Addicted to you

Chapter7

I couldn't move the next day, my head was pounding and I felt like absolute s**t, I just wanted to sleep and never wake up again, but of course that couldn't happen. Last night was a blur. If you asked me what happened after the shots, Id laugh because I couldn't remember one single thing. Father still hasn't spoken to me after dinner last night. I mean I haven't seen him, but normally he would say goodnight, but again nothing. I promised him i would behave and be polite but i disobeyed him, I wasn't scared he would hurt me or anything. My father isn't like that. I was worried i made him angry, that i might of ruined an important deal he was trying to set up, I felt like an i***t, but I didn't think they would all hear me. I just needed to say something to him, but as soon as i looked at him I got lost in his blue eyes....

Today i wasn't going to do anything. I was having a self-pity day. I wanted me time, i needed me time. I had a plan. I was going to order some food from downstairs and just watch films all day. I was going to turn into a slob all day... do nothing and speak to nobody, but as soon as i got out of bed Dawid knocked on the door. "Księżniczko, twój ojciec chce z tobą porozmawiać, kiedy wróci" (Princess your father wants to speak to you when hes back) Great, just great and with that my plans changed and I knew I was avoiding this hotel all day long. There really wasn't much to do around here though and It was way too cold for me and of course everything has gone wrong since we arrived here.

I wanted to go home, but i know my father, he wanted us here for a reason and if were still here then its not complete. I didn't want to face him, i couldn't. I was angry at him, myself and just everyone. Mr arrogant or Admir as he goes by, knows how to really get into my head, ive been thinking about him for far too long now, i needed a distraction, i needed to get this stupid boy out of my head. It wouldn't go anywhere. I know me, I'd fall in love, and he wouldn't want anything like that. From the way he acts and looks, I can tell Admir is only after one thing... and hes not getting that from me. Everybody around me knows im a virgin, well not everybody but my family, father made sure of it. I wasn't aloud to see any boys or go on any dates with them. If I say so myself, I'm lacking from that area. I don't even know what a man's p***s looks like in real life, less alone know what it feels like. My mother hated that rule, i remember what she would say, that its all his fault, that everything would turn back on him and that he would be the reason of whats to come. It always confused me because how would me dating affect them? I understand why my father has done it to some extent, to keep myself safe and know my worth but im 20 now... Surely i should be able to do what i wanted.

My father was planning to arrive back to our suite at 6pm, it was currently half 5 and i was getting ready to go. Laura noticed my panicked state earlier and decided to become an add-on, so now Laura is apparently coming with me. I wanted to go out to a club, but now i know i couldn't, so the next best thing was to go to out and eat some food together. We didn't alert anybody that we were leaving. If we did there would be no escaping as they wouldn't of aloud us. It was easy to get out, the new guard, Lucaz wasn't really good at keeping a look-out as he was asleep, so that was a bonus for us now but not good at allI needed to tell father about this one, if he was sleeping on the job now, how is he with other missions?

We made sure to go out of town, i didn't want my father finding us, so we did something ive never done before, catch the bus. It wasnt too bad but everyone just stared at us,it was this or nothing so i had to do it, i didn't really have a choice. Laura didn't mind, she just shrugged of the stares and just sat down like it was a completely normal thing for her. The journey was long, and the further we got, the worser the area got. The last stop is where we got of, i didn't have a clue where we was but it was okay, we would find something to do. A little further along there was a sign. we were in Zyuzino District, It was different from what i was use to. The area wasn't as clean and there wasn't that many houses it just consisted of flats. Not long into the walk we spotted a quite diner.

" why do you think dad brought us here ivy, i mean we never really come to things like this. do you think somethings happened" Laura asked. I was surprised, it came out of no where, looking up from my menu, I hesitate on what to say.

"No Laura everything is perfectly fine, I think papa thought it was a good idea to get us out of the house because of what happened with mom" It was the first thing that came to my head, i know i shouldnt blame it on that situation but i couldn't tell her i agreed. It wasn't fair for her to worry as well. I didn't want her to stress the way like i do, I needed her to be happy and like a normal teenager.She stared at me for a while, She knew i wasn't telling her something, Laura is good at reading people." Laur I promise that everything is fine, if something was wrong i would of told you" She finally accepted my answer and nodded her head. After ordering my food i get up to go to the restroom, but as soon as i find out where the bathroom is I end up smacking straight into a hard wall.