Love Me From Yesterday

Chapter 4 - Louis' POV

After leaving the hospital, I booked a grab taxi and immediately wanted to go home. I wasn't really sure what was what anymore. Gusto ko lang magpahinga, yun ang unang pumasok sa isip ko. I just wanted to clear my mind from this stressful day. In the end, it's too much even for me who thought I already had every worse thing possible in my life.

My booked taxi arrived earlier than I initially thought. He stopped in front of the hospital lobby. I tried waving my hand towards him pero mukhang di niya yata ako nakikita. Nilapitan ko yung sasakyan and when I was ready to open the door, I overheard something I suppose I shouldn't hear at all.

He was arguing with someone. Based on the tone of his voice, a lover, I suppose.

I let him finish his agenda before opening the door of the car and sat down as if I heard nothing.

He looked shocked when I opened the door, maybe because he thought na narinig ko yung usapan nila. I mean that's expected. No one would want others to hear their problems, a stranger on top of that.

I admit, it was very awkward during the ride. He was very conscious of me at imposibleng hindi ko mapansin yung bawat sulyap niya sa akin.

I began having a conversation with him. It started with a simple joke and ended up being us opening up to each other with our own problems. It was my first time opening up to someone about my messy life. A sense of camaraderie, I felt that.

The rest of the ride was simply pure silence.

We arrived at my destination at sobrang nagulat ako sa nakita ko. He was there, standing in front of the lobby entrance, like a fool.

I couldn't dare myself to get out of the car. Takot na takot ako and so many what ifs surged inside my head. A sudden thought came na if lumabas ako ng sasakyan at kinompronta niya ako, there's this feeling na in the end, bibigay ako. I used to adore that face of his and I am so scared thinking that my lingering feelings will get the most of me.

I collected my thoughts and plucked the courage to get out of the car. Sinabi ko sa sarili ko na this will be the last time I'm ever going to see his face. I was resolute about dumping him completely at that very moment. I was nervous. But what could make me more nervous when death's already knocking on my door?

The distance between us gradually shortened as I approached him. Each step was getting heavier and my heart began racing like crazy.

Hinarap ko siya, but what caught me off guard was the face he was making. It wasn't regret or guilt, it was-

*** SLAP ***

-anger.

I could feel how heavy the slap he gave me. With that, all the worries I had immediately disappeared.

"Tang*na," napamura ako sa sobrang gulat. "Problema mo?" I scorned.

"Why did you do that?" his mouth was trembling. "Why the hell did you do that?"

"..." I was at a loss for words.

"Kailan mo nalaman na buntis si Kiara?"

"What?" I was shocked.

Kiara Alfonso, my one and only best friend, or should I say ex-best friend. The two of them flirted behind my back without me knowing. Ginawa nila akong tanga sa harap nila. I only knew na niloloko nila ako for months pero now what? Buntis si Kiara?

He held my shoulders and clenched them tightly. He looked straight at me and the anger in his eyes was clearer than in broad daylight.

"Anong ginawa mo kay Kiara?!" He yelled.

Hindi ako nakasagot. Hindi ko alam ang mga nangyayari. For the past months, all he did was lurk behind my back, spouting nonsense like we should get back to each other and give him another chance. I felt disgust, anger and misery. He was so eager for us to get back that his dedication slowly trying to get me. Akala ko sincere siya sa mga nagdaang buwan, but I thought wrong. A scumbag will forever be a scumbag. As they say, kahit anong gamit mo ng pabango, kung mabaho ka, kahit anong gawin mo, mabaho ka pa din.

Inalis ko yung pagkakahawak niya sa mga balikat ko. Hindi ko alam kung bakit siya nandito at sinampal ako, pero at that moment, I had this feeling na dapat hindi ako magpatalo. I don't want him to see the messy state I'm currently in.

"So what? Ano naman kung buntis si Kiara?" I held onto my bag as if my life was on the line. "Are you that proud? Na magiging tatay ka na?"

I clapped my hands exaggeratedly. "Wow, to think na magiging tatay na ang isang Brando Cuntapay. Hindi mo na yata nacontain yang kakatihan mo at pinutok mo sa loob. To think you like it raw, how racy."

I felt nothing after seeing his face getting all affected by my provocations. I wasn't even relieved by all of that. Everything was making me tired and I was so sick of it to the point na gusto ko lang magpahinga sa huli. Can't I just have one single day where nothing happens? Why are you doing this to me?

"Wag mo ibahin ang usapan Louis, anong ginawa mo kay Kiara? Bakit mo ginawa yun?" He flopped onto the ground and started crying.

It was my first time seeing him cry sincerely. When he cheated on me and when we broke up, he wasn't like this at all. He never even shed a single tear when he saw me crying as I tried to fix our relationship.

I was totally clueless sa mga nangyayare. Based on sa mga sinabi niya, something happened to Kiara at sa dinadala niya.

"Wala akong kinalaman jan," I sincerely said. "Whatever happened to Kiara, don't you dare blame me for that. I couldn't care less after all."

He stood up from his standing and scoffed at me.

"Dapat ikaw na lang yung namata-!"

*** SLAP ***

I stopped him with a loud slap in the face. I couldn't even dare to finish what he was trying to say. Today, I got the news that my days are numbered. I tried to be strong, I even promised not to think more about it, but with everything that happened, in the end, I couldn't help but shed a tear.

"Can you not do this today, please?" sabi ko as I pulled my shaking hand behind my back. "Later, let's settle this later."

I turned around, and before I entered the residence, "Whatever you're blaming me for, wala akong kinalaman jan. It's up to you whether you believe it or not. Whatever I showed you when we were still together, everything was truly genuine. I loved and gave you everything I have. All I wanted was for you to reciprocate that. But in the end, hindi ka nakuntento at naghanap ka pa ng iba. If you truly believe that I am that kind of woman, bahala ka na sa buhay mo."

"I hope this will be the last time I see your disgusting face," I turned my head around and, with a sickening look in my face, "You disgusting piece of sh*t," I added.

I headed inside and rushed towards my room. I shakily entered my house password and after I closed the door, my knees gave out and fell onto the ground. And from there, I let out all of my emotions and cried a river.