ALAIA
I lay on my mate, trying to catch my breath after another round of lovemaking. This has been constant for the past month and a half. He had just returned from a run with his pack, smelling the pine needles and the morning air. Apparently, that's all it took to get Elaine up and ready. I was surprised he hadn't said anything about me giving control to Elaine whenever we had s*x. I knew full well he wouldn't like my answer.
Don't get me wrong, I can feel everything Elaine feels, and it was my body, but something in me was holding me back. Back for what? I wasn't sure. I just knew intimately touching him was too much for me. I felt like I was cheating someone. Or maybe I'm still not fully ready to accept that this was my life and I have someone who was bound to me.
In my mind, I
