Nathanael
He is only letting his walls down slowly. But who could ever blame him?
I pressured him to say something he didn’t want to disclose so openly to me yet, even if he was screaming it at me over and over again in his mind.
And when I finally got him to say it out loud, I didn’t even say it back.
What an i***t.
But I had played it in my head a thousand times, I thought I would be prepared, as I was convinced that after hearing it so many times, it wouldn’t have any effect on me.
It felt so playful when he said it in his head with his bubbly demeanor, but as he said them out loud, they crashed over me like a tsunami, hitting me with such an immense force that I could barely breathe.
And I don’t even need to breathe.
It is just a stupid trick I trained myself to do to not
