So there I was, from fourteen to seventeen, the high school years, ‘the best years of your life’, which was terrifying to hear. And we were all so naïve back then. For instance, there was the belief, and it was stated in almost every song as well, that there was one man for every woman. So when the first one came along, I thought that would be the only chance I would ever have to do this woman thing ‘the right way’. Remember, the only role model I had on how to be a woman was my mother. None of this being female thing came naturally to me. My body did what female bodies do, much to my horror, since I did not have the brains/understanding/ natural instincts even, to go with it, Or deal with it. And after tenth grade, I had crushes on guys. I can’t today understand if it was in ‘a gay way’.
