What I Want

Chapter 5

Aubrey

My eyes fluttered open to reveal Haden sitting at the side of me.

The memories of last night came flooding into my mind. My face instantly flushed at the thought of  me begging him to stay.

He looked rather uncomfortable sitting on that chair.

I took a minute to observe his features. His long lashes fanned over his face and he wore pink pouty lips as he slept. As if noticing my stare his eyes opened.

I looked away from him, a crimson blush covering my face.

"Good Morning." I cheered.

"Morning."

"Thanks for umm-staying the night." I smiled and his eyes softened for a moment.

"I didn't do it for you Aubrey. I did it because if I didn't stay you would have kept crying and disturbing me from my sleep." He spat in disgust.

I promised myself I wouldn't cry at his insults.

"Okay , I understand." I muttered.

He paused for a few minutes then left my room.

Why is he soo bipolar?

I hopped into the bathroom and took a long shower. I changed into some shorts and a tank top. I'm sure Haden already went to work.

The thing is, I don't want to be home alone considering what happened yesterday.

I decided to call my sister, maybe she would bring the kids over.

She answered the phone instantly.

"Aubreyyy." She screamed and I giggled.

"What's up Emma."

"I'm good. I haven't heard from or seen you since the wedding."

"I'm sorry. I know I should have called."

"Its fine. But how is that sexy husband of yours doing? Are you both getting along." She laughed. I could tell she was wiggling her eyebrows. And her words held double meaning.

"We're both good and yes we are getting along."

"I heard that you guys didn't go on a honeymoon." She stated.

"Yes, I wasn't feeling well so we just put it off."

Emma and I chatted for a few more minutes. She settled for coming over this Saturday with the kids.

Talking with Emma made me feel a whole lot better. I was tired of watching television so I decided to go to take some fresh air in the park.

The weather outside was cool, it was early October and the air was now beginning to become chilly.

I wore a black camisole, matched with a cream cardigan, ripped jeans and black suede heels. I brushed my hair and pinned it in a messy bun paired with my sunglasses.

Taking a final glance of myself and grabbing my purse I made my way to the garage. This is actually the first time I've been down here. Haden sure has a lot of cars. It ranged from Benz to Toyota cars. This is so amazing.

I settled for a white Chevrolet.

I arrived at the park about 15 minutes later. It was quiet and barely had people as it usually does. There were two teenage boys skateboarding and a young girl and a child.

I sat on a swing and gently pushed myself. This reminded me of when my parents use to take my sister and I to the park when we were younger. We had picnics almost every week. But as we grew, we spent less time together.

My thoughts were distracted when I felt a small hand on my lap. I looked down to see a little girl.

"Hi." She beamed at me.

"Hello." I smiled back. She was absolutely adorable, her dark brown hair framed her face as her deep eyes stared at me with innocence.

"Can I have an ice-cweam?" She smiled cutely and I chuckled.

"Amanda. What did I tell you about asking strangers for stuff? That is rude." A girl said as she strode up to us.

"No Its fine. I'll buy her an ice cream." I interjected.

"Yayyy." Amanda squealed.

"Fine but only this once. I'm sorry about her." The girl apologized.

"Its okay. She reminds me of my niece. She's just so cute." I cooed.

"Well she uses that cuteness to get what she wants." The girl laughed.

I walked over to the ice cream stall and ordered three ice creams for us.

The girl and I sat on the park bench while Amanda hopped around and licked her ice cream.

"I didn't catch your name. I'm Kelly." She smiled.

"I'm Aubrey."

"Is Amanda your daughter?" I questioned and she looked away.

"Yes, I had her when I was fifteen. I'm nineteen now."

"She looks a lot like you." I smiled.

"Amanda means the world to me. Her father stuck around for two months after she was born then left me to take care of her by myself. My mom helped me a lot during that time. I haven't seen him since. He's such a jerk. Amanda always asks for him and sometimes I don't know what to tell her. Sorry if I'm talking too much. You're easy to talk to."

"Its fine. I'm all ears. He is wrong for leaving you. You and Amanda don't deserve that."

"I know but there's nothing I can do about it now. Last time I heard from my friends is that he went to a university out of the state. He was two years older than me. So I suppose he is almost done with university by now."

"Maybe you should look for him sometime." I suggested.

"Maybe. I don't know if he wants to see me."

"Well how do you know if you don't try. He probably changed and if he's still a jerk then that's his lost."

"Thanks a lot Aubrey for the advice. It means so much to me."

"You're welcome."

"Well I should be getting Amanda home."

We exchanged numbers and Kelly left shortly after.

I stayed a couple minutes more at the park then drove to Little Caesar's Pizzeria.

I bought a family sized pizza for Haden and I to share with some fries and drinks.

I had finished packing my stuff in the car when I heard a very familiar voice.

"Hey Aubrey."  I spun around and came face to face with Anthony. My ex boyfriend. This must be my lucky day. Note the sarcasm.

"Anthony." I acknowledged him.

"Wow you look hot. If you had dressed like that when we were together then we may not have broken up." He smirked and I rolled my eyes.

"If you weren't such a pig we may not have broken up. You were so possessive and demanding. You never listened to anything I had to say." I yelled.

Anthony and I dated through high school when I was trying to get over my crush on Haden.

"That's not true babe." He laughed.

"Whatever. I have no time for you Anthony." I rolled my eyes as I got into my car.

"Don't worry. We'll meet again Aubrey." He winked.

That's Anthony for you, immature as usual.

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I changed into something comfortable and settled on the couch. Haden should be home any minute now. 

An hour passed and Haden still hadn't shown up. I ate alone and put away the remainder for Haden.

Shortly after I heard the door open. Haden was finally home but once again he wasn't alone.

A redhead stood next to him. She wore a short skimpy black dress with black pumps. Her face was caked in makeup and she stared at me in disgust. I should be the one staring at her like that. Her outfit screams prostitute and yet she's here looking at me as if I am the one intruding her home. I ignored her stare and glared at Haden.

"Haden, Who is she?" My voice cracked and I was on the verge of tears. This cannot be happening. The level of disrespect Haden has for me is unbelievable.

"I told you not to meddle in my business. You have your life and I have mine." He stated calmly.

"But this is going against our marriage vows. We are married Haden, you can't treat me like this. I am your wife for crying out loud." I was not letting him walk all over me again.

"I had no say in that wedding Aubrey and quite frankly I don't care what you have to say. I can have my way with as many women as I like."

"Haden please don't do this. This is not right."

He ignored me as he climbed the stairs never once letting go of that woman.

I spent the rest of the night unable to sleep and hearing the sounds that came from Haden's room made me feel even worse. This man does not have and ounce of respect for me.

Their moans penetrated my brain and I couldn't help but break down in tears. 

And sadly he continued doing the same thing for the  following nights. Never once apologizing or paying attention to me.