I had a plan. I wanted everything to happen a certain way and then no one would get hurt and our relationship wouldn’t start with guilt.
When Alexander woke up next to me I explained everything to him. I could only sleep for a couple of hours in the warmth of his arms before my brain started going into overdrive and I worried about everything. He listened to me intently but when he didn’t say anything in reply I looked at him and noticed how he was just staring at my lips.
‘Are you listening to me?’
‘Not at all.’ he replied, his eyes never meeting mine. ‘All I can think about right now is your lips. The way they feel on mine. The thought of how they’ll feel on my d**k.’
‘Alexander.’ I warn but. There’s no use because I can already feel my thighs clenching around my wetness. I need to get off of this bed before I lose all resolve but when I go to move Alexander’s hands are quicker as they keep me rooted on my back and he collapses on top of me. I can feel his hardness pressed against me and can see the fire in his eyes.
‘Let me kiss you.’
I nod.
I shouldn’t.
Yet I have no willpower when it comes to him and the minute his lips touch mine it feels like having an oxygen mask on after being deprived of air.
One kiss isn’t enough and it isn’t long until his tongue gets what it wants. A moan slips out of my mouth and he replies with a groan, his hips grinding into me. His hardness rubbing against my sensitive spot caused another moan. Alexander catches on to my pleasure and does it again then again, my hips coming up to meet him. The only thing separating the two of us being the small amount of fabric on his boxer and the satin fabric on my panties.
It kills me to do but I have to stop. I push him back, breaking his lips from mine.
‘Alexander, stop. If I go back to the pack smelling of you everyone will know.’
‘Just take a couple of showers.’ He responds by kissing my lips again but this time I push back harder this time and sit up right.
‘It doesn’t work like that and you know it.’
A growl escapes Alexander making me jump as he bolts upright and storms to the other side of the room, burning a hole in the carpet as he paces up and down.
‘Don’t get mad at me. You know we can’t do this. You promised me romance just last night.’
‘I know I did.’ Alexander yells before he halts at the end of the bed in order to collect himself. Is it wrong of me to say that his feral side kind of turned me on. ‘I’m sorry. I feel like I’m going to combust if I don’t touch you Sophie. I feel like I'm going to die if I don’t make you mine. It’s like my wolf has been dormant this entire time but now that I have you, he’s awake. He wants you. He needs you.’
‘You know I feel the same way. But we have to do this right and then it will be worth it.’
Alexander looks down to his boxers and points to the enlargement that I’m trying not to notice. ‘I’ve had this all night. It hasn’t gone away and trust me I've tried.’
I heard the shower run twice during the night but silently laughed to myself but I didn’t realise that it hadn’t subsided at all. He can’t go back like that. I close my eyes trying to drum up an idea. If he touches me anymore than he has and we c*m on each other then the scent will remain. Our secret will be exposed with a simple sniff.
‘Take them off.’ I say suddenly.
Alexander looks up at me like I've gone barking mad. ‘Take them off.’ I demand again when he makes no move. I unclip the back of my bra letting my breasts fall free. Alexander licks his lips at the sight of them. And then I shimmy out of my panties.
I’m not sure where the confidence to do this has come from but there's no stopping me now. My hand glides over both of my breasts and drags torturously slow down to the puddle of wetness between my legs, my eyes never leaving Alexanders. He wants as I circle my little bud with my middle finger. My legs open wider so he can get a good view and the minute he does, something snaps in Alexander as he shoves off his boxers and holds himself in his hand.
It really is big.
The thought of that entering me makes me clench around my finger as it picks up the pace. I watch him as he matches my pace, pumping himself faster and faster.
‘Can you picture us making love?’
Alexander nods furiously. ‘You’ll be sore, you won’t be able to move for a week.’
I bite my lip, hoping beyond anything that that's a promise he’ll keep. ‘Where would you c*m first?’
‘On your breasts. I want to slip my d**k between them and have you lick me clean afterwards.’
There’s no stopping the moan that comes out of my mouth and Alexander almost approaches but the frame of the bed stops him. ‘I can't wait to hear you screaming my name when I’m inside you.’
‘I can’t wait to hear you growl when you're inside me and I tighten around you.’
‘Oh Sophie.’ I can see his d**k starting to leak from the top and i’m not far behind him.
‘Oh Alexander.’
‘Say my name again, baby. Say it as you cum.’
My head almost falls off my neck as I come so close but I straighten up so I can see him. So I can watch him come undone as I do. ‘Oh. Oh Alex-aander.’
‘Sophie. Oh god, Sophie.’
I watch as he breaks in front of me and for a minute the two of us are left panting in front of each other. Riding the high until our heartbeats fall back into rhythm. Then we start to laugh. ‘I’ve never done anything like that before.’
‘But did it make you feel better?’
He nods, ‘for now.’
I roll off the bed and head towards the bathroom, turning back to him when I hear him move in an attempt to follow me. ‘Don’t even think about it, Alpha. I’m locking this door.’
He laughs as I do just that, which makes me smile and i’m still smiling when i turn the shower on and walk under the cold water
***
Liam arrives on time to meet me. A part of me wishes he had been late so i’d have more time to prepare myself but theres no use putting it off any longer. ‘Sophie, hey.’
He tries going in for a hug and a kiss but I make no effort to move and he quickly senses my mood and sits down. ‘What’s wrong?’
I look at him and smile.
Only a couple of days ago was I fantasising about us being mates and now he’s one of the people standing in the way of me being with my true mate.
‘Liam. I wanted to tell you face to face but I’ve found my mate.’
His face drops. He looks hurt but it doesn’t last and he smiles at me. ‘Damn. I always thought it was going to be me, but I’m happy for you Sophie. Is he nice? Do I know him?’
I smile just thinking about him. ‘He’s great and you do know him, but things are complicated.’
‘How so? Is he from another pack? Is he already with someone?’
I can’t give away too much without him realising. ‘He’s older than me and there are other people involved so we’re trying to handle everything so people don’t get hurt.’
Liam smiles at me. ‘That's one of the reasons I always liked you Sophie. You have such a big heart, always putting others first. That's why I know you’re going to make a great pack doctor one day. Whoever your mate is, is one lucky guy.’
Liam stands up and this time I don’t avoid his hug because this hug means goodbye.
***
It’s been a week since Alexander ended things with his wife. Miranda didn’t handle it well and tried creating a scene but that forced Alexander’s hand. He had no other choice but to reveal what she did. Ever Since then the pack has been in a frenzy. Miranda has gone awol. Liam is keeping to himself and the whole pack is still gossiping about who the Alpha’s true luna could be.
Every day I show up for work the other trainees have a new name to throw into the ring. Luckily none of those names have been mine.
‘Sophie.’
I look up from my notebook where I was copying down some notes and see Nellie and Alexander’s right hand man Maxwell looking at me. Nellie waves me over and before I can reach them I can smell the putrid smell of Frudoor Poison. One of Maxwell’s arms are covered in it. I pinch my nose with my hand to stop the smell from making me gag.
‘Good. I can see you already know what you're dealing with. Help Maxwell out for me.’
I nod and lead Maxwell into the private room, closing the door behind me. I lay a sheet down over his lap, give him a mask and glasses to put on and then kit myself up before I drag a chair over to the bed to see to him.
Frudoor is one of the most disgusting poisons and it goes completely unnoticed unless you're a wolf. Disguised as ferns, one could simply brush against it and there arms would come up in golf ball sized boils filled with pus and unless seen to straight away they could explode and the poison could leave you blind.
I wet one of the cloths and lay it over top of the boils. Having to do one at a time. I can feel Maxwell’s heavy gase on me the entire time.
‘Is it painful?’ I ask, trying to ease the tension.
‘I hope you know what you’re doing.’ He says.
‘I do. Don’t worry. I fell into a whole bush of Frudoor when I was eleven so trust me it was one of the first things I researched.’
‘That’s not what I meant.’
I meet Maxwell’s gaze and realise.
He knows.
‘Miranda did the unthinkable to win Alexander over and she got away with it until you showed up. The minute she discovers it’s you, do you think she’ll just let the two of you be happy?’
‘Why are you saying this to me?’
‘Because as well as being my alpha Alexander is my best friend. My Soul brother and I'll be damned if I let someone get close to him again just to hurt him, whether intentionally or not. So I want you to think about it. And think whether the relationship is worth the pain that’s likely to come with it?’