfaction, you wanted this reputation. If the mate-bonds means so little to you, why should I be with you?”

“BECAUSE YOU’RE MINE! MOON GODDESS GAVE YOU TO ME, I LOVE YOU!” I couldn’t control myself. “I regret everything I have done and the horrible way I have treated the mate bond, but if I knew it was you when I turned 18, I would chain myself in the cells and stay there for 3 years. I will do anything you want me to; just please promise me you’ll think about it” I had to place one last kiss on her lips before leaving. I didn’t want her to say anything I wanted her to think.