Life Without You

Chapter 4 - Tommo

“You know she is going to f*****g kill you right?” I say rather jubilantly to my lifelong best friend and the future Alpha of our pack, Bren.

“She wouldn’t do that to me, she understands what it’s like at the academy.” He says as he paces around the room some more. He’s been pacing around at every opportunity he has had for days now.

“Except this doesn’t have anything to do with the academy and I’m not going to lie for you, not to Lettie anyway.” I tell him truthfully. Although Bren has been my best friend my whole life, I’m not prepared to lie to Lettie, not even to save his arse.

“She will understand.” He repeats quietly nodding his head as he paces.

“Yes because Lettie’s calm, collected approach to everything is what everyone always notices first about her.” I say with a huge sarcastic grin on my face, whilst drawing my finger across my throat to indicate that I still think she is going to kill him.

“I really don’t feel very well.” He admits and he looks even more dreadful with every passing minute.

“Im not surprised. You’ve hardly eaten or slept in days.” I reason, noticing his uncharacteristically pale complexion.

“I can’t, I’m just too nervous.” He replies and his hands shake uncontrollably as he runs them repeatedly through his hair.

“I can see that, you’ve practically worn the carpet out with all of your pacing around.”

“I just can’t stop thinking about what if I’m not her fated mate, and it’s someone else. What if he’s there tonight?” He says quietly as if he doesn’t want the moon goddess to hear him and make his worst nightmare a reality.

“Would you still want to be with her if she isn’t your fated mate?” I ask knowing full well what his answer will be.

“Of course.” He replies, stopping his pacing momentarily so he can glare at me as if I have just asked the stupidest question imaginable.

“And you know deep down that she will take you as a chosen mate. It’s only a matter of whether you get electrocuted when you touch her or not, and that doesn’t exactly sound great to me.” I try my very best to help him see sense.

“I don’t think it’s quite like being electrocuted, but you don’t honestly expect me to believe that you don’t want to find your fated mate? I can’t imagine that you wouldn’t want to feel all the effects of the mate bond every time that you are with your mate?” He asks me, shocked at my apparent indifference. I never talk about wanting a mate, I never talk about anything to do with my feelings for any she-wolves. I am the future Beta, the support act, I’m not the important one. I’m mainly the one that is there as a voice of reason when my best friend does something stupid, and it happens way more often than you would think. Although saying that, this is the stupidest thing he has done in a while. I see the way that he and Lettie look at each other. I can’t help seeing how they act around each other and I’m not sure that I will ever find someone that I feel that way about. I certainly haven’t found anyone that I could feel that way about yet. However much Bren and Lettie annoy the hell out of each other at times, they are completely head over heels, arse over tit, in love with each other. If the moon goddess hasn’t paired them together she is more of an i***t than Bren. There couldn’t be another she-wolf more perfect for him than Lettie, and vice-versa.

“I don't know. I’m not avoiding finding my mate, I’m just not going out of my way to find her right now. If it happens, it happens I guess.” I confess. “Anyway this isn’t about me, ring her back, tell her you are going to be there tonight after all, and stop being such a pussy.”

“No, I can’t. I’ll wait and see how I feel later.” He says trying to delay the inevitable. It is inevitable, he is going tonight. I’m not going to let him get away with completely ruining Lettie’s special day over his stupid fears.

“Pussy.” I tease under my breath whilst shaking my head at his hesitancy to see his girlfriend of almost 2 years on her birthday.

“You’re still going though, aren’t you? You can take the present I got for her for me.” He suddenly asks.

“Of course I’m going. I wouldn’t miss Lettie’s birthday for the world.” I say knowing I am about to get a well deserved slap at the very least for my comments. It comes hard and fast as a clip across the back of my head. “Frankie and Jace are definitely going to be there too, they wouldn’t miss her birthday either.” I add before I duck out of the way of his second shot. Goddess I really hope he finds out that Lettie is his mate tonight. I don’t think I can take much more of him acting like this now.