Story Of Us

Chapter-22

ZACHARY'S POV

Everything's changed, every single f-cking thing. It was never in my plan list to have any short of feeling for September. I only wanted her body and nothing much but these motherf-cking emotions decided to betray me.

I knew from the start that she's telling me a lie. Her condition of making her fall for me was nothing but an act, stupid if I may add. But I continued to act as if I was believing all her lies because for few days only, I had felt what happiness actually is. Her presence, her smile, her care, her seduction, her sweetness, her jokes, her words, everything was lie but damn, it all felt good. As if I was having a dream.

She's like my new obsession whom I couldn't get out of my head; an addiction.

If I had a chance, I would have done anything to make her smile till my last day but I couldn't. I couldn't because her pain is my relief. Her tears are reminder that my demons will never let her smile.

My mind still craves her body but there's something in me which is ready to crave for her; the complete September. Her heart and her soul. I crave for her love. But I know that she won't ever be able to love me. After all who can love that man who's the only reason behind all her pain?

I no longer want to hurt her but I don't have any other option. The more I'll hurt her, the more she'll hate me and I know that I deserve hatred. A person like me should rot in hell but when I force her to say that she loves me, my nerves calm in peace. She's a soothing medicine to all my deserved wounds yet I have to make sure that she's in hate with me.

I don't trust my tainted instincts. The demons I have are strong enough to suffocate her, if she's close to me. Yet I won't let her go away from me. She has to be with me, forever and I have to hurt her, forever in order to save her from myself.

Her forced ' I love you ' is enough for me to live till I die.

I've never thought that a lust can also turn into obsession, a wild one though.

And that little girl, Claire. She's an Angel. She's more ecstatic than September. Her childish smile has the ability to make me forget about everything. But still I have to pretend that she's nothing to me because I don't have enough guts to accept the fact that she can put a pause on my past.

How f-cking beautiful it could have been if I have a chance to feel the connection with September and Claire. Like a family.

That family where September consider me as her husband and Claire, her father. Unfortunately, this will never happen.

" P-Please..t-take me h..home." She screamed. " TAKE ME AWAY FROM HERE."

I pushed down the saliva down my throat and hesitantly held an eye contact with her. There was nothing but vulnerability reflecting from her eyes. But I have to do this. I have to force her to stay for a little while in front of the graves of her family whom I had killed.

It is important for her to face the cruel reality that the people who die are not meant to be preserved as memories because those memories will haunt, forever.

She has to learn that no matter what happens, life is never going to get you those things back which you've lost and death is that loss.

I kill but only because I don't have any emotions left to feel the pain of death. It all had vanished in the satisfaction I feel when I watch the blooded dead bodies.

" ZACHARY.. P-please take me away from h-here."

Something itched in my chest but by ignoring it, I averted my eyes at the tombstone of Hunter and automatically a tainted smile crossed my lips.

That f-cking bastard deserved to be killed.

My wife loved him and that's enough reason for him to die. September is mine, only mine.

" I killed him because he was in love with you." I smiled, mercilessly.

She stilled and looked at Hunter's tombstone before cracking a dry laugh. I wait impatiently for her to say something but she didn't.

She'll hate me more now.

" Why do you hate me, Zachary?"

I pressed my eyes shut and for a minute, her face flashed in the back of my head. Her tear stained face. A sudden nausea hit me but after controlling the urge to hold her tightly in between my arms, I grabbed her arms and directed her to walk forward. Without a single word, she followed my lead till we reached my car. She quietly sat inside and focused her beautiful wet eyes outside the window.

I so badly wanted to reach for her and wipe her tears away but I know that this would only complicate the situation. If only I was in some parallel universe where my existence was enough to make her excited. If only.

" Stop your crying, you're never going to get your family back." I said.

She nodded and slowly wiped her tears away but then again I f*****g wanted to do the same.

" Now say that you love me." I blurted out in one breath.

" I love Hunter and will always do." She replied back, sternly.

My fingers gripped tighter on the steering wheel and every nerve in me starts throbbing in pain. Without thinking twice I stopped the car and pulled her outside. Her face still reflected numb emotions but this time I was sure that I will not leave her without making sure that she's only mine.

I pushed her to the car and held her face tightly in between my fingers. A slight fear appeared on her face but before she could hide it, I pressed a kiss on her forehead.

Yes, I, f*****g Zachary Wilson did so.

Why? Because I f*****g wanted to do so.

Her eyes widened in surprise but later disgust flashed through them which made my heart twist.

" I..I will not kill her."

" Kill who?"

Come on Zachary. Speak the f*****g truth.

" Claire." I whispered.

She stared at me before rolling her eyes and resting her head to the car. "Another trap for me, Eh?"

I shook my head in no but deep down I know that she won't believe me.

I licked my lips and traced the lining of her jaw. She's beautiful. Damn it, beautiful is such a small word to define her beauty. But I know that even if she will grow old then with all the wrinkles and marks, she'll still be pretty for me. Since the day I first saw her, I was awestruck with her beauty but today I want to taste her love for me instead of lust.

I had done thousands of sins but the worst of them was hurting her. I regret it every single motherfucking second. If given a chance I can spend my whole life asking for her forgiveness but she won't ever forgive me and to some point I don't want her forgiveness. Her hatred is my relief.

In the world full of bloods, she's the one with white light. Her presence is enough for me to forget everything but her.

Whenever I close my eyes, the only thought I get was about her. I don't want to be the one to give her pain but she'll has to survive whatever comes in her way because I can't leave her. She mine, only mine. She can hate me however she wants but if I get the chance to wake up next to her then it'll be okay.

" I have killed your family for power."

I stated, fearing that what her reaction would be.

She bite on her lips till the blood ooze out but didn't said anything. Her face was now covered in sweat and helplessness. I wiped away the blood from her lips and after placing a lingering kiss on her forehead once again, I pulled my hands away from her face.

Hate me, September. Hate me because I f*****g deserve your hatred.

" Would you like to say something, darling?" I faked a plain smirk while avoiding the eye contact with her.

I have to make sure that she'll hate me as much as possible.

" Kill me." She whispered.

My heart sank but still I acted as if I don't care. Kill her? Instead I would like to kill myself.

I am f*****g sure that I don't love her but there's something strange happening with my mind that I can live on her hatred but not without her.

The more she hates me the more she's safe. I am tainted, impure, filthy, monster but her hate will keep her safe from me. If by any chance she'll come closer to me, my demons will destroy her to the point of no return. I want her love but I don't want her to be in love with me.

She's a dream and I am f*****g nightmare. We can't go together, never.

" I won't kill Claire until you'll act as if you love me." I said.

She nodded without any single word and whispered a soft 'I love you.'

My heart relaxed in ecstasy and a low smile crossed my lips.

Her forced love and real hatred is all I need.

" Kiss me." I commanded.

She closed her eyes shut for a second to stop her tears and then placed her lips over mine. I stayed still and let my nerves took a dive in peace. After awhile I encircled my arms around her waist and kissed her back. The salty taste of her tears exploded in my mouth which made my smile, a little more.

My wife. She's mine, forever.