Chapter 9
Noah’s POV
I didn’t go to the police station. I didn’t care about their questions or their fake sympathy. Every second I spent talking was a second Gwen spent in danger. I drove my truck like a weapon, the tires screaming as I headed toward the old, broken glass factory by the water.
I knew Raph would be there. He was a man who loved power, and power always hides in dark, hollow places. I kicked the side door open with a loud BANG.
"Raph!" I roared. The sound echoed through the empty steel rafters. "Come out! Give her back!"
The air smelled like rust and old oil. From the shadows, I heard a slow, steady clapping. Raph stepped into a patch of moonlight. He wasn't alone.
Two giant men stood behind him, looking like they were made of stone. Raph wasn't wearing his "local" clothes anymore. He looked like a professional killer.
"Noah," Raph sneered, his voice dripping with mock pity. "The carpenter arrives. Did you bring your hammer? Or maybe a nice piece of wood to hide behind?"
"Where is she?" I growled. My hands were shaking. I felt the "Noah" part of me, the man who loved peace, trying to handle this with words.
"She’s dead, Noah. And you killed her by being a coward. She’s in the dirt now, far away from a liar like you."
Those words clung into my heart leaving me in darkness.
"Do you think you could have ever lived in peace? You thought you could hide here? You thought you could keep a beautiful girl like her in a shack in the woods?"
I didn't wait. I lunged at him. I threw a punch with all my strength, but Raph moved like water. He slipped the blow and drove a knee into my stomach. The air left my lungs in a sharp wheeze.
I tried to get up, but the two men behind him stepped in. This wasn't a fair fight; it was a beating. One of them caught me with a heavy boot to the ribs, and I heard a sickening CRACK. I fell to the cold, gritty concrete.
Raph knelt over me, grabbing a fistful of my hair. "Look at you," he hissed. "You're pathetic. You spent five years pretending to be a saint, and it made you soft and cost you Gwen and now you have no money. You have no friends. You have nothing but a broken heart."
He slammed my head against the floor. White light exploded in my eyes. I tried to reach for him, but my muscles felt like lead.
"Kill him?" one of the men asked, his voice as cold as the wind.
Raph looked down at me. He didn't look like a rival anymore; he looked like a monster. He leaned in, a cruel smile stretching across his face. He didn't say a word. He didn't have to.
Bang.
The sound was louder than thunder. I didn't feel the pain at first, just a strange, heavy heat. Then I felt the bullet pierce my stomach. It felt like a jagged piece of ice tearing through my middle.
I gasped, my breath hitching as I felt my life force the very thing that made Noah begin to drain away into the dirt.
I looked up at the dark sky, my vision blurring. I saw a Man who looked a bit different from Raph, like someone in charge step forward. He didn't look sad. He didn't look angry. He just looked at me like I was a piece of trash that needed to be thrown away.
With one hard kick, he pushed me over the edge. I fell through the air, hitting the freezing black water of the ocean. As the waves swallowed me whole, the last thing I felt was the stinging salt in my wound and the silence of the deep.
The ocean was cold, and the water felt like heavy velvet pulling me down. I was drowning, sinking deeper into the black silence of the sea.
As the air left my lungs, my mind filled with images of Gwen. In my mind, I was back in the kitchen with Gwen.
I could smell the fresh coffee. I could feel the wood dust on my clothes from a long day of work. I saw Gwen reach out to touch my face. Her eyes were full of love, a love I felt I didn't deserve.
"Noah," she whispered in my head.
But hearing that name felt strange now. It felt like wearing a coat that was much too small. "Noah" was a good man, a simple man.
I saw her smile. I heard her laugh. I remembered the way she looked at me when she thought I was just a simple, good man.
I should have stayed home, I thought. My heart hurts more than my wound. I was wrong to try and be a hero.
A dark, angry fire began to burn inside me, even in the freezing water. If I could go back, I wouldn't be a carpenter.
I wouldn't be "Noah" the nice neighbor. I would be ten times more evil than my father ever was. I would have been a monster if it meant I could have protected her.
This is how it ends, I told myself. I felt like a failure. I had failed to keep my promise. I had failed my "SafeSpace."
I was a disappointment to the life I tried to build, and now, the ocean was taking the last of my breath.
If Gwen is dead, I see no reason why I should be alive. It's a good thing, I got what I deserved for killing her.
I stopped fighting the water, stopped fighting to survive, closed my eyes, letting the darkness take me.
The cold water was like a heavy blanket, pulling me down into the dark. My lungs burned, and the bullet wound in my stomach felt like a hot iron. But the physical pain was nothing compared to the hole in my chest where Gwen used to be.
I stopped kicking. I stopped trying to reach the surface. If she was really dead, then I didn't want to breathe anymore.
As I sank deeper into the black silence, my mind drifted back to the small, quiet moments that had made up our life.
I didn’t think about the big things; I thought about the little things, about our first date and how beautiful it was.